Cian stood in the garden beside the breakfast table. It was Harvest Festival, the first day, and his mother had helped dressed him in his formal Harvest garb. The burnt orange doublet reminded him of spiced fruits and ripe pumpkins. The cr?me colored shirt beneath had the fanciest embroidery he had ever seen on his clothes. His father had clothes like those. They were too big for him. He would wear them someday maybe.
Maybe when he was as big as Uncle Keefe. Calling him Uncle Keefe only happened in his mind. He liked calling him that, but something felt wrong saying it out loud. Even if Aunt Lyana and he were again married in one sense, not by the sense of The Twelve, it still was better to call him Lord Keefe when he spoke. Sometimes it was hard not to say it when the man laughed with the rest of the family or played games with he and his brother and sister. But, then there were the days with the council, and court hearings. No, he was Lord Keefe out loud.
They were there now, some of their guests as well. Professor Jolyon was there, telling Aidan, Avery, Lina, Gaer, and Beata a story of some far away land. The story was similar to one of their own bedtime stories, but Cian had stepped away to stand by his mother, distancing himself from the tales of outworlders. Uncle Maelgwn, the King of Palendies, had not liked his mother because she was foreign, or something like that. It had happened not so long ago -her being kept in Seansloe Manor. He remembered, even if they did not, all gathered about the table eating and talking about what the day would be with such cheer like the bright sun shining on the cool day.
Cian knew what the day would be, at least the start of it. He would have to begin the festivities and the play of the year. On that banner would be the symbols he had been taught. On that banner would be the battles in the land as well as the good things. His mother had said last night over dinner that she wondered if there would be a harvest banner that had only wonderful things on it. Too many years, she had said, of dark and solemn symbols. Uncle Keefe had hope there would be and pointed out the excellent crop year that would lessen their need of grains from outworld. Uncle Maelgwn should be happy for that, he had said.
There was a speech to do, too, at the beginning of the festival. He repeated the words over and over in his mind. He knew his mother would be there to help him if he needed it, but this was his part. He could do it. Still, he was glad she would be near him.
His mum, he had often thought, had a way of knowing when he was thinking of her. Her hand touched his back and it warmed him. He smiled up at her. Her eyes were bright he thought, violet like the flowers in the meadow. She was smiling, and the apple red gown was soft to the touch, even over its own intricate embroidery. Cian wanted to crawl up into her lap and have her hold him so he could hear her heart beat and feel her breath. He could not though. There were guests, and he had formal duties to see to that day.
As the conversation buzzed around him, he listened and watched. His missed his father. He wanted his father there, laughing with Uncle Keefe, and Master Ewan, and Professor Jolyon, and?Uncle Lucky wasn?t there. Nor was Master Hudson. Then, if his father had been there he thought Master Hudson probably wouldn?t have been. No difference, he guessed. No, it did not matter in the end. His father wasn?t there. He would never be there.
?Cian,? his mother spoke softly to him as she took his hand, ?are you ready??
?Yes, Mum,? he felt his stomach flip flop. He wanted to play and run around like the other children who were playing some sort of game with Master Gaerwyn and Master Ewan. The tale had to have ended while he was thinking. Maybe later, he thought, when Master Ewan was competing. He could cheer then. Nobody would think badly of that. Master Ewan was the champion when he competed. Yes, he could play then. ?Yes, Mum, I?m ready.?
His mother smiled to their company. ?Please, feel free to stay and enjoy the meal. It is time Cian and I went to see the tithings before going to the square for the start of the festival. We are sure to see you all later.?
Maybe when he was as big as Uncle Keefe. Calling him Uncle Keefe only happened in his mind. He liked calling him that, but something felt wrong saying it out loud. Even if Aunt Lyana and he were again married in one sense, not by the sense of The Twelve, it still was better to call him Lord Keefe when he spoke. Sometimes it was hard not to say it when the man laughed with the rest of the family or played games with he and his brother and sister. But, then there were the days with the council, and court hearings. No, he was Lord Keefe out loud.
They were there now, some of their guests as well. Professor Jolyon was there, telling Aidan, Avery, Lina, Gaer, and Beata a story of some far away land. The story was similar to one of their own bedtime stories, but Cian had stepped away to stand by his mother, distancing himself from the tales of outworlders. Uncle Maelgwn, the King of Palendies, had not liked his mother because she was foreign, or something like that. It had happened not so long ago -her being kept in Seansloe Manor. He remembered, even if they did not, all gathered about the table eating and talking about what the day would be with such cheer like the bright sun shining on the cool day.
Cian knew what the day would be, at least the start of it. He would have to begin the festivities and the play of the year. On that banner would be the symbols he had been taught. On that banner would be the battles in the land as well as the good things. His mother had said last night over dinner that she wondered if there would be a harvest banner that had only wonderful things on it. Too many years, she had said, of dark and solemn symbols. Uncle Keefe had hope there would be and pointed out the excellent crop year that would lessen their need of grains from outworld. Uncle Maelgwn should be happy for that, he had said.
There was a speech to do, too, at the beginning of the festival. He repeated the words over and over in his mind. He knew his mother would be there to help him if he needed it, but this was his part. He could do it. Still, he was glad she would be near him.
His mum, he had often thought, had a way of knowing when he was thinking of her. Her hand touched his back and it warmed him. He smiled up at her. Her eyes were bright he thought, violet like the flowers in the meadow. She was smiling, and the apple red gown was soft to the touch, even over its own intricate embroidery. Cian wanted to crawl up into her lap and have her hold him so he could hear her heart beat and feel her breath. He could not though. There were guests, and he had formal duties to see to that day.
As the conversation buzzed around him, he listened and watched. His missed his father. He wanted his father there, laughing with Uncle Keefe, and Master Ewan, and Professor Jolyon, and?Uncle Lucky wasn?t there. Nor was Master Hudson. Then, if his father had been there he thought Master Hudson probably wouldn?t have been. No difference, he guessed. No, it did not matter in the end. His father wasn?t there. He would never be there.
?Cian,? his mother spoke softly to him as she took his hand, ?are you ready??
?Yes, Mum,? he felt his stomach flip flop. He wanted to play and run around like the other children who were playing some sort of game with Master Gaerwyn and Master Ewan. The tale had to have ended while he was thinking. Maybe later, he thought, when Master Ewan was competing. He could cheer then. Nobody would think badly of that. Master Ewan was the champion when he competed. Yes, he could play then. ?Yes, Mum, I?m ready.?
His mother smiled to their company. ?Please, feel free to stay and enjoy the meal. It is time Cian and I went to see the tithings before going to the square for the start of the festival. We are sure to see you all later.?