Topic: Jenni's Journal

Jenni Rammage

Date: 2012-07-05 10:24 EST
June 25, 2012

At least I think it is.

This place is weird. And scary. I went to the Red Dragon Inn tonight and I met a real dragon. He? she? it talked. And knew who Tolkein is. I also met a cute guy, but I forget his name though. David? Darren? Daniel? He had amazing grey eyes. He was really nice to me. I hope I see him again.

Tomorrow I'll explore this place. I think I'll be stuck here for a while. Maybe I'll find a bookstore or a coffee shop where I can sit and draw.


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Jenni Rammage

Date: 2012-07-05 10:30 EST
June 26, 2012

Today is my mother's birthday. I wonder if they'll find the present I bought for her in Seattle before I was disappeared. Do they know I'm gone?

I miss Seattle. I miss the Sound and the trees. I miss Pike Place and the fish throwers and the rain. When will it be safe for me to go home?


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Jenni Rammage

Date: 2012-07-05 10:34 EST
June 27, 2012

I walked around the town yesterday. I felt like I was at a Ren Faire or on a movie set.

I suppose it's pretty here and there is a really neat library and a bakery that's also a book store. But it's not Seattle. On the other hand, there is the Imperial Grand Rhy'Din Hotel and Casino and the Temple Restaurant. I got a junior suite here yesterday. It's called the Citrine and it's all done up in oranges and golds. Very Hotel de Paris.

Daniel, he of the haunting eyes, owns the restaurant, and I think I made a friend. He's a good listener and there's something to be said for that.

But I still miss Seattle.


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Jenni Rammage

Date: 2012-07-05 10:37 EST
June 28, 2012

Today I did nothing.

I stayed in my suite until lunch, then I went downstairs to see Daniel but he was very busy so I just stayed on the patio and ate and sketched. Then I had a nap. When I woke up, I saw that it was a beautiful sunny day, the kind that is rare back home, I went up to the pool with my sketch book. I didn't do much swimming because this girl I saw needed to be drawn. She is what I wish I could be and everything I never will.


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Jenni Rammage

Date: 2012-07-05 10:40 EST
June 28, 2012

I'm breaking my once a day entry rule, but I have a very good reason for doing so. Daniel came to my suite earlier and we talked about my future here. I need a job and a place to live. The hotel is nice but it's kinda expensive. I can't stay here for much longer. He promised me a job as his assistant in the restaurant! He wants me to start tomorrow morning!

Things I miss: Java Chip Starbucks.


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Jenni Rammage

Date: 2012-07-05 10:43 EST
June 29, 2012

People watching on the agenda today. I found a lovely little park called Founder's Park. I think this might be my favorite spot in the whole city. It's a good place to sit and draw passers-by. I saw these two women today. One had a baby. The other looked important. I think she's in the government. She looked very stressed out.


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Jenni Rammage

Date: 2012-07-05 10:46 EST
July 3, 2012

I would say something about not buying cows but I'm the only one who would get that. Then again, I'm the only one reading this, so yeah. Why buy the cow when you can get the milk for free?

I always found that phrase slightly insulting when my mother said it to me. Women are not cows, despite the way some men treat them. I just never thought I'd actually fall into bed with one who treated me that way. So now I'm stuck here without a job or friends and I'll probably have to leave the hotel, too.

I just really want to go home now.


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Jenni Rammage

Date: 2012-07-05 10:50 EST
July 4, 2012

If I were back in Seattle right now, Mother, Father and I would be sitting out at the dock, watching the fireworks over the bay. We would have eaten grilled salmon, roasted garlic and red potatoes, fresh green beans, and wildberry cobbler.

Since I'm stuck here though, Daniel invited me over for the same meal. Yes, we made up. Yes, I'm a jackass for not believing him from the start.

I feel cautiously optimistic about my future here. Now if they could only find my father...


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Jenni Rammage

Date: 2012-07-10 12:06 EST
July 10, 2012

It feels very strange to be in a relationship with someone who isn't human. I keep wondering if he thinks the same way a I do or if everything is either prey or a potential mate to him. I'm glad to have him though. I don't think I could have gotten through the past week without him.

There's still no word on my father's whereabouts. I know Agent Thurston is doing everything he can but it's not enough. And being here so far from my mother is awful. I'm scared that she's spending all of her time at the bottom of a bottle again without anyone to look after her.

I want to go home. I don't care if someone is trying to kill me. I need to be home. I need to be in Seattle with my mother.


