Topic: Drifting away

SylviaNightshade

Date: 2009-03-31 00:03 EST
The sea was being kind as was her cousin the wind. Sylvia stood at the starboard railing and looked forward to that spot in the ocean where they would cross into the world she had come to know as home. It had been her husband's world and her children's world. Through them she had adopted it and it her. With all its troubles and difficulties that lay like pieces upon a game board to be moved and faced, it still gave her a hint of welcome.

Gaerwyn and Ewan walked the deck together, sharing a few quiet words about what lay ahead in Yransea when they paused by Sylvia's side. "A fine night, my lady." Gaerwyn spoke low into the quiet but for the creaking of wood, the shush of sail and ropes in the breeze.

Turning to share a smile in the half light of low swinging lanterns, "It is that." She looked to Ewan, one brow rose. "Are we ready?"

"It will take some doing." Ewan started with uncharacteristic hesitation.

"But it must be done," her voice drifted like siren song on the breeze.

Gaerwyn rubbed his chin and then ran his fingers through his hair. "Roaring seas, I hate this." He grumbled, sharing a scowl between the two.

A sympathetic nod, Ewan looked back to the cabins and then to Gaerwyn. "Full ship even without your usual cargo."

"Aye," he chuckled and looked back to the cabins as well. "That will also take some doing."

Sylvia took in a deep breath and slowly let it out. It took another before she could reach up to her neck, but still her fingers fumbled the latch to the necklace that held the amulet.

Stepping in to aid her, "Allow me," he took on the burden of removing the lamp symbol, and then he pocketed it. "He said he would keep a light burning."

There was no response she could make. Her heart hurt with the rapid pace of its pounding. The ship shuddered like it had the chills. Stars changed above them, the moon shifted its course, and the sky had clouds scattering its silver light. Sylvia's neck felt colder than the rest of her even though the air in the sea south of Palendies was warmer. Her arms wrapped about her.

Ewan knew that gesture too well. With a nod of his head back away, he signaled to Gaerwyn to leave off for a moment. His cousin did so, and Ewan sent to lean against the railing next to Sylvia. "I have said I would not stay long."

"I understand. You are what I once was -- torn between two worlds."

Ewan looked up at her, his lean having brought him down beneath her height. "And you are not any longer?"

Ewan Corinsson

Date: 2009-03-31 00:17 EST
It was another question she did not, or would not, answer. It would cause her to analyze her feelings and her thoughts, and at that moment, she did not want to. She was tight like a wire to snap.

At her silence, Ewan considered letting it lie, but could not. "My lady, if there is no reason to go to the lengths that I must for your decision, I would have you tell me now." He straightened and faced her directly.

She glanced to him, but did not turn to face him. Her gaze returned and was held now by the horizon and the city to which they sailed. "Continue with the plan, Ewan. Learn what you can. I am still holding my course until it slips from me."

Now he knew what it was. It had never been discussed in open full words, but hinted at and whispered about. Experience had taught him more about what built up the soul, though it still puzzled him. "They do not all leave. Hudson is back."

She laughed, but it was a sad, pathetic sort of laugh. "He is back and I am gone. He has his duties as do I. We shall forever be bobbing like token petals upon a lake, sometimes allowed to brush against each other. With Kieran it was different." She closed her mouth tight. "No, I will not discuss this."

"As you wish," he bowed his head and turned his own gaze out to the sea. In the quiet moments, he dared to speak. "I know I speak out of turn, my lady, but I am glad it was you Kieran met that day in the market. I am glad he had the sense to seek you out and work through all that iron of your soul. He gave me someone to be as proud of as a friend as much as my liege lady."

It stunned her more than anything she could have imagined to hear Ewan speak so openly. "Thank you, Ewan." She reached out to rest a hand on his arm. "You are a dear friend to me as well, and that makes two of us glad Kieran did not so easily let me go. Giving in to him was the best thing I ever did."

With all that lay between them, Kieran's death most of all, Ewan never thought she had fully forgiven him until that moment, and all the pain, the guilt, and anger drifted away.