The diner was old enough that the spaces between neon lights had become greyed out with wear. Sonny was in an SUV, the sort of vehicle a person never imagined he would like until they accounted for his size and how those sorts of vehicles would suit it. In the MacIntosh camp, all the big vehicles for the heavy lifting were black. It made Sonny feel like he was part of the FBI, rolling up in the black SUV and parking at the half-abandoned gas station-turned-greasy spoon diner.
Sonny was waiting, not knowing what to expect. Ezra was in the passenger seat next to him, looking as though his eyes monitored the sun as he spoke, ?Yeah, they?ll be here any minute.?
Where the boxy SUV was dark and anonymous, the sleek red Subaru was bold, and it made a statement. It said ?I?m here, and I have other places to be, so this better be important.? The car wasn?t exactly Ian?s style but Jay loved it, and it made him feel more substantial, and anyway that ass**** Jimmie had had no business behind its wheel. So Ian had taken it back at the same time that he?d taken Jimmie?s life, and he drove it now because he?d earned it.
The kid checked the GPS program on his phone and then made a right turn. ?Should be up here on the right in three quarters of a mile,? he commented to what looked like empty air in the passenger seat beside him. If he made a point not to turn his head, Ian could just barely make out the man?s outline, but of course it vanished if he looked that direction. So he didn?t. Instead, like Ezra, he checked the angle of the sun.
Just a few minutes later, he made the right turn into the parking lot, spotting the hulking vehicle that had arrived ahead of them. ?What kinda men in black bull**** is this?? He mumbled under his breath as he shook his head with a dim smirk, parking the car in a slot that was a few spaces away and then cutting the engine. The windows were tinted nearly opaque, and Ian took the moment to light a cigarette with a glance towards the passenger seat before he got out. ?Ready for this??
?No, but it?s **** happening anyway.? He didn?t have to grab the handle of the car and pop the door open but he did. There were always echoes, always habits, that came to him from being alive. They were more prominent when he was stressed, when that ?instinct? kicked in. He didn?t know what sort of instinct the dead were supposed to have, just that he knew what it felt like to behave in a way that didn?t make sense because it was what was known. The door opened, he pinched the brim of his had and got to his feet like he meant business.
Inside the SUV, Sonny blinked through the tinted window and looked at Ezra, ?What is this??
Ezra reached over, ?Take a breath and get out of the SUV. It?s Ian.?
?I know it?s Ian but??
?Just get out of the car.? Ezra waited, wondering if Sonny would hit the gas and jolt from where they were parked like a rocket back to Silas. He swallowed, putting his hand on Sonny?s massive shoulder. He pleaded, his voice softer, ?Just get out of the SUV for a minute.?
It was a small eternity, from the point that he asked until Sonny?s door opened and the ox took five paces, then stopped at the front of the SUV. He recognized Ian, but his pause came longer, it held and cut the air when he looked at Josh. His voice wavered, ?Is this some kinda joke??
They had timed it perfectly. Josh wasn?t there when the door seemed to open by itself, but he was by the time he?d shut it. Ian breathed through his nose and got out of the driver?s side, closing it rather deliberately behind him as well.
The way he pulled on the cigarette hollowed out his cheeks, giving his face the temporary look of a deathmask the way it always did. You could practically see the shape of his skull underneath his skin when he did that, like death itself had marked and claimed him. So perhaps it had. He rounded the front of the car, ashing the cigarette once and then holding it out for Josh, his gaze fixed like steel on Sonny.
?No one lied to you, Sonny. Josh is dead. Me an? Grace an? Dave gave him his last rites and put him in the ocean.? His gaze turned from Sonny to Josh and then back. ?But dead don?t have the same meaning in Rhydin that it does everywhere else.?
You would have to know him really well to notice how tense his muscles were despite the deliberate way he slouched. The kid scarcely breathed, waiting on the ox?s reaction.
?So, what, you got some sort of look-alike?? Sonny?s shoulders were bunched up like a cat arching its back. Ezra swung his eyes from Sonny to the newly materialized Josh. Sometimes, it still hurt. Everyone remembered what it was like to watch him die.
?S?not a look alike,? Ezra said, scratching the side of his throat and then motioning to them, ?That?s ****?.... That?s Josh.?
Josh?s hand went to the top of his hat, pulling it off so that his features couldn?t be half masked by the twilight. His feet were planted, shoulder width apart. Between the two cars, he was but five feet from Sonny.
?****, no one looks this damn good but me.? He cleared his throat, following behind Ian?s explanation, ?Rhy?Din?s different. We don?t all just? go like we?re used to seeing people go.?
