Topic: Perchance to Dream: A misted landscape

SylviaNightshade

Date: 2008-06-08 15:51 EST
The future is ever a misted landscape, no man foreknows it, but at
cyclical turns
There is a change felt in the rhythm of events:
-Prescription of Painful Ends (l. 3?4). Robinson Jeffers (1887?1962), U.S. poet.

Clouds overhead shared their light showers in a beautiful sparkle where sunlight beamed between them. In spite of the cryptic rain, people were still in the Marketplace to buy and sell. Canvas and plastics, methods natural to each merchant in his or her own way, kept near at hand to cover and protect the more delicate wares when the clouds would have the notion to tease out some rain upon the city again.

Sylvia was taking advantage of the younger children?s naptime and Cian?s lessons to find hidden treasures of the Mecca that was the Rhydin Marketplace. She was not much of a shopper by nature, and because of this tended to visit when the weather was unpredictable. It kept people moving.

This day was just as she expected. Few hesitated or wandered and looked to the sky as often as they looked to the long rows of carts and stands. Sylvia ignored her own appearance, which by now meant unruly black hair fighting against the windbraids that kept her hair back from her face. The shoulders and upper arms of her linen tunic was still translucent with the last soaking and clung to the skin it hinted beneath that layer. Her hand rested on the hilt of her dagger belted at her hip out of habit and no real sense of danger.

The sun was having its turn in the sky pounding its powerful warmth on her head and drawing her eyes to slits against the glares of puddles on the cobblestones and droplets that clung to every surface. A turn around the end of a row, she started down the other where a nut vendor was being exuberant in the selling of his bounty to the point of reaching far out into the flow of people. Sylvia moved to avoid the aggressive salesman and was forced to wait her steps for an opportunity in the opposite flow of people.

A trio of notes stopped short of her lips, caught in her mouth when she looked down the length of the slow moving crowd. The figure of a man had turned from the row of vendors, hidden by the fluttering canvas and wooden caps of the mobile structures. Defying the heat of the sun, a chill slithered down her spine and along the backs of her arms. She had not seen the face, but there was something peculiar about that person. It was familiar and strange in one like one senses rain in the air without the sign of clouds. The hair had been an unremarkable brown, the shoulders broad, the clothes a well cut dark green. It was a profile in the instant of a blink that faded from her mind?s eye in its particulars though kept resonating to her like a long ago melody.

Mind countered instinct; logic railed its reason that it was a trick of light and shadow from the mischief of clouds and sun. It was just a person as any other person. She had stayed out in the tremblings of rain too much today.

Sylvia shook her head, but her attention was incapable of focusing on the task at hand. There were few items that the manor required, and to those she set her mind and gave up the wandering exploration of the market for that day. It was, she reasoned, likely she was more tired from all the travel than she had anticipated, and a rest would serve her well. She would see to the market tomorrow.

SylviaNightshade

Date: 2008-06-10 12:24 EST
Sylvia stepped from the inn with the guard a step behind her left side. The hour of night was so late that it ticked into the truth of early morning. After seeing Hudson safely to his home, her wandering had taken her back to the inn. Of its bizarre events, the incongruous nature of Taneth to what she knew of the girl had stirred not only her own questions, but those of others. A stranger spoke a possibility as did Sid, and neither was unlikely.

As tired as her body was, the long walking ached pins in her feet, her mind tumbled thoughts like seaweed in the churn of a gale swept sea and kept her walking. The road North was diverted to the west, she glanced to the guard, ?I believe restlessness has captured me.?

The man did not look fatigued or in ill temper, no doubt he had slumbered most of his day to prepare for service at night. He smiled and gave a nod, then returned to his vigil of their surroundings and sighting chances of safety should it come to threat. They walked on in silence with the night revelers and shadow denizens their whispered company along the roads.

Whispers moved to shouts, melody of the wind along byways hushed to the songs of minstrels as they ventured into the ever busy Marketplace. Though clouds gave grey reminders of the earlier day?s rain, ghost projections against a starry black sky, no rain was falling and creatures of all kinds, some as magical and mystical as pixie light in the ether of gems, sought their entertainments.

A jostling collective of bodies surged around Sylvia and her guard in a burst of noise and light, their own attentions to their comrades and not those they consumed into their merry mob. Separated from her guard, Sylvia freed herself from the laughing madness and stepped to the side to wait for his return to her protection. It would not be long.

In the seconds of waiting, her gaze flitted from one side to another and froze as a wet hand to icy metal stuck and could not be drawn away on a trio sitting around the table of a caf?. The back to her, the lean shape in the dark green, called its familiarity again to her. The shoulder length brown hair fell in a curtain to shadow his features as he leaned forward in hushed conference with his other two tablemates, one with the same brown hair and another, a female, with soft fat curls of black tied back from the front of her face.

It was not an unkind face, though sorrow touched upon the green eyes. Angles of features reminded Sylvia of so many people in one way or the other depending on the turn or the shadows of light that played over the planes of the young woman?s features, for young she was, still somewhat soft in the rounds of her cheeks still sloughing off the extra freshness of youth.

