The transitional natures of both spring and autumn have always intrigued me. Spring transitions into abundance while autumn transitions into need. I read once that the word "fall" refers not only to the fall of leaves from the trees but to the fall of the year. Maybe it's my flair for the dramatic but I have thought it refers to man's fall from grace. Like the story in the Bible, you know? Man falls from the rich, lush garden of Eden represented by summer to the depths of despair represented by winter.
I've always felt that beneath the jovial atmosphere of fall, there's this desperate, very human panic to the season. It calls for preparation for the long months ahead. There is much to be done. Food must be preserved and stored. Repairs to a home must be completed before the wet snow descends. Wood must be gathered to warm the occupants. It is not hard to survive summer when food is every where you look and all the warmth one needs is provided by the sun. Yet, when autumn comes we hold festivals and holidays of thanks to greet it even though we know that what autumn transitions us into is the worst of seasons. Winter is when the weak are weeded out through starvation, exposure, and illness and even the strong must hanker down to survive, to persevere.
Personally, autumn worries me very little for there have been many falls from grace in my short life. I know well the ruthless determination to preserve our own lives that we as humans have at our very core. I know how far I will go to survive.
* * * *
There was no place in RhyDin where that feeling of frantic festiveness and steadfast preparedness was more prevalent than in the market. Vendors called out to the passing crowd, hawking their wares. Some market-goers ignored them, some politely declined, some were drawn in by the offers. Pickpockets roamed the crowd, searching for an easy target. Yet, in this city, an easy target was hard to come by. Everyone knew to keep their money secure.
Serena Stevenson cut a path through the crowds and carts, skidding to a halt to avoid running into a young boy whose mother was hot on his heels and then pressing a kiss to the cheek of one of her grandmother's oldest friends. The chaotic air acted as a bolt of energy straight through her. A white skirt swirled around her ankles and an pale blue sweater sat askew, baring a single darkly tanned shoulder in that oversized BoHo style that, if she were forced to choose a single style or era of dress, would more likely than not be named her favorite.
Dark green winter squash caught her and she slowed to a stop before the vendor, tilting her head at the vegetables as she ran her fingers over the firm skin. Some would layer it with spices and apples and butter and while that was perfectly delicious, it was not needed. Winter squash simply halved, baked, and adorned with a hint of brown sugar was the perfect fall side.
"Serena," the stand's vendor, a plump woman with her graying hair pulled back in a smooth bun, called with a grin. "I hope you are well today."
A smile appeared as Serena's dark eyes lifted from the vegetables to the woman and her sunny preteen daughter who stood at her mother's side behind the cart accepting payment from a customer with a polite bob of her head. "Mrs. Livingston! How's the family?"
"Excellent, excellent, deary!" Mrs. Livingston grinned in reply before turning to a particularly haggard looking customer who had a pair of children playing hide-and-seek around her skirt. "That'll be fifteen nobles, Mrs. Peters. Give my love to your eldest daughter. I hear she's becoming quite the little apprentice dressmaker."
The compliment softened the hard lines of Mrs. Peters' face. The reminder of one child making herself of some use seemed to give the exhausted woman some hope that the other half dozen may as well. After forking over payment and collecting her groceries, she turned on her heels to head for her next stop with her two youngest children bouncing and leaping at her feet.
Mrs. Peters gave a parting nod to Serena while Serena assumed she said a silent prayer that her midwifery services would not be needed again anytime soon. Serena seconded the wish on Mrs. Peters' behalf as she watched one of the children tug sharply on the braided hair of the other.
Mrs. Livingston turned back to Serena as she dropped the coins into her pouch. "How is Arcelia? You should tell her how fine my husband's pumpkins are this season."
The question drew a slight hint of an appreciative smile to Serena's lips as Mrs. Livingston's deeper motives were sensed. She was not digging for information on Arcelia's well-being but as to whether or not Serena had seen her lately. She wanted to know how much time Serena was spending at Rumors Mill and if the unlikely pairing between the local girl and the vineyard owner continued.
