Topic: Trouble with Mornings

Tarna DVelle

Date: 2008-01-30 10:42 EST
Tarna started to wake, though her head pounded and her body ached. Too much drink for the little lass. She peeked an eye open, greeted by the bright light of day, she moaned and quickly shut her eyes again... burying them under the pillow.

Where was she?

Oh right, the inn. Frank and her had gotten a room here due to the difficulties of walking under the influence and unpleasent weather.

Next time she wouldn't try to match Frank drink for drink.

A thought occured to Tarna. She peeked from under the pillow down at her body. Blouse and panties. Momentarily her cheeks were at risk to redden. Logically she talked herself down from it. Still have clothes on, so nothing too big could have happened last night. And Frank's seen her in less... even if purely for medical reasons.

She tried to collect her thoughts and recall the night's events... from after the drinking...

They came up here...

She laid down. He laid down. There was touching, kissing... then they agreed they should try to sleep. And she did. But her boots, skirt and corsette were uncomfortable to sleep in. She remembered getting out of them and waking Frank. More touching, more kissing. Again.. 'we should sleep.' Which might have worked, minus Tarna's brassiere becoming discomforting as well. Heh... course that started up the kissing again. Damn... she wondered how many starts and stops they went through last night. Though, it seemed in the end, sleeping won out.

She peeked out from her pillow again... looking for Frank.

Frank Paszinski

Date: 2008-01-30 18:21 EST
Frank hadn't gone far. His arm was still over her shoulders, doing what arms do with the snuggling and the warming. He was in a similar state of dress, shoe-less and naked from the waist up. Two hundred and fifteen odd pounds of muscle-y, snoozing soldier.

There was a pitcher of water near the bed, half empty. Looks like he'd been up and about at some point; that only one of them was likely to have a hangover. Frank could likely care for himself blacked-out if necessary.

He was sleeping longer than he normally does, though. Either the night had drained him, or, more likely, he liked facing the day from right where he was.

Tarna DVelle

Date: 2008-01-30 18:39 EST
Tarna made a sound that was between a grunt and a moan as she looked at the pitcher of water. So close... and yet so far. Part of her urged to drink the clear water that perched just out of reach, the other part of her wanted to curl up into a ball and never do anything ever again. She gave up on the idea of getting a drink and moved to face Frank.

She lifted her hand up, gently touching the side of his face. Quietly wondering to herself. She wondered what it was between them. Well, no, that was wrong. She wondered how Frank felt about her, she knew how she felt for him. The only time Frank had really declared anything about his feelings was when they were yelling back and forth at one another in her old room at the inn. And at the time his feelings for her were... well, nothing more than friendly companionship. More so, he seemed to have a mental list for all the reasons they shouldn't or couldn't or wouldn't be together.

And she wondered about the woman who had stayed at Frank's back like a statue the last time she was at the inn. True, Frank seemed to be spending what time he wasn't working with her... but...

Tarna sighed softly.

Frank Paszinski

Date: 2008-01-30 19:22 EST
He murmured and shifted as her hand brushed his face, and his eyes slid open and he smiled at her. "Hullo sunshine," he says to the woman who's face is half buried in the pillow. "Feeling well?" he chuckles.

He gives a curious look as her face falls and she sighs. "What's wrong, sweetheart?" He brushes some of her fiery hair away from her face.

Tarna DVelle

Date: 2008-01-30 19:27 EST
She offered Frank a weak smile. "I feel awful." Tarna confessed, bringing her hand back to her own body. She seemed to be thinking. Inwardly debating about if she even wanted to give voice to any of her thoughts. Not really. She felt bad enough without having her hopeful dreams ruined. Instead she told him meekly, "You put the water out of reach."

Frank Paszinski

Date: 2008-01-30 20:02 EST
He leans over her, the covers falling from his body. Stealing a kiss, he grabs the pitcher and the glass from the end table. 'Out of reach' apparently meant she couldn't manage to roll herself over enough to make a grab for it. "You drank too much," he teased as he filled the glass.

He leans over her again to set the pitcher down, then contents himself with watching her struggle between burying herself further into the pillow and sitting up to take the glass. God she was so adorable.

Tarna DVelle

Date: 2008-01-30 20:10 EST
She remained burried, keeping the glass steady as she lowered it to her lips. Moving her head just so and tilting the glass ever so carefully as she took a drink. Then, keeping the glass in hand, she wrinkled her nose at Frank. "You let me."

Frank Paszinski

Date: 2008-01-30 20:15 EST
"Actually, I'm pretty sure I encouraged it," he says, grinning, not at all sorry. He leans in and kisses her on the forehead, "Did you sleep well?" He settles himself back into the bed beside her, playing with her hair as he watched her.

"No contracts today; I can stay home and take care of you... again." Frank was an evil, evil man, especially with that grin on his face.

Tarna DVelle

Date: 2008-01-30 20:17 EST
"Why do I get the feeling I was set up?" She remarked at Frank from over her glass. Tarna handed the glass back to Frank, her arm getting tired of holding it. Head settled back down on the pillow, she continued to watch him. "I slept fine."