?No, I saw you. You-? Sonny folded his arms over his chest like he was protecting his heart, ?You fell, you died. You? you died.?
?Yeah,? Josh said the word softly, stepping up to Sonny, ?but I still got **** to do.?
Once he?d put the burning cigarette in Josh?s hand, Ian pulled his shirt off. He reached behind his head, grabbing it by the collar and hauling it up off his back and then over his shoulders. Slinging it over the right arm, he stood there directly beside his ghost lover, his gaze on Sonny.
The amulet made of gunmetal had been turned to his back in the process. Only the thin line of its chain was visible across his throat.
The sugar skull tattoo with the word REVIVAL in its teeth was there, plainly visible on the left side of his chest. So too were the still-pink scars of the bullet wounds that smeared the top portion of the ink. ?We know what you saw. He died in my arms, and the bullets that killed him nearly killed me.? He smiled faintly, taking a lean against the sloped nose of the Subaru as Josh approached his old friend.. ?So yeah. He?s dead, but he?s also here. Both things are true.?
Josh took a pull from the cigarette and waited. He waited on the large ox to start doing the math. To have the reality of the situation sink in. Ezra frowned, looking up at him, ?Yea, it?s all of that.?
?I feel like my head?s gonna **** explode.?
Ezra cleared his throat, ?And like you?re so **** happy and devastated all at once??
?... Yeah,? the ox barely breathed the word out and then looked at Ezra, who nodded a few times. Then he looked at Josh, still behaving as if he was some unseen party. His head swung back to Ezra and Ian, looking for confirmation.
?I?m right the **** here,? Josh set his hat on top of the Subaru, handing the cigarette off to Ian so that he could step up to Sonny, giving him a few half smacks to the side of the face, ?I?m right the **** here you idiot.?
?But you??
?Yeah, I did, I was there.?
Then Sonny stepped forward, giving Josh a bear hug so great that he was lifted off his feet, looking small and rather like a stuffed animal a hulking giant had found. Only Sonny could make someone so monumental look small.
Ian accepted the cigarette, leaning down to balance it on the car?s front bumper so he could put his shirt back on. It settled into place, and once it had, he reached underneath it to pull the amulet back down where it belonged. Only then did he retrieve the cigarette, just in time to catch Sonny?s eye. He gave an encouraging nod.
He?d been about to say something about how much Josh hated being ignored when suddenly the big guy moved, gathering Jay up in his embrace. Ian exhaled a breath he hadn?t realized he was holding then, but not without the strange pang of irritation that his lover was hugging someone else. Sure, it was just Sonny, and Sonny was different. But still. The kid shook his head, flashed Ezra a quick smile that said, **** finally, and pulled hard on the cigarette.
?All right, all right, set me down.?
Sonny did, eventually, after it seemed like he might wring him down to nothing. When Jay was able to gather himself he planted a hand on Sonny?s chest, ?There?s been rumors, and ****?s been said everywhere so just hear it from me. Ian is my **** boyfriend, and that **** isn?t changing. If you have a problem with that, you can step away and I?ll get it, sort of. Second, I only have an hour each day to? sorta be this. I?m mostly here at the twilight, and the rest of the time I?m with Ian. I don?t have all the **** answers, but if Ian goes, I go.?
The lay out of it was brutal and hard. Maybe it could be because Sonny was there. Maybe it was because this was how Mac delivered news and warmed hearts to his cause. Ian had been kinder with Ezra, the moment had allowed for tears and recovery. Mac was past that, now. He wanted things moving, and going forward, and perhaps some part of him forgot that Sonny was taking this in for the first time. The ox was speechless.
A grin rose unbidden on Ian's mouth as Jay started explaining. He dragged on the cigarette again, clenching it temporarily between his lips as he lifted his hand away, raising two fingers in a gesture that was part salute and part acknowledgment. **** boyfriend, present and accounted for. ?For the record,? he said, pinching the cancer stick between one of those fingers and his thumb as he picked himself up off the hood of the car, approaching at last. ?...I won?t get it if you walk. Who he?s with doesn?t change who he is, who he?s always been, or who he is to you.?
Ian glanced sidelong at Ezra, giving the other man a hint of a smile before he slid his arm around Josh?s waist, reverting his attention to Sonny. ?And in case you?re wondering, ain?t either one of us trying to **** anybody but each other, so...whatever wild thoughts you might be terrifying yourself with now, you can put all that to rest.?
