Well....I guess I should keep some kind of record now, shouldn't I? So, here goes.

My First Journal Entry.


17/3/2013
My name is Arthour Chazore-Silverblood, how strange that sounds to me, to call myself by this new name, when I have just been Arthour Chazore for a thousand and more years...I like it.

After some, nine hundred years? I've found someone..Someone that loves me. A beautiful, red haired, vampiress that means the world to me.

Kind of surprising actually, I never thought I'd stay in Rhy'din for long, considering everything in my past. I've lost my homeland to a cataclysm that destroyed it utterly. Only the Academy of Magnus remains, and that only in a pocket dimension somewhere in the Aether, filled with....Other..Things.

I've moved from place to place, country to country, for five hundred years. I've mostly stayed up in the North, going between the various different city states there and then later I moved more South, going further to the East. It was, about seven months ago now, that I assisted the coastal city of My't-Zerk with a few rouge mages that had been using a form of weather magic in order to blockade the city's ports and hold them all to ransom. As a sign of appreciation, the 'Kal-tieth' the city's leader, both politically and militarily, had one of their largest warships transport me to my next destination. Considering I had no idea where I wanted to go next, he was kind enough to offer me suggestions and Rhy'din was one of them. It took six months to sail this far south along the coast and when I departed the ship, I had no idea what was awaiting me at the famous Red Dragon Inn.

Everything from a bar tender being 'attacked' by octopi, to meeting a crazy wolf, who is now my brother in everything but blood....to meeting Mai. My love. It didn't take long, maybe less time than it should have? Before we realised how much the other meant, and then we were engaged. I think that was the third happiest moment in my life. The second and first....I still can't deicide if that was when I found out Mai was pregnant with Camellia or when Ammy Spiritor married us...So many happy memories, and so much time to make more, I plan to spend the rest of eternity with her...

Gods, how I love that woman.

30/03/2013


It has been far to long since I last wrote in this.

Last night, was.....I did something stupid in letting Raven have a body. I should have thrown that amulet into the river, or destroyed it, rather than try and believe the best in him. I warned him to stay away. To keep out of our business. He got what he wanted, a body and the chance to enjoy life. All I asked was that he stay away from us....

It was a mistake. I should have lied, in Crowe's office. It would have been a simply, easy thing. Raven thought I was drunk, but I knew what I was doing. I should have killed him then. Now...Now I have a bounty on my head.

It's not even as if it's large, 15,000 silver is not even the highest amount to be offered for my head. I'm not worried about me, I can easily deal with those who come after me over this. It's if they go after Mai....If they do that, to get to me, I'd never forgive myself....Maybe Crowe has the right of it. Retirement. Just hook my sword up over the fireplace and leave it there.

When this is over, and the Khul-din are not a problem any more, I will.

06/04/13

Last night I went for a wander about the city. The Nexus was playing it's games with Mai again, so I decided to go for a walk.

Renna called me.

I hadn't been looking forward to another discussion with her, but I went anyway. I lost a friend at that point, through my own stupidity and foolishness. I told her everything that happened with 'The Raven', how he came into existence and my part in it. Renna whole heartedly blamed me for all the pain and damage caused by Raven.

I remember when I spoke with Katt the other day, I was so sure she'd beat me over the head with my own arm. She didn't. She said it was only partly my fault.
Renna doesn't see it that way. She called me evil for my part, a manipulator and a betrayer. She isn't wrong. I'm glade she told me the truth from her view. I'm glad she did. I'm glad she made that promise to end me if I do something like this again.

I put Crowe in danger. I put Mai, Eclipse, Katt, Andu, Brian and more people than I can name in danger.

I'm glad Renna told me she isn't my friend any more. She might not see it this way, but her actions last night proved it. She is a true friend.

There's no ones else in this world I would trust to have my back better than Crowe, and there's no one else I trust more to protect Mai and Camellia if something ever happened to me.
There's no one else I trust more than Renna to put me down, if it ever came to that.


This entry is pretty gloomy, isn't it? Well, when I finally gathered the courage to go home, I found Mai already there, asleep. Or what ever it is she dose when she closes her eyes. I just watched her for a bit, sleeping. I say for a bit....It was several hours. I can't believe I nearly lost her, and Crowe nearly lost Eclipse, because of me. The is getting gloomy again....I'm going to bed now. I just want to hold Mai in arms, get rid of this...Feeling of...I don't know what it is, but being with Mai always drives it away.

27/04/2013

The damnedest thing happened yesterday.

I was out in the woods, minding my own business when I was attacked by someone calling himself 'Grimgarde'. I'm certain he works for Enigma and his master. It seems trouble just likes to mess with me at its own convenience.


In brighter news, my classes at the Academy are going very well. Les is making advances every few days, and there hasn't been any more cases of bullying in my classes. And Thorn made a reappearance the other day! She was shocked when she saw Mai's baby bump. And I just realised something else...Camellia is going to spoilt rotten by all her 'Aunts'....I guess its a woman thing? Then again, Crowe will probably spoil her to, but he's a big softy to thats to be expected I suppose.

