Ewan stood upon the deck of the ship near the mizzen mast, one hand gripping the railing and the other upon the cane. The crew of the Yran Lark made no mention of his condition, but it stung deep inside him all the same.
Not long ago he would have been up the rigging and working the lines with the rest of the crew feeling alive and rejoicing in the spray of salty sea and the smell of the air. Now he shifted tremulously like a famine weakened man with every gentle pitch and roll of the deck. The strain upon his legs walking along was improving each day, but this journey was the test and its outcome soured his expression.
It was not that alone that churned bitterness in his thoughts once again whole and within his control. He pushed at the railing and tried to walk gracefully across the deck to his berth but failed every third step or so to keep at pace. It was in high ill humor that he reached the door and yanked it open, shutting it brutally behind him and dropped onto the small bunk. The darkness of the inner cabin was only mildly comforting in it kept sympathetic glances from their watch. But his thoughts came ever more forcibly to the front of his mind.
Storm would not be waiting for him on his return. That came blazing upwards to start the battle afresh. He had pushed her away so cruelly. A belief in protecting her, or was it protecting himself. The debate rose in point and counterpoint until it became a fit that brought his fist up and punched the boards above his head. Weakness of muscles spared any damage to board or bone in the effort, but the lingering pain of his stubbornness to protect others against their will got another coat of duty layered over it as an oyster coats an irritating grain of sand.
Not long ago he would have been up the rigging and working the lines with the rest of the crew feeling alive and rejoicing in the spray of salty sea and the smell of the air. Now he shifted tremulously like a famine weakened man with every gentle pitch and roll of the deck. The strain upon his legs walking along was improving each day, but this journey was the test and its outcome soured his expression.
It was not that alone that churned bitterness in his thoughts once again whole and within his control. He pushed at the railing and tried to walk gracefully across the deck to his berth but failed every third step or so to keep at pace. It was in high ill humor that he reached the door and yanked it open, shutting it brutally behind him and dropped onto the small bunk. The darkness of the inner cabin was only mildly comforting in it kept sympathetic glances from their watch. But his thoughts came ever more forcibly to the front of his mind.
Storm would not be waiting for him on his return. That came blazing upwards to start the battle afresh. He had pushed her away so cruelly. A belief in protecting her, or was it protecting himself. The debate rose in point and counterpoint until it became a fit that brought his fist up and punched the boards above his head. Weakness of muscles spared any damage to board or bone in the effort, but the lingering pain of his stubbornness to protect others against their will got another coat of duty layered over it as an oyster coats an irritating grain of sand.