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Jenni Rammage

Date: 2012-07-11 11:52 EST
July 11, 2012

When I got back to my room after work today, there was a huge box in the middle of the living room. The FBI dropped off some of my stuff. It's mostly clothes and art supplies, but there were some books, too. Kathy Reichs and Patricia Cornwell novels I haven't read yet. At least I'll have something to do when I can't see Daniel as much as I'd like. Which would be all the time if I had my way. He would get sick of me in no time flat. Even though he's amazing.

Will he still like me when he finds out what I really want from him? There are others I could ask to to it, but I want it to be him. He'd be perfect. I wouldn't be afraid if I knew it was him doing it. Oh, my God. Can I really be serious about going through with this crazy plan? Will he hate me? I have to know, though. I hope he understands. I hope it doesn't change the way he feels about me. I don't think I could take that.



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Jenni Rammage

Date: 2012-07-15 14:28 EST
July 15, 2012

Daniel's friends, David and Riley, invited me and Danielf or dinner at their house last night. It was a lot of fun. They made Italian food: chicken parmesagne, spaghetti with oil and garlic, antipasta, and some yummy custardy stuff with fresh berries. Their house is gorgeous. Daniel said theey built it themselves. There's a little koi fish pond in the backyard and a huge fireplace, too. Theyhave a dock of their own on a river and a huge dog called Finn who looks like he'd be really mean but ended up being the nicest, friendliest dong I've ever met. After dinner we went to watch Riley dance. She's a ballet teacher as well as being a principal dancer for her company. The show was very good. All the dancers were very graceful and beautiful.

As third dates go, it was a great one. I wonder what number four will be?


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Jenni Rammage

Date: 2012-07-23 23:23 EST
July 17, 2012

I went to see my father today. It was awful. Despite being in jail, despite the fact that he was sitting there in handcuffs, days away from being sent to some horrible penal colony for the rest of his life, he was still the same cold, clueless rich kid who thinks because he has billions, he can do whatever he wishes and not worry about the consequences. It's like he's in denial about everything. Or maybe he expects his people to come and bust him out at any moment. It's sad.

What's worse though is the fact that my mother knew about everything and she stayed and dealt with it. How? How could she accept that he's responsible for so much pain and death? How could she just turn a blind eye and not ask questions about where he was going and where the money came from? I guess it's easier to just pretend and drink yourself into a stupor every night than to face ugly truths about your husband.


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Jenni Rammage

Date: 2012-07-25 10:51 EST
July 18, 2012

Date number four was simply amazing.


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Jenni Rammage

Date: 2012-07-25 10:57 EST
July 25, 2012

I finally did it last night. I worked up the nerve and asked him. And like I was afraid, he tried to talk me out of it. He cautioned me my personality would change, maybe even completely. He made me promise that I would talk to Riley before I made up my mind for real. But I already know for sure. This is what I want. I have nothing left at home to go back to. My life is here now.

I think everything he was saying was to scare me. Why wouldn't he want this just as much as me? We'd have a bond, something that few others have. I just don't get why he's not more excited. Maybe it's too scary for him. Maybe it's too much of a commitment for him. We'd be linked forever. Maybe he just doesn't like me enough to do this.

But I want it. Regardless of my talk with Riley. Regardless of his willingness to do it. I will be a Lycan.


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Jenni Rammage

Date: 2012-07-27 23:16 EST
July 26, 2012

I had lunch with Riley today.

I wish she didn't scare me so much. But she makes me feel every one of my many faults. I think she's the kind of person my father wanted me to be. At least her confidence and assurance anyway. I wonder what her parents are like. They must be very proud of her. I'm envious of that.

The conversation went just as well as I expected. She freaked out and started cursing at me. Her scare tactics were even more impressive than Daniel's were. I will admit that when she started talking about bones breaking and stuff I almost backed down. But I don't want either of them to think that I'm weak. Weakness around big cats is deadly. I want them to know I can handle it.


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Jenni Rammage

Date: 2012-08-07 11:09 EST
August 5 2012

It's been almost two weeks since I asked Daniel to help me become a Lycan. Two weeks since I talked to Riley about what it's like. And I still don't know what Daniel will decide. The next full moon is two weeks away. Do I wait for Daniel to decide my fate? Or do I make my own choice and find someone more inclined to do it? Riley and Daniel can't be the only Lycans in town. There have to be others who would be more open to my plan. The trick is finding them.

I think I'll start spending more time at the Red Dragon. But how will I know who's who? Should I just ask people? Maybe eventually someone will give me what I want.


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