?Your Excellency,? the guard called as he broke around another group of high spirited youngsters to reach her.

The man at the table turned hearing the call with brows pulled in confusion.

?Kieran,? Sylvia breathed out and found her lungs would not draw breath back in. It was Kieran, but not Kieran. The features not just right, the eyes not quite as narrow, the lips more full than her husband?s had been.

He stood as did the other two like a tableau at the end of a play, none moved further, nor spoke, not the other man, a younger stocky copy of Kieran-not-Kieran, nor the young lady with wide green eyes.

There was no heart in her chest, it had flung itself wide and shattered. Her breath unwilling to consume the needed air and she weakened. The guard caught her up and hailed a passing horse drawn cab as she fell into confusion, blinking wide against the illusion and wondered who wanted to torture her so. Who had pulled these aged copies into the world and painted them with sadness.

The guard did not wait, nor hesitate to explore for Sylvia?s safety was his first priority, and he kidnapped her away from the statued trio to hurry north to Yearling Brook where three children slumbered in peace, assured of their safety in their mother?s care.

SylviaNightshade

Date: 2008-06-11 12:50 EST
Day broke bright and free of clouds battering the earth with the full power of sunlight?s glory. Sylvia sat on the blanket in the orchard with Beata after the midday meal while Cian and Aidan played tag among the trees. From time to time, the boys would claim their mother sanctuary and a solid little body would be flung against her back with little loving arms wrap about her neck. She saw the sign of the older men in her sons as they peaked about in their play. Beata lifted green eyes bright and curious, not the shadow haunted eyes of the elder girl she had seen. In those fleet blendings of two faces, she would pinch at the heel of her hand to force the images away.

Last night she had commanded Ewan not be disturbed. Against the dubious looks of guards and Miriam, she had bid them wait for the Master of Arms usual report the next day. He had arrived as anticipated in the brisk of brilliant morning, and made his summary of events as she did to him, but left the shock of the late night encounter to the end. It had troubled him as much as her. Their conversation had danced around explanations: imagination, weariness, threats, ruses, ploys, and manipulations each thought as plausible as the other in this Rhydin. In the end they concluded that she would travel back to Yransea as soon as she could, and avoid travel into the city proper. The ultimate truth was, no matter what the origin, the remedy of it would be to return to a place where they knew the possibilities and probabilities. If the beings revealed themselves in Yransea, then they would know more of them.

Sylvia, however, was not ready to return just yet. The vision was too clear, etched in silver lines upon her mind?s eye. The pitiful expressions, determined jaws, confused glimpses to her. Had they not recognized her? Was she anything to them? Were they even real to have such feelings or thoughts?

?Mum,? Cian shook her shoulder and she turned to the still young face. ?You want to play? Bea?s asleep.?

Fingers traced down his arm, the reality of it, to touch upon the still soft child?s hand. She must have been daydreaming for some time. Her gaze moved to where her daughter lay, soft baby mouth open in gentle slumber. ?Let me get Bea into her bed, and I will come back to play.?

He gave a nod and chased after Aidan again. Tender hands gathered up her baby girl, so soon not to be a baby anymore, the toddler length against her body measured time. Almost a year it would be, less than a month away. Time raced and ran about her like butterflies flitting by on a summer breeze: too fragile to stay, too beautiful to capture, and moving into a distance unseen and unknown.

As she walked into the house, crooning a soft lullaby, she went to the cradle in the parlor and let Beata rest there. Miriam was called to watch after the little girl as Sylvia went back outside. Her sons were not to be seen. A dashing beat of her heart, she searched, fearing that around a corner she would see the older men, that she had daydreamed their lives away, or she was now a ghost in haunt of ages passing by. Fear chilled down her arms, and she called out their names.

Giggles and whispered demands of shushing danced about her.

Children still. No specters of the future. Just the sounds of children playing.

SylviaNightshade

Date: 2008-06-23 13:58 EST
The glimmer of moon and starlight silvered the leaves around Sylvia as she walked the road north to Yearling Brook alone. Time at the inn, its sounds, sights and smells still playing snippets of smiling thoughts, had been time well spent, but she had need of rest and the empty bed in her room called her. She feared going further into town, that the odd visions plaguing her and Hudson as well would rise up and she would be without recourse but hopeful happenstance of one of Ewan?s contacts seeing her should she fall again as she had before.

It galled her that she had succumbed to the shock of realization. To not keep her feet under her and her mind clear brought sour tastes in her mouth and dark thoughts cooked in her mind. She felt weakened by it. Now, she weakened herself more by avoiding the possibility again, afraid of its workings that Ewan may be right, that she would go mad.

Too close to the time of Kieran?s death this was happening, and maybe she was creating these visions herself. It was too much like her dreams when she could not reach the children to comfort them. In years when they were to accept the roles their birth had lain before them when she could do little but sit idly by and offer guidance when asked.