"I shall be happy to tell Arcelia that you asked after her the next time I see her," Serena offered warmly.
A man passed the cart and the movement out of the corner of her eye was brief but heart stopping. The reason why it had stopped her heart took her a moment or two longer to determine as her brain tried to keep in step with her gut reaction. At no more than six feet, his height was unremarkable and his sinewy muscles did not make him stand out in this city. She caught sight of a grizzled jaw but just as her eyes moved up his face, he turned the corner.
Without a parting to Mrs. Livingston, Serena turned on her heels and swept after him. Her dark eyes remained fixed on the back of the man. He wore a well-tailored dark suit jacket and his full head of thick dark hair peeked out from beneath the bowler sat fashionably askew. Pushing past a couple of teenage girls loitering in front of a fabric shop while having a very intellectual debate over ribbon, Serena saw the man's black cane hit the cobblestones. He seemed to be leaning on it heavily to keep weight off his right leg. The sight caused a wave of terror to grip her heart.
It couldn't be. It just couldn't be.
A hack passed separating her on one side and the man on the other. Her heart seemed to be beating to the impossibly quick rhythm of the horse's shoes against the cobblestones. As soon as it passed, she moved forward to push through the crowd. Suddenly a bowler hat was spotted in the distance. She snaked her way through the heavy foot traffic. None of the people she passed seemed to have faces. Her eyes were glued on that hat.
The man with the hat turned to step into a bank and Serena reached out to grab the sleeve of his jacket. He turned at the tugging to face her. The confused smile on his face was the first thing that she saw and it caused her to take a step back. The man had sharp features and pale skin that suggested too much time spent in that bank behind a desk. The banker was not who she thought him to be. This was not William Walbourne. Had William truly been in the market? Had her mind tricked her upon seeing the banker pass instead? Had William Walbourne disappeared into the crowd while the carriage had passed?
Serena dipped her head sheepishly with a mumbled apology to the banker about him not being who she had thought he was. He gave a warm laugh and tipped his hat before disappearing into the bank, leaving her to stare suspiciously at the people passing by the heavily traveled corner.
It couldn't be. William Walbourne was dead. Was he not?
I've always felt that beneath the jovial atmosphere of fall, there's this desperate, very human panic to the season. It calls for preparation for the long months ahead. There is much to be done. Food must be preserved and stored. Repairs to a home must be completed before the wet snow descends. Wood must be gathered to warm the occupants. It is not hard to survive summer when food is every where you look and all the warmth one needs is provided by the sun. Yet, when autumn comes we hold festivals and holidays of thanks to greet it even though we know that what autumn transitions us into is the worst of seasons. Winter is when the weak are weeded out through starvation, exposure, and illness and even the strong must hanker down to survive, to persevere.
Personally, autumn worries me very little for there have been many falls from grace in my short life. I know well the ruthless determination to preserve our own lives that we as humans have at our very core. I know how far I will go to survive.
* * * *
There was no place in RhyDin where that feeling of frantic festiveness and steadfast preparedness was more prevalent than in the market. Vendors called out to the passing crowd, hawking their wares. Some market-goers ignored them, some politely declined, some were drawn in by the offers. Pickpockets roamed the crowd, searching for an easy target. Yet, in this city, an easy target was hard to come by. Everyone knew to keep their money secure.
Serena Stevenson cut a path through the crowds and carts, skidding to a halt to avoid running into a young boy whose mother was hot on his heels and then pressing a kiss to the cheek of one of her grandmother's oldest friends. The chaotic air acted as a bolt of energy straight through her. A white skirt swirled around her ankles and an pale blue sweater sat askew, baring a single darkly tanned shoulder in that oversized BoHo style that, if she were forced to choose a single style or era of dress, would more likely than not be named her favorite.
Dark green winter squash caught her and she slowed to a stop before the vendor, tilting her head at the vegetables as she ran her fingers over the firm skin. Some would layer it with spices and apples and butter and while that was perfectly delicious, it was not needed. Winter squash simply halved, baked, and adorned with a hint of brown sugar was the perfect fall side.