05/06/2013

I met a dragoness yesterday. I forget her name right now, and I'm unsure how to spell it, but...Renna healed her wings. Very strange, but then after talking with the dragoness, I found that she was just a little bit...I guess calling her evil would be putting her in too bad a light.
However...There was something. Maybe Renna saw it as well, which would explain her helping the dragoness.

Strangely, before that, I saw Renna. Two, in fact. One was hanging herself...She seemed to be enjoying it, Very strange.


That odd event, and the rest of that oddity, aside, Mai has decided to re-decorate the Mansion....One of the Mansions. The fact that she has a dozen or so of these things just sort of....Laying around, is something of a surprise to me. Still...I think that is a good thing. We are, both of us, long lived. We'll likely be together, for a very long time, if we knew everything there was to know about the other right away, I think we would grow bored....

Or maybe we wouldn't? I keep learning new things about her, but she never asks me anything. Of course...She said, we first started going out, she only wished to know of the future, not the past. She is truly wonderful.
Renna seems to think that I need to know loss....She clearly doesn't remember what I told her, that first day so long ago when I met Manticore for the first time. Of course, that was really Renna and not The Betrayer.

Life is fragile. I've lost my mind before, to anger and loss. I've been in a madness beyond what Renna thinks she's suffered. I've pulled my mind back to gather from that madness, from my mind being shattered.
It was rather unpleasant and I don't want to go through that again.


Well, thats all I have to say this time, aside from the fact that my baby girl is as beautiful as her mother.

(On one of the pages, is a map. A rough, slightly poor, hand sketched map. A few notation marked on it are clearly in Arthour's hand writing)


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28/07/2013

I had, I think, the worst nightmare I've had in a long time yesterday.

It was...It's difficult to explain, I've..Forgotten many of the details, thank the gods.

A brief overview seems like a good idea though. So, here is where I'll start.
I was feeling down, not sleeping right. Recently, since Camellia was born, my nightmares have abated, but in the last few weeks they've come back more so...Having Camellia near me seems to make the go away though...Anyway, I decided to take a walk. Being upset and scared around two empaths, one your own daughter, is not a good idea.


So, I went to the mountains, I walk much of the way there, Mount Yasuo is peaceful and serene...The perfect place to have a nightmare really. I fell asleep on a bench...It was about Bristle Crios. It was...Attacked, and I was..Too late. It was so vivid...Probably because I was lucid dreaming. That seems to be the only way of keeping the nightmares at bay now, is to control them...This one, however, seemed to be pulled up from such a deep part of my subconsciousness that I was left at it's mercy.



I walked along the path past the wrought iron gates. The buildings I passed were destroyed, the forest was empty. The fields surrounding and the grounds themselves were burnt and cratered....I headed to Mage House, to find it falling apart...Crowe, Zyn, Fiona and a hundred others I knew and more I couldn't put a name to lay dead or dying as I arrived. Crowe and Zyn, they accused me of not being there when they needed me, that I was late, too late....And then they died
Something moved through the haze of smoke and I followed, trying to catch...Unsurprisingly, I found I couldn't keep up. There was a woman with a child, a baby...A woman with red hair...


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When I tried to catch up with whatever my imagination had conjured to wrought this destruction, a large...Well, a continent appeared. I thought at first, in my lucid dream state, that it must be Renna's home..That she'd finally gone truely mad and attacked the one place that might hold people that still cared for her. It wasn't a bad idea, considering what I know about Renna, in fact it made sense that a fear like that would be in the back of my mind....I was wrong. It was...Home.

When I tried to attack the thing that caused all the destruction, I was transported to the continent and watched as Miranda tried to fight the thing, only to fall to it's blade. I...The details become hazy at this point, there was a darkness...Bleak and cold, and then..Crowe and Zyn appeared, helped me up, and...Something else. I can't...Remember. They helped me up. Provided me a way to beat the darkness and kill....Me. I think..The creature resembled..Me.
I think it was my fear, bundled up into something my psyke could represent. My fear of the past and the future. I'm no saint, I don't think I've ever tried to make people see otherwise, I know what I've done, the terrible things I've done and tried to right. I am in Rhy'din because I destroyed my homeland, and killed most of the people there with my own blade....I think this nightmare, was prehapes a sign? Maybe the darkness was...My own depression? My own coldness and the thing that looked like me, my hatred...? For myself?


I wish....I wish Anna were still here. She'd know what it meant.


I can only guess...But prehapes this dream is me telling myself to stop looking at the past, stop being so fearful of it, of the ghosts the lurk behind my every step? Or that I have the tools to beat my own depression....Crowe, became a sword, or did he give me a sword? I forget...Zyn, he formed a shield, keeping the darkness at bay, but I couldn't reach out for the sword, the bleak, black, coldness of the dark..It was too much...And then something intervened. Not just Crowe and Zyn, but...Something else. I felt..and unending love, for my family. My wife, daughter. My adoptive brothers and sister and the all the rest....I killed it. Beheaded it. Then I woke up to Zyn and Crowe telling me something about a meeting...I may have punched the wolf in the face though...I should apologise to him when I next see him...

