"Just a simple touch,
just a little glance,
makes me feel like flyin'..
But, where are you tonight?
Something isn't right..
Can you please stop hiding?"
T'was a wonderous evening indeed.. Nary a cloud in the sky, coupled with the winter's crisp air, that settled upon the land, gave what was easily one of the most spectacular sights indeed, if one were fortunate enough to have been in the Northern Forest..
The stars.. So many of them, filled the sky with such a brilliance. Close enough, that one would swear, they could climb the great redwoods, and simply snatch them, from their heavenly playground.. Such a multitude, as the night sky came alive in such a dance of wonders.. Literally, a sparkling blanket, of wonder, likened to no other in recent memory..
But he would not see it, this night.. As he had not the previous night, and the night before that as well.. Instead of a brilliant heavenly display, he saw only paperwork.. The four walls that surrounded him.. Pictures of the past, and whatever else was piled upon the large oak desk he sat behind..
Night after night, this is where he would end up, after the house had settled into it's usual routine.. Dinner with Jenai, and the girls.. Not to mention whoever else was present, be it Jes, Henrietta, and sometmes, Kerri. The family.. Play time for the girls, then it was bath time, which more to truth, ended up being quite the endeavour, as everyone who assisted, seemed to get just as soaked, as the girls did, much to their sheer joy.
Once everyone, was dried, dressed and settled, it was time for bed, as Aleyah, and Nathressa were tucked in, along with their literal army of stuffed animals. The 'pre-night-night' games, played. A bit of a story, and heartfelt prayer, and off to slumber the pair went, as Sorreah padded on, into the room, coming to curl up, on the floor between the girl's beds.
Then it was a soft kiss to Jenai's cheek, coupled with a promise to not be long, as he went about his business.. One of many broken promises, it seems.. Well, one promise, repeatedly broken. Still, it began to add up, and more so, take it's toll. As it happened, night, after night.
He would leave.. A walk around the grounds. Checking, and re-checking things, once, twice, even three times, per 'walk'.. She knew where he was, she knew she could find him.. He was litrally, arms length at times, or at the very worst, across the compound.. Easily, a bit of a walk away, as she could easily find him, yet that was not the true issue, at hand..
The true issue, it seemed, was did he 'want' to be found.. Why was he so far away, when he was so close to her, at the same time? Why did his eyes seemingly look past her, and others.. More so, her.. Why did he not talk, as he once did, why did he not go to her, as he once had.. Why did he not touch her, in the way she wished, and more so, the way he used to? So many 'whys', no?
She knew he loved her.. Yet questions arose, and with good reason.
During the day, all seemed well.. They went about their business.. She with the temple, he with whatever else, he had to take care of, since his return.. His sister's estate, financial issues, contracts, dealings with the new community centre and lord know what else.. They took care of the children together, they spoke, they laughed, loved and more so. They were a family..
Yet night after night, it was quite the opposite..
He was distant.. So far away.. So deep in thoughts, that he would not share. Always after all had settled for the eve, leaving, he and her..
A kiss to the cheek, a softly whispered 'I love you', and just as quickly, he was no longer there.. Never to return, until very late in the eve, when he would slip in bed, hoping to not wake her.. Yet in truth, they each knew she was awake, the whole while..
Night after night..
This night, was no different, as Brian found himself seemingly staring at the literal mess of gods know what, that lay before him, upon the oak desk, he was seated behind.. A small glass of red wine, next to him, occasionally sipped from, akin to an after thought.. An office, he would say, to anyone else..
She however was not everyone, else.. She called it, what it truly was.
A prison..
His head hung low, as fingers ran through the dark hair of his namesake, as he sighed softly..
He knew better.. He understood what he was doing felt bad, felt wrong.. Yet, he knew nothing else to do, at the given moment.. Little did he realize, what he was doing not only to himself, but more so to her..
He knew they needed to talk,, Knew she had been patient, and understanding.. I mean let's be honest, ladies? Show of hands, please.. How many of you, would wait a year, for a man, who seemingly left you, on your own? Hell, we have seen divorces in Rhy'din for far less than that, haven't we? Still, she waited.. She kept the torch afire.. Tended the family, and more so. She honoured him, like no other, before, and loved him more so.
She deserved to know.. She deserved to be spoken to, she deserved so much, and yet, night after night, he was a spectre of sorts.. It was still, as if he were gone in some ways.. As if some things had never changed, as if he had never returned..
Doubt began to settle somewhat..
Did he change? Did she change?
Did he still want her, as he once had.. Did he still need her, as he once had? Did she change so much so, that he no longer looked at her the same? What did she do to warrant such a manner from him.. What happened to the man, she fell in love with, so long ago? Was he still there, somewhere? Was he waiting too? Would she have to wait, as well, even more so, than she had before? All the while, he is sitting in front of her, close enough to touch.. Close enough to taste?
Why...?
She deserved to know..
They needed to talk...
Yet again, he was somewhere else, holed up, in his 'office'..
His prison..