His tone softened subtly as he relented. ?It?s a lot to wrap your mind around, I know. It?s messed up when you?ve mourned someone you loved and then discover that they?re still around, at least partially. It sucks, and there?s no way around that. But he?s here, Sonny. As here as he can be.?
Sonny was waiting, not knowing what to expect. Ezra was in the passenger seat next to him, looking as though his eyes monitored the sun as he spoke, ?Yeah, they?ll be here any minute.?
Where the boxy SUV was dark and anonymous, the sleek red Subaru was bold, and it made a statement. It said ?I?m here, and I have other places to be, so this better be important.? The car wasn?t exactly Ian?s style but Jay loved it, and it made him feel more substantial, and anyway that ass**** Jimmie had had no business behind its wheel. So Ian had taken it back at the same time that he?d taken Jimmie?s life, and he drove it now because he?d earned it.
The kid checked the GPS program on his phone and then made a right turn. ?Should be up here on the right in three quarters of a mile,? he commented to what looked like empty air in the passenger seat beside him. If he made a point not to turn his head, Ian could just barely make out the man?s outline, but of course it vanished if he looked that direction. So he didn?t. Instead, like Ezra, he checked the angle of the sun.
Just a few minutes later, he made the right turn into the parking lot, spotting the hulking vehicle that had arrived ahead of them. ?What kinda men in black bull**** is this?? He mumbled under his breath as he shook his head with a dim smirk, parking the car in a slot that was a few spaces away and then cutting the engine. The windows were tinted nearly opaque, and Ian took the moment to light a cigarette with a glance towards the passenger seat before he got out. ?Ready for this??
?No, but it?s **** happening anyway.? He didn?t have to grab the handle of the car and pop the door open but he did. There were always echoes, always habits, that came to him from being alive. They were more prominent when he was stressed, when that ?instinct? kicked in. He didn?t know what sort of instinct the dead were supposed to have, just that he knew what it felt like to behave in a way that didn?t make sense because it was what was known. The door opened, he pinched the brim of his had and got to his feet like he meant business.
Inside the SUV, Sonny blinked through the tinted window and looked at Ezra, ?What is this??
Ezra reached over, ?Take a breath and get out of the SUV. It?s Ian.?
?I know it?s Ian but??
?Just get out of the car.? Ezra waited, wondering if Sonny would hit the gas and jolt from where they were parked like a rocket back to Silas. He swallowed, putting his hand on Sonny?s massive shoulder. He pleaded, his voice softer, ?Just get out of the SUV for a minute.?
It was a small eternity, from the point that he asked until Sonny?s door opened and the ox took five paces, then stopped at the front of the SUV. He recognized Ian, but his pause came longer, it held and cut the air when he looked at Josh. His voice wavered, ?Is this some kinda joke??
They had timed it perfectly. Josh wasn?t there when the door seemed to open by itself, but he was by the time he?d shut it. Ian breathed through his nose and got out of the driver?s side, closing it rather deliberately behind him as well.
The way he pulled on the cigarette hollowed out his cheeks, giving his face the temporary look of a deathmask the way it always did. You could practically see the shape of his skull underneath his skin when he did that, like death itself had marked and claimed him. So perhaps it had. He rounded the front of the car, ashing the cigarette once and then holding it out for Josh, his gaze fixed like steel on Sonny.
?No one lied to you, Sonny. Josh is dead. Me an? Grace an? Dave gave him his last rites and put him in the ocean.? His gaze turned from Sonny to Josh and then back. ?But dead don?t have the same meaning in Rhydin that it does everywhere else.?
You would have to know him really well to notice how tense his muscles were despite the deliberate way he slouched. The kid scarcely breathed, waiting on the ox?s reaction.
?So, what, you got some sort of look-alike?? Sonny?s shoulders were bunched up like a cat arching its back. Ezra swung his eyes from Sonny to the newly materialized Josh. Sometimes, it still hurt. Everyone remembered what it was like to watch him die.
?S?not a look alike,? Ezra said, scratching the side of his throat and then motioning to them, ?That?s ****?.... That?s Josh.?
Josh?s hand went to the top of his hat, pulling it off so that his features couldn?t be half masked by the twilight. His feet were planted, shoulder width apart. Between the two cars, he was but five feet from Sonny.
?****, no one looks this damn good but me.? He cleared his throat, following behind Ian?s explanation, ?Rhy?Din?s different. We don?t all just? go like we?re used to seeing people go.?
?No, I saw you. You-? Sonny folded his arms over his chest like he was protecting his heart, ?You fell, you died. You? you died.?
