Topic: Visits: Reap what you sow

Lirssa Sarengrave

Date: 2010-10-05 12:23 EST
Lirssa held the strap of the messenger bag slung crosswise from shoulder to hip. The present from Miss Eva and Mister Mason used to carry her lesson books. It still had one book in it, a small tome of a history she did not know well. But the space was greatly consumed by the packages she would deliver for Miss Eless and the messages she ran for Mister Lucky?s law office.

That she found herself in the southern part of town at the stretching bright of afternoon she took as a sign. Never had both sources of her errands had deliveries in that area on the same day, and she stood at the city gates looking south, down the road. And though it lead on past the glens and the wildlife refuge, in her mind it lead to a vineyard and a tutor.

Mister Jolly had not come to visit her. She had not gone to see him. It was harvest time. He had so much to do, so much to think about it.

It was a cheat. It was an excuse like others she had made not to start that long road south. Not this day. She finished her errands and with a shake of her legs and stretch, walked to the vineyard.

The vineyard was rustling with activity. It could not be seen from the road, but take a walk around to the back, and the patio was covered with tables. A low hum reverberated along the rows where people with sacks across their shoulders, set aches to wrists and in fingers with the gentle twisting pluck of the fruit deeply ripe with harvest. Jolyon was among them.

It was Arcelia in her bustling between kitchen and patio preparing for the afternoon rotation of breaks who caught sight of the redheaded girl. She almost dropped the pitcher of lemonade. ?Oh my! Lirssa!? She set the pitcher down and hurried over, hands clasping together in her check printed apron, then gathered up the girl in a hug.

Lirssa did wonder, as she felt herself cocooned by the strong arms and soft body, if Mrs. Arcelia and Mrs. June weren?t kin. Or maybe all kindly, grandmother-like figures had the smell of flour and lilac about them all the time and felt like being rolled up in a blanket warmed by a fire. ?Hiya, Mrs. Arcelia. Harvest time, huh?? She broke free and looked down the lines of the grapevines.

?Oh, yes, dear. Busy, busy.? She patted the girl?s cheek and then went back to her work. ?But not too busy for you, my dear. You?ll find the professor down near the end of that row there. I will have a glass of lemonade and a sandwich for you when you are ready.?

That was another thing. Food seemed to always be around these big hearted ladies, and it made her wonder more about how food could mean affection. Lirssa had mainly thought of food as a means to an end, a necessary exception to the every day. The past several months chipped away at that concept when she thought of sugared almonds, falafel, cake in mugs, pancakes.

Grapes took affection and attention, from spring through harvest. Handled with care, avoiding bruising and loss as much as possible, Jolyon worked as long as he could beside the seasonal workers he hired. It hit the accounts hard, but the harvest was a steady and good one. It would only dampen his plans a little. There was still much to do, and the excavation site had been wrapped for the season so he could focus on the vineyard and his papers. A focus that had him wholly in his work at the moment and not noticing the arrival the young girl so long ago a student who had taught him very much in turn.

She took the last few steps to his side slowly. She thought he looked tired. The tired that hits the edges of the mouth and eyes. So many people were tired. It made her feel guilty having lazed around for so long. With a final step and a gulp of courage, she said, ?Hiya, Mister Jolly.?

There are voices, cadences that like a fond melody are familiar even in brevity. Jolyon stopped his work instantly and turned. What was a pulse of delight in seeing his student standing there was tempered with a swift analysis of her condition. She looked wary. He had his own dose of guilt. He should have gone to see her. Things were complicated, but no so complicated as to ignore the responsibilities of friendship. ?Lirssa, I am so glad you have come.? And realizing how that might have sounded, he waved at the branches, ?And, no not to set you to work.?

Lirssa Sarengrave

Date: 2010-10-05 12:24 EST
Glad she had come. That was unexpected. It tossed her outside of the rolling bin of choices in what to say. His little joke took the anxiety right out, and she giggled. ?I could, but gotta take things a bit at a time. With Ali gone and the baby born, I like to stick closer to the loft to help Fionna.?

In typical Lirssa fashion, there was a textbook worth of information cobbled and shoved together in a clip of sentences. What was first to his thoughts was how much the events had made her grow up. That she considered how much she could take on and it was not the world or everyone?s burdens. But that thought was soon superseded by the rest of the information as pertained to her family, the home inner family, though it was of note she called them by their first names. Jolyon knew too well Lirssa?s family was a strange, mostly communal one that he had not encountered in such a widespread sense before.

Others had communal families, but not upside down such as this one was. There was a blossoming curiosity to study it. One Jolyon knew he never would be able to considering the last time he had tried to study Lirssa it had caused only hardship and hurt feelings. Instead, he smiled to Lirssa. ?Congratulations to your family,? he stressed the word. ?I trust they are all well?? He asked and walked from the grapevine, urging her to follow him as he made his way to a shady area near the creek that ran along the south of his property.

Family. They were family of course, but she felt inside out about it all and she realized talking with Mister Jolly was going to be a difficult time. Perhaps that?s why she had avoided it more than anything. It was easier to stuff all that confusion and guilt into a sour pit at her middle. ?Yessir. All fine, well, no?I mean yes, I mean, oh butter and beans.?

Careful with his bag of grapes, he sat beneath the shade and drew off the straw hat he had been wearing. He felt the sweat that lined his brow cool instantly with the touch of breeze. ?Come and sit, Lirssa. Now, you said Ali has gone.? It was time to take things methodically.

Less care given to her own body, Lirssa flopped down and cradled the messenger bag in her lap, hugging it close. ?On a trip.?

?So he will be back.?

