She sat one starry night on the roof top, The rest of the house had fallen into silence. One would have thought as Jenai stared upon the black velvet dress caught in a sprinkle of diamonds, she was lost in memories old. Perhaps childhood, of loved ones long gone.

Jenai had none of those things to look back upon. Her childhood was only the island. No mother, no father, no brothers or sisters of birth. She had lost no one dearest to her heart. It was times like this when the kind and simple hearted Jenai hurt with envy for those that did.

It did not ease her heart, but she would still watch the celestial bodies blink at her from the ebony sky imagining what every family celebration, gathering, and bed time story would have been like. To be tucked into bed by a loving parent, how sweet and tender they were in her imagination. For that short time while she dreamed, she would feel light, as light as the cooling air around her.

She would grow heavy though, cold upon the roof in the small tank-top and boy shorts she wore to bed when the make believe ended.

Another Night.
It was another night, was just another night right?

Jenai laid sprawled face up in her bed looking at her celiling. she could feel the sleep just.... hanging there. Teasing her. Her eyes felt so heavy and begged to be closed.

Slowly.... slowly.... closed. Her mind came rushing back in very livid color. She flopped over on to her stomach, taking her pillow with her to cover her head and tell out a muffled scream in her pillow. This was not what Tiki wanted. One kitten, two kicking feet and an insane mistress did not miss. A tail flip and turning her back to Jen, Tiki went back to sleep.

Jenai could stand it anymore. She hurried out of bed. With her pony tail all cockeyed, she tugged at her "Pooh" tanktop and went right out into the hall... towards Issy's room again.

This time she could hear something. she gave a little knock as she looked down to see if light shone under the door. She wouldn't just barge in.

Cotton met carebears vintage sleeper tank.

"Sorry to bother you Issy." she was fidgeting, playing her fingers as she shifted weight from one foot then the other.

"Brian said he loved me Issy." she lowered her voice to keep from waking anyone else. She skipped the part that she couldn't breath and almost threw up... in a good way almost threw up, the kind where you have a million butterflies on crack in your stomach?

"I just wanted you to know Issy," she respected Issy so much, she's been who she had tried to model herself after when she was much younger on the Island, and even when she first got to Rhy'din. "Tonight, I told him I loved him too."

She braced for it, but went from looking at Issy's toes to finally looking her in the eyes. She'd take it on the chin like a champ if she had to, she wanted Issy to be the first to know.

She blinked as she heard "oh god" and was yanked in the room, ribbons of red hair flew back. She wondered if Witch Hazel's bobby pins where left hanging in the air as Issy shut the door.

That was one way to confuse a Jenjen and make her nervous at the same time. She was about to yell for Parlay!

She took a seat on the corner and watched something she'd never seen. A very flabbergasted Issy. Crimson brows worked up then down and back up again. Eyes as large as a scared fawn.


"When he said it? I was in shock Issy. I swore he mis-spoke as I felt my heart seize. I couldn't say anything. I just blinked like a retard that couldn't help but smile stupidly." Jen looked at her hands, then back over to Issy.

"I wanted to say it back," she softly added. "But I was afraid I would throw up... the knot in my stomach felt like it was where my heart should be, and my heart felt like it was where my throat should be. Then, when I realized I might never have the courage to say it... he had to go into a burning building. I almost never hade a chance. "

She pleaded to Issy with a look, " I said it when he came back, trashed and covered in soot. And I mean it Issy. I love him uncontrollably."

She watched and listened to Isuelt. In her heart she knew she meant nothing but well for her. As with all the Sisters. She smiled up to her, placing a hand on her hand and stood.

"Issy, I will be careful. I promise. As careful as any of us can be. I know you all mean nothing but the best for me. And most of all you. If we traded shows, I in your spot, I would act the same way."

She gave Issy's hand a squeeze. "But the truth is we're not. I want to feel the emotions all of you have had the chance to experience. The good with the bad and all the in between. I know you guys would not bar me from the same blessings, but wish me not to feel the same thorns. And I thank Scathach I have you as my teacher and Sister. And I thank you, for letting me have the same chance you have had."

She gave Issy a g'night kiss on the cheek. Just because she had a love now, did not mean that her heart and soul had fled Scathach. She let her hand slip from Issy's and started to the door. She turned and gave her a wink. "And I still have some self control"

So much time had passed yet again since she sat upon the roof of the Sanctuary and looked up to the stars.

She had seen stars in so many new lands now, yet... she could always find her favorite few no matter where she was. Well almost.

Things had changed, So many things. Issy was in trouble, new sisters moved in, Eddie was growing up fast to this place, Brian and her had gotten a loft over the sweet shop.

Sure she still lived with in these walls, she and Brian still kept a room here, but hers had started to collect a very fine layer of dust, Tiki was in the loft with a good number of Jen's things...

She felt herself.... changed and yet changing still. She had questions and no answers, things she dreamed, things that haunted... and some things she never wished for trickle into her mind now and then. She just wanted time to, figure them out she guessed.

But there was no time, it ran past her like lightning, never hers to hold on to but just to watch, to get a peek at.

Brian was down stairs. She could smell the hint of midnight breakfast on the air. French Toast. How could she smile and want to cry at the same time so badly. There was still so much to share.

Family, it grew and grew.. new and great sisters, Brian's Daughter, Issy would be home again soon even if she had to kill to make it happen.

Love. Oh how she envied her friends outside these walls. How simple it all seemed for them. She had the greatest and barely time to truly enjoy it. Still so much to tell him, so much to teach him about herself, and so much to learn still about him even after all this time.

Faith. Why? Is all she could ask.. but she answered her own question... she knew the answer to why this evil was happening to the Sisters. But how to fix it. She felt her faith growing stronger everyday. But would the others be the same? Or would this test and crumble them? She asked the goddess every morning she opened the temple. She wouldn't answer. Yet.

She would though.