?Yeah,? Josh said the word softly, stepping up to Sonny, ?but I still got **** to do.?
Once he?d put the burning cigarette in Josh?s hand, Ian pulled his shirt off. He reached behind his head, grabbing it by the collar and hauling it up off his back and then over his shoulders. Slinging it over the right arm, he stood there directly beside his ghost lover, his gaze on Sonny.
The amulet made of gunmetal had been turned to his back in the process. Only the thin line of its chain was visible across his throat.
The sugar skull tattoo with the word REVIVAL in its teeth was there, plainly visible on the left side of his chest. So too were the still-pink scars of the bullet wounds that smeared the top portion of the ink. ?We know what you saw. He died in my arms, and the bullets that killed him nearly killed me.? He smiled faintly, taking a lean against the sloped nose of the Subaru as Josh approached his old friend.. ?So yeah. He?s dead, but he?s also here. Both things are true.?
Josh took a pull from the cigarette and waited. He waited on the large ox to start doing the math. To have the reality of the situation sink in. Ezra frowned, looking up at him, ?Yea, it?s all of that.?
?I feel like my head?s gonna **** explode.?
Ezra cleared his throat, ?And like you?re so **** happy and devastated all at once??
?... Yeah,? the ox barely breathed the word out and then looked at Ezra, who nodded a few times. Then he looked at Josh, still behaving as if he was some unseen party. His head swung back to Ezra and Ian, looking for confirmation.
?I?m right the **** here,? Josh set his hat on top of the Subaru, handing the cigarette off to Ian so that he could step up to Sonny, giving him a few half smacks to the side of the face, ?I?m right the **** here you idiot.?
?But you??
?Yeah, I did, I was there.?
Then Sonny stepped forward, giving Josh a bear hug so great that he was lifted off his feet, looking small and rather like a stuffed animal a hulking giant had found. Only Sonny could make someone so monumental look small.
Ian accepted the cigarette, leaning down to balance it on the car?s front bumper so he could put his shirt back on. It settled into place, and once it had, he reached underneath it to pull the amulet back down where it belonged. Only then did he retrieve the cigarette, just in time to catch Sonny?s eye. He gave an encouraging nod.
He?d been about to say something about how much Josh hated being ignored when suddenly the big guy moved, gathering Jay up in his embrace. Ian exhaled a breath he hadn?t realized he was holding then, but not without the strange pang of irritation that his lover was hugging someone else. Sure, it was just Sonny, and Sonny was different. But still. The kid shook his head, flashed Ezra a quick smile that said, **** finally, and pulled hard on the cigarette.
?All right, all right, set me down.?
Sonny did, eventually, after it seemed like he might wring him down to nothing. When Jay was able to gather himself he planted a hand on Sonny?s chest, ?There?s been rumors, and ****?s been said everywhere so just hear it from me. Ian is my **** boyfriend, and that **** isn?t changing. If you have a problem with that, you can step away and I?ll get it, sort of. Second, I only have an hour each day to? sorta be this. I?m mostly here at the twilight, and the rest of the time I?m with Ian. I don?t have all the **** answers, but if Ian goes, I go.?
The lay out of it was brutal and hard. Maybe it could be because Sonny was there. Maybe it was because this was how Mac delivered news and warmed hearts to his cause. Ian had been kinder with Ezra, the moment had allowed for tears and recovery. Mac was past that, now. He wanted things moving, and going forward, and perhaps some part of him forgot that Sonny was taking this in for the first time. The ox was speechless.
A grin rose unbidden on Ian's mouth as Jay started explaining. He dragged on the cigarette again, clenching it temporarily between his lips as he lifted his hand away, raising two fingers in a gesture that was part salute and part acknowledgment. **** boyfriend, present and accounted for. ?For the record,? he said, pinching the cancer stick between one of those fingers and his thumb as he picked himself up off the hood of the car, approaching at last. ?...I won?t get it if you walk. Who he?s with doesn?t change who he is, who he?s always been, or who he is to you.?
Ian glanced sidelong at Ezra, giving the other man a hint of a smile before he slid his arm around Josh?s waist, reverting his attention to Sonny. ?And in case you?re wondering, ain?t either one of us trying to **** anybody but each other, so...whatever wild thoughts you might be terrifying yourself with now, you can put all that to rest.?
His tone softened subtly as he relented. ?It?s a lot to wrap your mind around, I know. It?s messed up when you?ve mourned someone you loved and then discover that they?re still around, at least partially. It sucks, and there?s no way around that. But he?s here, Sonny. As here as he can be.?