It was that faith and trust thing Mrs. Sianna had talked about that Lirssa found was a little too fickle in her own body. Faith and trust. Faith and trust. Ali had come for her. He did not abandon them. ?Yessir.? She finally managed with a flick of a glance up at her tutor?s face.

The hesitation was telling, but more to that struggle he saw on her face. ?And your mother and the baby are healthy with no problems due to the birth.? It was best, he realized, not to generalize the well being of Fionna and the child considering the expression Lirssa had with regards to Ali.

Stated that way, Lirssa was able to give a very certain, ?They are very well, yessir, thank you.?

?Now then, you are better, I am glad to see, and able to make such a journey.?

Her legs. It was always her legs. And that only made her think of Mister Lucky and Zahra, and Sadir and Saif, and the wretchedness began to creep back up at her. ?Yessir, I am getting better. I?m getting better and,? her hands flopped, ?and everythin? else is gettin? worse!?

Jolyon knew all too well that Lirssa had grown up with drama surrounding her. And not the metaphorical drama. The literal growing up around actors, seeing life as portrayed in the perfection of plays to the counterpoint of the imperfection in her own reality. ?Lirssa, one step at a time, please.?

The scowl a fierce one that made her head hurt. ?Mister Lucky shot my ? Ali?s cousin, Zahra.?

Cousin. Likely the woman he had left to bleed that night long ago on the table. That was a nightmare that cut at his sleep enough. He would not consider it now, as there was a student, a friend, that needed his guidance. ?Lirssa, don?t step backwards. They are not your family, your mother and father, only when it is convenient for you.? Jolyon could not help but chuckle, which he tried to hide by squinting up at the vineyards. It was a bit of advice he should listen to himself.

Well that just tore it. Her hands gripped at the leather of the bag, ?But it?s because I claimed ?em this all happened. Iffin I had just been any other street kid, that Shade,? the name came out a quiver even as she tried for it to not choke her up, ?he wouldn?t have done this to me, and Mister Lucky wouldn?t have shot Zahra, and ?? the growl came out as she kicked at the earth.

?Nonsense.?

Lirssa thought maybe flames were coming out of her eyes they burned so hot on Mister Jolly. Her jaw sore with clenching, her fists bundling up against the bag.

Jolyon could see he had spoken a bit too sharply and held up a hand. ?Lirssa, listed as facts, you are not incorrect. But life and family is not about facts, cause and effect. It is about mutual affection, support through good and bad. You will not always get along even, but that does not make the love go away or the trust.?

Lirssa Sarengrave

Date: 2010-10-05 12:28 EST
If it were not for the fact her visit to Mrs. Sianna had been so recent and she knew Mister Jolly had been busy with harvest, she would think another conspiracy was at hand. It was also the shoring up of the little part of her that believed it. Did she not still love people even when she did not understand them? Surely others could do the same. She did not love Ali ? Papa ? less even though she felt heart-sore that no father would ever stay. No one seemed to really want her for keeps.

Even her own heart knew that was a wicked lie made up in her mind and she pouted. The lie had a source and she wrestled with it, until she realized her wrestling with it had never solved anything, so she spoke it. ?Mister Jolly, what if I don?t know how??

?As with everything, Lirssa, you learn. And I think you do know how. You know how to give it. You just need to learn how to receive it, and it is something we all struggle with.?

?But I feel like, if I don?t do just the right thing, it?ll all go away.?

Jolyon sighed. He also knew how that felt. He looked up at the villa and over his land, but his eyes went back to a window, knowing in that room the bed was empty, his wife gone off for the day to her secret needs, games and glories. It was an irony, at times, that giving advice was easier than realizing things for oneself. ?We all learn every day, and we will not always make the right choices. Lirssa, look at this vineyard, at the people hired, at the work gone into it, and none of it by magic.?

He reached into his bag and plucked out a few grapes, handing one to her and biting into one himself. ?If I did what others told me, what was the easier way, the way of others, I would employ magical or advanced mechanical means to have this harvest in with a snap.? For emphasis he snapped his fingers.

?But ya don?t, and I like that.? Lirssa encouraged with a smile.

It was funny, how fast the girl would turn it about to support another and dash away from her worries. Jolyon was having none of it. ?Yes, thank you, so do I. But my meaning is, I make a choice. It is, in this case, the harder choice, but I have faith that it will turn out well, and I will be proud of the outcome. I have only my choices I can make. I cannot make others for them. I can speak to buyers and merchants why I do it this way, but they can only choose what is best for them, and the magically harvested is faster, the magically maintained vineyard more reliable. It is my choice.?

Lirssa looked over the vineyard and she finally popped the grape in her mouth. It tasted so sweet. It made her smile. She had choices and she had to have faith and trust. What she knew she had was love. Faith and trust would take some work, but she had never shirked from work before. If both Mrs Sianna and Mister Jolly said it, then it had to be the key, the answer, for all that bitterness gnawing at her.

?Thanks, Mister Jolly.? She smiled to him and got to her feet.

Jolly laughed and stood as well, pulling the bag up to his shoulder once more. ?You thank me now, but as soon as I have a moment to speak with your mother, and if he is returned, your father, we are going to renew your studies in earnest, as I understand you have a desire to become a pilot.?

With a wide eyed blink, Lirssa then smiled. If she became a pilot, then maybe everyone would see it was all okay and nobody would hurt others because of her, and nobody would go away. ?Yessir, I really, really do.? Some lessons harder to learn.

?Well,? he started to walk back to the work of the day, feeling oddly more invigorated after such a peculiar conversation, ?I cannot teach you the flying, but I can help you with the other things that will get you there, and then we will see if your parents and I cannot find a suitable school that will get you to your wish to fly.?