"Serena," the stand's vendor, a plump woman with her graying hair pulled back in a smooth bun, called with a grin. "I hope you are well today."
A smile appeared as Serena's dark eyes lifted from the vegetables to the woman and her sunny preteen daughter who stood at her mother's side behind the cart accepting payment from a customer with a polite bob of her head. "Mrs. Livingston! How's the family?"
"Excellent, excellent, deary!" Mrs. Livingston grinned in reply before turning to a particularly haggard looking customer who had a pair of children playing hide-and-seek around her skirt. "That'll be fifteen nobles, Mrs. Peters. Give my love to your eldest daughter. I hear she's becoming quite the little apprentice dressmaker."
The compliment softened the hard lines of Mrs. Peters' face. The reminder of one child making herself of some use seemed to give the exhausted woman some hope that the other half dozen may as well. After forking over payment and collecting her groceries, she turned on her heels to head for her next stop with her two youngest children bouncing and leaping at her feet.
Mrs. Peters gave a parting nod to Serena while Serena assumed she said a silent prayer that her midwifery services would not be needed again anytime soon. Serena seconded the wish on Mrs. Peters' behalf as she watched one of the children tug sharply on the braided hair of the other.
Mrs. Livingston turned back to Serena as she dropped the coins into her pouch. "How is Arcelia? You should tell her how fine my husband's pumpkins are this season."
The question drew a slight hint of an appreciative smile to Serena's lips as Mrs. Livingston's deeper motives were sensed. She was not digging for information on Arcelia's well-being but as to whether or not Serena had seen her lately. She wanted to know how much time Serena was spending at Rumors Mill and if the unlikely pairing between the local girl and the vineyard owner continued.
"I shall be happy to tell Arcelia that you asked after her the next time I see her," Serena offered warmly.
A man passed the cart and the movement out of the corner of her eye was brief but heart stopping. The reason why it had stopped her heart took her a moment or two longer to determine as her brain tried to keep in step with her gut reaction. At no more than six feet, his height was unremarkable and his sinewy muscles did not make him stand out in this city. She caught sight of a grizzled jaw but just as her eyes moved up his face, he turned the corner.
Without a parting to Mrs. Livingston, Serena turned on her heels and swept after him. Her dark eyes remained fixed on the back of the man. He wore a well-tailored dark suit jacket and his full head of thick dark hair peeked out from beneath the bowler sat fashionably askew. Pushing past a couple of teenage girls loitering in front of a fabric shop while having a very intellectual debate over ribbon, Serena saw the man's black cane hit the cobblestones. He seemed to be leaning on it heavily to keep weight off his right leg. The sight caused a wave of terror to grip her heart.
It couldn't be. It just couldn't be.
A hack passed separating her on one side and the man on the other. Her heart seemed to be beating to the impossibly quick rhythm of the horse's shoes against the cobblestones. As soon as it passed, she moved forward to push through the crowd. Suddenly a bowler hat was spotted in the distance. She snaked her way through the heavy foot traffic. None of the people she passed seemed to have faces. Her eyes were glued on that hat.
The man with the hat turned to step into a bank and Serena reached out to grab the sleeve of his jacket. He turned at the tugging to face her. The confused smile on his face was the first thing that she saw and it caused her to take a step back. The man had sharp features and pale skin that suggested too much time spent in that bank behind a desk. The banker was not who she thought him to be. This was not William Walbourne. Had William truly been in the market? Had her mind tricked her upon seeing the banker pass instead? Had William Walbourne disappeared into the crowd while the carriage had passed?
Serena dipped her head sheepishly with a mumbled apology to the banker about him not being who she had thought he was. He gave a warm laugh and tipped his hat before disappearing into the bank, leaving her to stare suspiciously at the people passing by the heavily traveled corner.
It couldn't be. William Walbourne was dead. Was he not?