Saffron, Age 16
Diary:
I'm Saffron Jensen-Lefevre. F*ck you.
Hold on. I'm sorry. I keep getting angry. You're just a notebook. You didn't do anything to make me talk to you like that. I'm so sorry. :(
The school counselor recommended that I get a journal, so my mom did, and so I'm writing in you.
Dad ODed on heroin a month ago. I feel like a f*cking idiot for not even knowing what he was doing or why he was spending so much time away from us. The doctors or whoever said that he got addicted to the Oxycontin he got prescribed after the car accident I got us into. People tell me it isn't my fault. I don't know if I believe them. I let him down an he got hurt so bad that he had to go looking for f*cking heroin. My face got smashed against the steering wheel. They had to cut it off-the steering wheel, I mean- to get me out. They put my face back together okay. I can't smell all that great anymore, and I've got this big f*cking scar across my nose. It'd look kinda cool, if I was a Tekken character or something. I'm not. I'm 4'10", and my great big boobs just make me look fat, thanks to having a huge butt to go with it. I'm like a weeble-wobble with a dent in it.
Mom keeps gritting her teeth and leaving the house to smoke. I didn't know she ever smoked. I mean, like, I kinda knew she smoked pot back in the day. I'm named after a Donovan song, for Pete's sake! But... not like cigarettes. Anyhow, she says that she and Papa hadn't been getting along for a while. She tells me it isn't about me, or the accident, but I can tell she's tired. She might be lying, or she secretly blames me. I don't know any more. I don't know about anything anymore. This is too f*cking much.
Diary:
I'm Saffron Jensen-Lefevre. F*ck you.
Hold on. I'm sorry. I keep getting angry. You're just a notebook. You didn't do anything to make me talk to you like that. I'm so sorry. :(
The school counselor recommended that I get a journal, so my mom did, and so I'm writing in you.
Dad ODed on heroin a month ago. I feel like a f*cking idiot for not even knowing what he was doing or why he was spending so much time away from us. The doctors or whoever said that he got addicted to the Oxycontin he got prescribed after the car accident I got us into. People tell me it isn't my fault. I don't know if I believe them. I let him down an he got hurt so bad that he had to go looking for f*cking heroin. My face got smashed against the steering wheel. They had to cut it off-the steering wheel, I mean- to get me out. They put my face back together okay. I can't smell all that great anymore, and I've got this big f*cking scar across my nose. It'd look kinda cool, if I was a Tekken character or something. I'm not. I'm 4'10", and my great big boobs just make me look fat, thanks to having a huge butt to go with it. I'm like a weeble-wobble with a dent in it.
Mom keeps gritting her teeth and leaving the house to smoke. I didn't know she ever smoked. I mean, like, I kinda knew she smoked pot back in the day. I'm named after a Donovan song, for Pete's sake! But... not like cigarettes. Anyhow, she says that she and Papa hadn't been getting along for a while. She tells me it isn't about me, or the accident, but I can tell she's tired. She might be lying, or she secretly blames me. I don't know any more. I don't know about anything anymore. This is too f*cking much.