06/08/2013

Mai's probably going to be angry with me when she wakes up. it's not even as if it was my fault! He attacked us.
I guess I should clarify.

Yesterday, myself and Crowe were on Twilight Island, Icer joined us not long after. She had burns on her from...Something. (Note to Self: Still need to find out about that!) And then 'Eternity' appeared. However it appears his name is in fact 'Scion'.

At any rate a fight ensued, towards the end I was able to pull Mai and Eclipse out before he unleashed his final move. I'll have to ask Icer to back mine and Crowe's story up, we did not throw the first punch, and I tried to get him to leave...I mean, okay I could have done a better job of that, but then he threatened my family.

There can only be one response to that.

06/09/2013

There have been some strange things going on just recently. Something to do with the planetary alignment or something has had a strange effect on the Nexus. Which was strange enough before.

Now, it seems to be having a weird effect on Time. The other day I came face to face with, what for all intents and purposes was and evil Icer. Although I suppose 'evil' is a word to far. She ate people in that time line, or possible reality, it's very difficult to say really. A slight change in the past can create an entire new universe of possibilities. I hate time travel.

Luckily, it seems myself, Mai and Camellia have been spared any ill effects of this. I'm hoping that this remains the case, but ether way I shall attempt to form some kind of shield around the shop to keep any ill effects of time shifting from effect us.

I won't bother trying to form one around the city or anything, it's simply to large and there's no telling what effect it would have the time line if the entire city was protected. That could be disastrous.


That's it for today. I have a class to teach soon, but before I go I have to give my girls a kiss goodbye.

18/10/2013

Something terrible has happened. I don't know what, I don't know how, and it's far worse than the dart the Ebony Knight shot me with, cutting me off from the ambient magic in my body. At least that can be fixed by the potion Ammy gave me. She was right though, it is vile.

Thats beside the point.

Somehow. The Nexus has brought me here. From the past.

29/01/2014

I seriously need to write in this more often. With one thing and another, my time has been very short. Strengthening the wards in and around Bristol Crios has been a priority ever since some of the students began having nightmares that came to life and stalked the halls. There is nothing more frightening than the imagination of a human, I find that is more true especially with children. Hopefully the modified dream catchers will do the trick.

I suspect the previous Baron of Battlefield Park, Vanion, had a hand in that.

18/02/2014.

The other day I had the misfortune of discovering Darcy is in possession of one of Travanix's 'Black Ribbons'. It seems this ribbion is affecting Darcy's mental state, making her lust after Travanix, and want to serve him as his slave. There have been odd slips in her speech, from calling him 'master' to wanting to 'serve' him.

Obviously, this can not stand. I took Darcy from the Inn and placed her with in The Fort up on the hill. It's quiet, calm and comfy there. Deep in the heart of my realm. Nothing will get her there, and I hope to begin reversing the effects of the Ribbon soon. Maybe David, her brother, will be able to help. Time will tell....and if Time becomes a factor, that would be easy to deal with here. I just hope it doesn't become a necessity

26/04/2014.

It's been a little too long since my last entry, I think. Things are settled and in order, so there hasn't been a great deal to make note of. Recently, I've been dueling more, time permitting, but for the most part I've been teaching.

Camellia has much to learn still, about what it is to be a Swordmage. But, she has a long time to learn. And with the Order effectively comprised of just myself and her, there is no need for her to be troubled with the same duty, or at least the sense of it.
I think, she will mark a new chapter in what it is to be Swordmage. Eventually, the God's Shard will run it's course through my bloodline, though her's. There will be a time, some where int he future, where a Swordmage isn't a Demi-god anymore. All I can do at this point in time however, is teach Camellia how to use the powers she does have, and the history behind our people.


Scott, my ever faithful little rucksack, was able to track Les down the other day, after much chasing, and finally was able to hand over the Falchion to her that he'd collected from the priests at Bai'Nazell's main temple.
I forget exactly how I came into possession of Dur'rin, but the monks of Bai'Nazell have looked after it well for me, and seemed quite pleased to learn it was going to my daughter. Of course, they may have been more pleased to learn that the blade was also being replaced with another. Tourism, it seems, is important.
But moving forward, Les now holds the blade as her own. And I'm so much happier that she now has a sword of her own to wield, and help keep her safe. It's nearly as old as my own sword, forged by the same hand.

11/06/2014.

This, is must likely going to be like saying Quiet in the middle of the Inn, but here goes...

I think I may have retired from the whole 'nearly-getting-myself-killed-on-a-day-to-day-bas is' thingy.....Only took a couple of thousand years to get here. I barely even duel now, maybe the urge has just evaporated from now.

28/02/2016.

Wow. I am just terrible at keeping written records of things.

So. to recap. As it turns out, Mathian made a deal with Les to decide her fate. He won a duel with her, she'd be his (Fat chance of me letting *that* happen.) She wins, and he leaves her alone for good.

In the end, there was no duel, as he didn't show up. Which resulted in her winning by default. Since then? Lesinda's been a positive ray of sunshine.


Memo to Self; Get better at writing in this thing.