9/23/2014
Dear Diary of Sanity:
Inner peace and a healing touch; words that I never dreamed to be within my grasp. As a woman raised by war, tried by fire and pain, work hardened by leading armies and cities I find my new tasks daunting; focusing on family, alchemist craft and nursing. Me, a nurse, I guess my time to retire from the active life has finally come. I may get into a scrape or two if someone ever calls my self defense into question, but I think my family is finally settling knowing their matron has finally submitted to retirement.
I am not exactly forced to leave my ways of war. Instead I am seeing the value of staying my hand in the world of violence. I was a child raised by the state and thrown to the wolves since I could read. My children should never have to suffer the same fate. My mates deserve my full attention as well as I am their wife and they are my husbands and wife. For me to continue burying myself in my work and fighting is akin to me slapping them in the face repeatedly. I am done with that course.
The prospect of expanding the family also lends me to retiring. Leroy and Fleet are curious but not asking just yet if I am pregnant. The paperwork came in today from Whisper Paws Hospital. Dr. Stridar has congratulated me on once more outdoing my prior records. I will bring three new lives into this realm, may these children forgive me if I ever fail them. I am waiting to see if Mirius is with pups as well. I feel she is conflicted with the joys of wanting pups and the fears all mothers have with having pups. I have yet to tell my mates that I am pregnant. Worse yet, I have yet to tell my commander aboard the space station that I am pregnant and will be unfit for flight duty in the near future. He will surely not be very happy with me or Myrlene for what is easily considered AWOL status within the military. I will settle that score in due time. I am sure something can be negotiated.
Myrlene and an alternate Marilla have come back home from Lupinoss. I am hoping to help Marilla adapt to a social life and to seek sanctuary from a war and plague torn realm. At least Fleet seems in his right mind again and I do truly love him as much as I love Mirius. Years of him suffering from the magical damage to his memories and mind had almost put a rift between us as mates. I am glad it never came to that.
As I close this entry, I am happy to see the family together, almost unified and enjoying prospects of normal life. The city seems well and running steady with the reigns of governor being handed over to Frostad Shieldar this week. I am getting ready to announce change in my status as teacher in both academies from full time to occasional guest lectures. My shop may suffer a little neglect for now but I will keep infuse new ideas and products into it one Fleet has rendered my laboratory into something safe for a woman with child. He will be bringing a new source of revenue into our family coffers as well, a general store run by him and family. I think we all will have enough to do to stay out of trouble, mostly.
Dear Diary of Sanity:
Inner peace and a healing touch; words that I never dreamed to be within my grasp. As a woman raised by war, tried by fire and pain, work hardened by leading armies and cities I find my new tasks daunting; focusing on family, alchemist craft and nursing. Me, a nurse, I guess my time to retire from the active life has finally come. I may get into a scrape or two if someone ever calls my self defense into question, but I think my family is finally settling knowing their matron has finally submitted to retirement.
I am not exactly forced to leave my ways of war. Instead I am seeing the value of staying my hand in the world of violence. I was a child raised by the state and thrown to the wolves since I could read. My children should never have to suffer the same fate. My mates deserve my full attention as well as I am their wife and they are my husbands and wife. For me to continue burying myself in my work and fighting is akin to me slapping them in the face repeatedly. I am done with that course.
The prospect of expanding the family also lends me to retiring. Leroy and Fleet are curious but not asking just yet if I am pregnant. The paperwork came in today from Whisper Paws Hospital. Dr. Stridar has congratulated me on once more outdoing my prior records. I will bring three new lives into this realm, may these children forgive me if I ever fail them. I am waiting to see if Mirius is with pups as well. I feel she is conflicted with the joys of wanting pups and the fears all mothers have with having pups. I have yet to tell my mates that I am pregnant. Worse yet, I have yet to tell my commander aboard the space station that I am pregnant and will be unfit for flight duty in the near future. He will surely not be very happy with me or Myrlene for what is easily considered AWOL status within the military. I will settle that score in due time. I am sure something can be negotiated.
Myrlene and an alternate Marilla have come back home from Lupinoss. I am hoping to help Marilla adapt to a social life and to seek sanctuary from a war and plague torn realm. At least Fleet seems in his right mind again and I do truly love him as much as I love Mirius. Years of him suffering from the magical damage to his memories and mind had almost put a rift between us as mates. I am glad it never came to that.
As I close this entry, I am happy to see the family together, almost unified and enjoying prospects of normal life. The city seems well and running steady with the reigns of governor being handed over to Frostad Shieldar this week. I am getting ready to announce change in my status as teacher in both academies from full time to occasional guest lectures. My shop may suffer a little neglect for now but I will keep infuse new ideas and products into it one Fleet has rendered my laboratory into something safe for a woman with child. He will be bringing a new source of revenue into our family coffers as well, a general store run by him and family. I think we all will have enough to do to stay out of trouble, mostly.