Against the gloom, fingers stretched and she brought her gaze back up to the sky. Each leaf laden branch, whether broadleaf or needle, kept a dance with the breeze tickling the hair up to her face. A corner in the road, not far now the first signs of the walls of Yearling Brook in their completion would rise, revealed the slow walk of three figures.

Like the hint of wings, the words floated back to her hearing. ?It has been too long since we visited here.? The steady voice held the brevity of solemn chosen words.

?Perhaps for you.? The young voice, a woman?s sweet soprano belied the strength in her chiding of the first speaker. ?I come often, and she would not want to be here.?

?Do you know that? This is where she found him and this is what brought her to father.? The far figure turned his head as he spoke in the low, rich rumble coated in doubt. His profile was one Sylvia could not mistake, even in the halftones of a night sky.

They were there, walking before her in the same casual, comfortable fashion as she had just moments before. Certain of her destination and its familiarity to ease her, she had walked most unawares. Stiffening against the specters, the unreality of her children in the flush of the change from youth to adult, she felt the rising wave of disorientation drawing around her sight and weakening her legs.

Fighting to remain alert, alive, and to know why this was being done, Sylvia recalled Hudson. He had confronted his spectre, to a painful conclusion that compelled Sylvia to stay and see after him in days past her time to return. She would draw up the strength to match his own, and urged motion in legs gone watery with bewilderment.

SylviaNightshade

Date: 2008-06-23 13:58 EST
?Stop,? a voice like a haunt from the void of her heart spoke sharp. A hand rose and brought his companions to a halt while he turned to face her. ?Good lady, you walk far alone at night.?

Sylvia stopped short and near stumbled at the words Kieran, no, Cian-grown spoke. ?I walk well known places, my lord, and to my home.? He was as stranger to her as any she met in the inn on odd nights of visiting.

?Home?? Beata-grown came forward, her hand resting the hilt of a familiar silver dagger, twinned through time by the one on her own hip. ?There are few homes out this way.?

?Yearling Brook is this way,? Sylvia managed with a lick to lips gone dry.

Cian?s eyes bore into her, though he did not change his countenance. It was a cold suspicion in his forest hazel gaze. Aidan, stocky where Cian had grown lean, shared a glance with Beata, and offered a smile. ?We share a similar destination then. It has been some time since we visited, and we are not familiar with all the staff who work there.?

?I am,? Beata frowned and looked even more severe on Sylvia. ?But you are familiar in some fashion.? She looked to her brothers and offered explanation. ?Mother must have hired her before she died.? Turning startling green eyes to her, eyes like those in the portraits of Kieran?s family, ?Did my mother, the late Baroness Sylvia, hire you??

Died? She was dead. She was dead and they did not recognize her. Time would not have done that. If these were cheats of time, they would have recognized their mother even with age no longer painting her face. As familiar as a passing acquaintance, but she was not the woman that had raised them and fought to keep them safe. Trembling a shake of her head, ?I did not hear she had died. Is that what brings you here??

Cian scowled, ?An improper answer to Lady Beata?s question, but yes, we have come to find a place to bury our mother, since the-?

?Cian, not here,? Aidan interrupted.

?Please,? Sylvia begged and she walked forward, ?please tell me why she is to be buried here.?

Beata did not heed either of her brothers? warning looks. ?Because the council refuses to bury here with father. Foreign born, they claim, who took up a foreign consort. She is not worthy, so they say,? contempt in the young woman?s voice was boiling up into a pitch that Sylvia recognized well as her own, ?to lie in state with the dead of Yransea families.?

?Beata, you say too much to strangers and servants if this is what she is.? Aidan looked Sylvia over once more. ?But you are familiar. Come, it is a late hour, and none of us have the rest we need to do our service well the next day.?

SylviaNightshade

Date: 2008-06-23 13:59 EST
The trio turned from her and walked on. Sylvia could not move. There was a cold chill striking down her spine as sure as the wicked stroke of a spike impaled into her skull and held her in agony to the spot on the ground. Around another bend in the road the trio walked, oblivious to her inability to follow. She caused their sorrow. It was her fault. It may not even be Hudson, they had not spoken the consort?s name, but any chosen lover would do this to them. Hurt them.

?Futures are written in sand.? The quote floated up to her mind. She needed that book. She needed to read the words to help her. Breaking free of the chilling chains of thought that kept her immobile, she hurried her steps and the specters were not to be seen as she arrived, pale at the gates of Yearling Brook.

She assured the guards she was well, but fatigued, and hastened past them to the guest house where the books of the library had remained when she fled the manor for Yransea. She needed comfort of the book. Fingers ran frantic over spines read in glimpses until she found the one she needed. The Tomes of the Twelve, she opened its aged cloth binding, the writing striking her once more.

?To my dearheart,

For your times of worry.

In love,
Kieran?

She held the book close and then found the page that quoted the passages about time, and there sat the pressed rose, browned with age, and delicate as rice paper. ?The futures of men are written in sand, changing with each caressing touch of the tide always in motion.?

Sitting back on the couch in the room, Sylvia closed her eyes and curled around the book to bid it shield her thoughts from visions that came to life and haunted her dreams.