It was then, she decided..
just a little glance,
makes me feel like flyin'..
But, where are you tonight?
Something isn't right..
Can you please stop hiding?"
T'was a wonderous evening indeed.. Nary a cloud in the sky, coupled with the winter's crisp air, that settled upon the land, gave what was easily one of the most spectacular sights indeed, if one were fortunate enough to have been in the Northern Forest..
The stars.. So many of them, filled the sky with such a brilliance. Close enough, that one would swear, they could climb the great redwoods, and simply snatch them, from their heavenly playground.. Such a multitude, as the night sky came alive in such a dance of wonders.. Literally, a sparkling blanket, of wonder, likened to no other in recent memory..
But he would not see it, this night.. As he had not the previous night, and the night before that as well.. Instead of a brilliant heavenly display, he saw only paperwork.. The four walls that surrounded him.. Pictures of the past, and whatever else was piled upon the large oak desk he sat behind..
Night after night, this is where he would end up, after the house had settled into it's usual routine.. Dinner with Jenai, and the girls.. Not to mention whoever else was present, be it Jes, Henrietta, and sometmes, Kerri. The family.. Play time for the girls, then it was bath time, which more to truth, ended up being quite the endeavour, as everyone who assisted, seemed to get just as soaked, as the girls did, much to their sheer joy.
Once everyone, was dried, dressed and settled, it was time for bed, as Aleyah, and Nathressa were tucked in, along with their literal army of stuffed animals. The 'pre-night-night' games, played. A bit of a story, and heartfelt prayer, and off to slumber the pair went, as Sorreah padded on, into the room, coming to curl up, on the floor between the girl's beds.
Then it was a soft kiss to Jenai's cheek, coupled with a promise to not be long, as he went about his business.. One of many broken promises, it seems.. Well, one promise, repeatedly broken. Still, it began to add up, and more so, take it's toll. As it happened, night, after night.
He would leave.. A walk around the grounds. Checking, and re-checking things, once, twice, even three times, per 'walk'.. She knew where he was, she knew she could find him.. He was litrally, arms length at times, or at the very worst, across the compound.. Easily, a bit of a walk away, as she could easily find him, yet that was not the true issue, at hand..
The true issue, it seemed, was did he 'want' to be found.. Why was he so far away, when he was so close to her, at the same time? Why did his eyes seemingly look past her, and others.. More so, her.. Why did he not talk, as he once did, why did he not go to her, as he once had.. Why did he not touch her, in the way she wished, and more so, the way he used to? So many 'whys', no?
She knew he loved her.. Yet questions arose, and with good reason.
During the day, all seemed well.. They went about their business.. She with the temple, he with whatever else, he had to take care of, since his return.. His sister's estate, financial issues, contracts, dealings with the new community centre and lord know what else.. They took care of the children together, they spoke, they laughed, loved and more so. They were a family..
Yet night after night, it was quite the opposite..
He was distant.. So far away.. So deep in thoughts, that he would not share. Always after all had settled for the eve, leaving, he and her..
A kiss to the cheek, a softly whispered 'I love you', and just as quickly, he was no longer there.. Never to return, until very late in the eve, when he would slip in bed, hoping to not wake her.. Yet in truth, they each knew she was awake, the whole while..
Night after night..
This night, was no different, as Brian found himself seemingly staring at the literal mess of gods know what, that lay before him, upon the oak desk, he was seated behind.. A small glass of red wine, next to him, occasionally sipped from, akin to an after thought.. An office, he would say, to anyone else..
She however was not everyone, else.. She called it, what it truly was.
A prison..
His head hung low, as fingers ran through the dark hair of his namesake, as he sighed softly..
He knew better.. He understood what he was doing felt bad, felt wrong.. Yet, he knew nothing else to do, at the given moment.. Little did he realize, what he was doing not only to himself, but more so to her..
He knew they needed to talk,, Knew she had been patient, and understanding.. I mean let's be honest, ladies? Show of hands, please.. How many of you, would wait a year, for a man, who seemingly left you, on your own? Hell, we have seen divorces in Rhy'din for far less than that, haven't we? Still, she waited.. She kept the torch afire.. Tended the family, and more so. She honoured him, like no other, before, and loved him more so.
She deserved to know.. She deserved to be spoken to, she deserved so much, and yet, night after night, he was a spectre of sorts.. It was still, as if he were gone in some ways.. As if some things had never changed, as if he had never returned..
Doubt began to settle somewhat..
Did he change? Did she change?
Did he still want her, as he once had.. Did he still need her, as he once had? Did she change so much so, that he no longer looked at her the same? What did she do to warrant such a manner from him.. What happened to the man, she fell in love with, so long ago? Was he still there, somewhere? Was he waiting too? Would she have to wait, as well, even more so, than she had before? All the while, he is sitting in front of her, close enough to touch.. Close enough to taste?
Why...?
She deserved to know..
They needed to talk...
Yet again, he was somewhere else, holed up, in his 'office'..
His prison..
It was then, she decided..