Laying beside his beloved in bed, Brian smiled lovingly, and offered a kiss to that tumble of flame kissed red he adored. A soft mumble escaped Jenai's lips, as she reached over and took his hand into her own, and once more drifted deeply her slumber.
Shifting himself a bit, Brian lay flat on his back, his hand in hers still, as he watched the stars overhead courtesy of one beautiful sky light, that was positioned over their bed. The time unknown, all that was known is that it was rather late, and Brian could not sleep. His mind raced with a great many things, ever since Jenai has relayed she was with their child.
Fatherhood.. Such a powerful word. Well to those who understood, or those who were preparing to face it head on. Father.. Someone looked up to, someone depended upon for so many things. Strength. A pillar when need be, and just as quickly and in an instant a pillow for a sleepy lil head. Sacrifice in the most literal of senses, always thinking of them instead of yourself, first and foremost. So much more, than words could never do it justice by any means. Example only, could showcase just how powerful that word truly was.
Brian had been down that path twice before, the first time had not ended as he wished.. Lucy Ravenlock.. 'Daughter' of Brian and Ren. Daughter in spirit, and in all honestly physical nature as well, seeing that the child was the culminaton of what she had stripped from Brian's being, and what Ren had already instilled from herself.
Granted what was taken from Brian was done so against his will, Brian did not turn the girl away. Still as a father he failed her in many ways. Still the girl loved him and still called him father, and for the all the troubles that came their ways, through the despair, pain and hardships endured, through the regret and love, and ultimately death, Brian loved the girl, Lucy and she him. Father in the loosest of sense in some ways, but a father none the less.
Elena Isuelt.. A child born of chance, and a blessing in every way possible. A child who was born despite being bombarded with radiations, and medicines while inside the womb. A child who survived a beating her mother recieved via her very own sister, again while she was still in the womb and more so. A child who by all accounts never should have lived to see her first day outside the womb, yet she lives and breathes this very day and is a beautiful child who lives each day to it's fullest.
A child of chance, and a wonderous joy to all those who are fortunate enough to be near her. Considered by many to be the only good thing to come from the union between Brian and Charlotte, Elena is a true gem. All that aside, Brian has not been there for her like he should have been. The distance between them from plane to plane, time and space, variations where weeks in one realm were literal months in another,
Elena and Brian are not nearly as close as a father and daughter should be. Still he is where when he can be and loves the little girl to no end, and for the moment that will have to suffice.
A father in spirit.. A father in word, to some extent. But truly a father? Given what had happened the first two times, one might think that he would be foolish to want another child. One might think.. But like with many things people think in regards to Brian, they would be dead wrong. Brian wanted this child more that life itself..
A child born of a fierce love he shared with Jenai, a child they had eached hoped for soon would have in their own arms. A life dependant upon each of them, a new chapter begun in their lives. A family.This of course raised many questions and concerns. As Brian lay beside his beloved, his thoughts drifted back and forth as he lost himself somewhat.
His life, was no longer his. Well not in the literal sense of things. But it was true to an extent, as he no longer would be living his life for himself soley. Granted that had changed when he bound himself to Jenai, and she to him. His life was hers, and hers was his. But now their lives belonged to someone else in turn, and would do so until that someone was able to stand upon their own two legs and begin their own chapter in life, leaving mother and father for whatever lay beyond. So to the matter at hand.. Given everything Brian was deeply involved in, changes would have to be made.
No more could he afford to simply run off and adventure, to return days or weeks later. No more could he simply let himself be spread thin at the expense of his family, no more could he allo-- Suddnely a memory hit him like a hammer, as he recalled one particular situation where he unfairly spoke harshly to his sister when she would not back him in a brawl, and cited her own children as a good reason not to leap into any fray that came alone, like she used to before she had them..
Damn..
Shifting himself a bit, Brian lay flat on his back, his hand in hers still, as he watched the stars overhead courtesy of one beautiful sky light, that was positioned over their bed. The time unknown, all that was known is that it was rather late, and Brian could not sleep. His mind raced with a great many things, ever since Jenai has relayed she was with their child.
Fatherhood.. Such a powerful word. Well to those who understood, or those who were preparing to face it head on. Father.. Someone looked up to, someone depended upon for so many things. Strength. A pillar when need be, and just as quickly and in an instant a pillow for a sleepy lil head. Sacrifice in the most literal of senses, always thinking of them instead of yourself, first and foremost. So much more, than words could never do it justice by any means. Example only, could showcase just how powerful that word truly was.
Brian had been down that path twice before, the first time had not ended as he wished.. Lucy Ravenlock.. 'Daughter' of Brian and Ren. Daughter in spirit, and in all honestly physical nature as well, seeing that the child was the culminaton of what she had stripped from Brian's being, and what Ren had already instilled from herself.
Granted what was taken from Brian was done so against his will, Brian did not turn the girl away. Still as a father he failed her in many ways. Still the girl loved him and still called him father, and for the all the troubles that came their ways, through the despair, pain and hardships endured, through the regret and love, and ultimately death, Brian loved the girl, Lucy and she him. Father in the loosest of sense in some ways, but a father none the less.
Elena Isuelt.. A child born of chance, and a blessing in every way possible. A child who was born despite being bombarded with radiations, and medicines while inside the womb. A child who survived a beating her mother recieved via her very own sister, again while she was still in the womb and more so. A child who by all accounts never should have lived to see her first day outside the womb, yet she lives and breathes this very day and is a beautiful child who lives each day to it's fullest.
A child of chance, and a wonderous joy to all those who are fortunate enough to be near her. Considered by many to be the only good thing to come from the union between Brian and Charlotte, Elena is a true gem. All that aside, Brian has not been there for her like he should have been. The distance between them from plane to plane, time and space, variations where weeks in one realm were literal months in another,
Elena and Brian are not nearly as close as a father and daughter should be. Still he is where when he can be and loves the little girl to no end, and for the moment that will have to suffice.
A father in spirit.. A father in word, to some extent. But truly a father? Given what had happened the first two times, one might think that he would be foolish to want another child. One might think.. But like with many things people think in regards to Brian, they would be dead wrong. Brian wanted this child more that life itself..
A child born of a fierce love he shared with Jenai, a child they had eached hoped for soon would have in their own arms. A life dependant upon each of them, a new chapter begun in their lives. A family.This of course raised many questions and concerns. As Brian lay beside his beloved, his thoughts drifted back and forth as he lost himself somewhat.
His life, was no longer his. Well not in the literal sense of things. But it was true to an extent, as he no longer would be living his life for himself soley. Granted that had changed when he bound himself to Jenai, and she to him. His life was hers, and hers was his. But now their lives belonged to someone else in turn, and would do so until that someone was able to stand upon their own two legs and begin their own chapter in life, leaving mother and father for whatever lay beyond. So to the matter at hand.. Given everything Brian was deeply involved in, changes would have to be made.
No more could he afford to simply run off and adventure, to return days or weeks later. No more could he simply let himself be spread thin at the expense of his family, no more could he allo-- Suddnely a memory hit him like a hammer, as he recalled one particular situation where he unfairly spoke harshly to his sister when she would not back him in a brawl, and cited her own children as a good reason not to leap into any fray that came alone, like she used to before she had them..
Damn..