Frank Paszinski

Date: 2008-01-30 20:23 EST
"Set up? Who would want to set up a sweet, innocent little thing like you?" Takes the glass, and gleefully leans back over her to set it down. On the way back, he steals another kiss, this one lingering, no doubt inspired by a couple of the better ones they shared last night. "Not I," he breaths, and "Good." as he lays back down on the pillow, head on hand to watch her over the soft, rolling hills of fluffy comforter and downy pillow.

He pulled the comforter up higher on the pair of them. All this moving around was letting the cold air in! He said as much, and craftily slid closer to make sure everything stayed nice and warm.

Tarna DVelle

Date: 2008-01-30 20:48 EST
Every time Frank's lips had touched her own, she returned the kiss perhaps more hopefully than eagerly. As he slid closer to her, she closed her eyes and buried her head near his neck. The delicate movement of her eyelashes brushing against his skin. She chewed her lower lip, thinking as she inhaled the scent of him that surrounded her.

Frank Paszinski

Date: 2008-01-30 20:54 EST
"Well, out with it then," he breathes into her ear, reveling in her nearness, but something wasn't quite right. Something more than her being hungover; it was on her mind and it was, well, not obvious, but apparent. She was being all melty and tentative, but there was none of the blushing. Something was clearly amiss!

Tarna DVelle

Date: 2008-01-30 21:15 EST
She leaned back at little, looking at him. Then she scooted up, taking a position sitting. It seemed that even with the hangover, Tarna was able to manage her professional attitude. The same Frank had seen as Tarna spoke with Sylvia Badeau on the previous night. It was straight forward, no doubt that she should be taken seriously.

"What do you want from me, Frank? I cannot be something on the side for your. Or share you with someone else." And here she judged his eyes, weighing perhaps the truth behind her thoughts on the woman from the inn that day. "If you still only care for my friendship... then this," A guesture between them, "Needs to stop. It's unfair to me, it gets my hopes up. I know I said something good can be worth any amount of pain in the end, but I meant something good that was also true. If this is only one-sided I need to go. Get distance from you. And it needed saying now, because I don't want to wait longer only to have more invested and broken when you give me another speech like the last one."

Frank Paszinski

Date: 2008-01-30 22:42 EST
With a sigh, he lays his head back down on the pillow, staring at the ceiling, collecting his thoughts carefully. Frank was not a man to be rushed when looking for things like the truth. Frank was not a man to be rushed when doing something like soul-searching. Now he was being asked to do both. The pause was not to concoct a lie, no, lies did not come naturally to the man, but he often made mistakes.

This was not something he wanted to be mistaken on.

"Do you remember when I told you not many knew me as more than a man with a rifle? Well it was true. What was also true was that I didn't care to know others either. Sorta a mutual respect."

He pauses.

"You know, I tried to change when I got here. Figured, hey, new life, new loves, all that. Tried to settle down with a girl. We went on a date. Romantic and candle-lit and everything. Over dinner, the girl tells me she's not human. Which was a surprise, but not as surprising as what she said afterwards: 'I don't have a heart.' she said to me, 'I take pleasure in other's pain.' she said. Then I never saw her again, and while I thank god for that, you can understand how that wouldn't be a good first foray into love."

He pauses again.

"Well I've gotten to know you better, Tarna. You're a far cry from the sad little girl I thought you were- Hey! You wanted the truth! You're stronger and more resilient than I gave you credit for. I underestimated you, and for that, I'm sorry."

He finally turns to look at her, "But, I'm not leading you on. I would never do that, let alone to you. I haven't lied to you Tarna. I'm just..."

He blinks. He's silent for a long, long time.

"Scared," he admits. "I'm scared. It's not in my control, and I don't want to hurt you, and this isn't some stupid op I can just say, 'Oh, look, I fucked up! Oh well!'" Shrug. "I.." he stops, realizing what he'd just admitted and hoping maybe that she'd fill in the gaps. Or something.

Tarna DVelle

Date: 2008-01-30 23:32 EST
The stern look melted from Tarna's face as she listened to Frank's response patiently. She almost spoke up when he called her 'sad little girl' but quieted as he cut her off. A smile as he continued.

Finally, as the man finished, Tarna laid a hand on his chest. Leaning over him and kissing him, slowly and softly. "There's nothing of which to be scared by, love." She said with lips barely parted from his. "Promise."

"You're a good man, Frank." She spoke with a smile, her hand gliding smoothly over his chest... feeling the various scars.

Then there was another smile upon her lips. Introspective.

"We don't have to be in control of everything. It's okay to let go, to experience and let that lead us on."

She held that smile a moment longer before her hand left his chest and traveled to the buttons of her blouse. Slipping out of her shirt and pulling the covers back over them as she laid down next to him again.

Her lips meeting the curve of his neck, her arms wrapping about him.

"No more words, kay?"

Frank Paszinski

Date: 2008-01-31 00:00 EST
"Whatever; don't mistake my honesty for goodness..." he trails off as she caresses his chest. Bah! She knew he carried a gun, what more was there to say? She was smart. She wasn't a child. She knew it wasn't a toy. She knew what it did and what he did with it.

"No, we don't. But it's preferable when you feel responsible for something. Like someone's heart."

She nuzzles up to him- really nuzzles up to him- and he smiles, warmly. He returns the embrace. "Of course, there are always exceptions. No more words," he agrees.

And their love, for love it was, turned far from words. And Frank let himself believe that this could work, that he could make it work, and he let himself be... content.

Maybe even happy.