Topic: How to Survive

Weaver

Date: 2011-04-05 22:28 EST


You know my darling;
I can't stand to sleep alone.
No sweetheart in the dark to call my own,
You're my own, you're my own.
I can sing it I can groan.
But the darkness is a stranger,
And I'm lonely, lonely, lonely, low ...

The Elysian Fields were hardly a place to claim as home. Despite the desire of so many to find that point as the last stop in life, Weaver was not one of those. Thankfully this was just a visitation and not an actual stay. Eyes as bright and vivid as a bird of prey, pure liquid gold traveled over those lounging and relaxing on the Fields enjoying life as it was without protest or shame of their actions or manners.

The full living of (after) life seemed a bit frivolous to Weaver but something in her could not help but feel the faintest touch of envy and regret. Once perhaps she would have been much like those gathered, accepting the closeness of death and the promise for what waited. Now though was a different time and a different theory for Weaver when it came to life after death, this beautiful world was not for her.

?We don?t have much Time, Weaver. Do what you need to do. Even I shouldn?t be here and certainly not Astraea.?

The cold softness of Chela?s voice should have been a soothing balm but it did nothing to comfort Weaver as she glanced down at the Death Collector that was near a foot shorter then her. The pale haired girl beside the Blue Death was even shorter.

?I only requested passage. You did not need to come, nor did you need to bring her. We all know none of us will be at risk, not here.?

?It?s not here that I?m concerned about, Weaver.?

?I just have to know??

?Know what exactly??

?If he?s here.?

?So this is another pointless rendezvous for a lost soul? Weaver is it not time to move on??

?Maybe for you, but it will never be so for me.?

Last night's parties and last
night's horror show.
Smiling and whirling and kissing
all I know!
Give me soul, give my soul,
Sing it free across the sea!
A lonely spell to conjure you
But conjure hell is all I do.

Lonely, lonely, lonely!
Cause my mama told me,
The dream of love is a
Two hearted dream ...

Fingers tightened at her sides into fists as the frustration and self loathing fury burned within her as she looked out upon the Fields. For so long there had been promises and oaths, vows and bonds between Weaver and the one she had lost. No matter how many times they had spoken of finding each other in the next life and the next, no matter how many times they had indeed found each other to become two halves made to a whole, this Weaver couldn?t accept.

It was something she couldn?t fix, something broken she could not put back together. Weaver so long been aware of her ability to set things right, her wit and wisdom something that would ever resolve all problems. What she couldn?t resolve she would survive, but for the first time in those many lives the survivor didn?t know the way to survive.

How did Weaver survive this? There was so much she could endure but how did you endure and survive the very mistake that took away the only thing that mattered?

It left her feeling helpless and no matter the brave front and fierce mask of determination she would possess she couldn?t help but feel insecure deep down.

How could anyone survive this? Most of all how could Weaver?

The say for every high
There must be a low.
For every sun ascending
A lonesome moon will grow.
Drive my heart, drive my heart
Into the fire of a burning heart's
desire!
A lonely spell so you be seen,
Do you hear me coming from my
blue dream?

Fingers shoved through her hair as she sent a frown down at the tiny figure of the pale fire that was the Hourglass Girl, the little Glass Star came and embraced her waist in vain attempt to cheer up the warrior.

Sighing in defeat Weaver returned the hug as she turned away and gave a short swift nod to the Blue Death. It was all too much.

?Let?s go.?

?Are you sure??

Her silence spoke volumes as the warrior?s heart turned to steel within flesh. Her silence was enough.

Lonely, lonely, lonely!
Cause my mama told me
The dream of love is a
two hearted dream ...



Weaver

Date: 2011-04-06 22:20 EST
The dreams left her near screaming in the middle of the night as she blinked those owl bright eyes as she straightened against the tree where she held vigil and watch, those sharp gold eyes cutting over the field to see if anyone had noted the slumber that had consumed her that moment or the wet brightness of burnt-gold eyes.

Palm swiped away the threaten of tears as features sharpened to a near bird of prey intensity, those gold eyes burning with a fury and that sense of loss that she never was able to control. Weaver had always felt in control and this left her feeling nothing more then unstable and reckless, near driven to madness by that which she could not control or repair.

The nightmares were becoming worse to the point she rarely slept. Fingers curled around the spear in the possession of her hand as she stepped away from the tree and welcomed the cold rain that hit upon her cheeks and soaked the black-gold of her hair.

Weaver was starting to wonder over the very strength of her sanity as she could have sworn? she could have sworn?

That she heard him.

Calling out to her and calling her to him. It had always been a game between them, a challenge of victory for one over the other. Besting the other in arms, wits, and tactic but in the matters of the heart each of them had always ended up even. Always even.

The wind howled around her but still she strained to hear, head tilted as those overly sharp senses took over in attempt to hear him again. Those keen eyes narrowing before changing into the ?bird?s eye? view of things as pupils swelled in her hunt through the storm.

?Did I hear you??

Her voice was rough and worn, tempered as steel would be when meeting the flame. She was always the level headed one, the calm within the storm and he always the one lost within the more heated of emotions, but now things were different. So much different it all had become for Weaver as the heat of her own emotions seemed to leave her burning.

In those howling winds and the sensation of rain that could cut her flesh as tiny knives that spear was raised in the air as the cry from her would seem a war cry. Only Weaver knew that it was a cry of lamentation and pure anguish that she shrieked out to the storm. If only he would hear, if only he would know.

?Weaver??

She turned around swift that spear head lashing out in that unchecked fury before she had a moment to reaction. Actions anymore took over before reaction from Weaver, she was becoming hot-headed rather then level headed. The vision before her had her crying out again in torment as the pale haired girl before her wrapped her tiny hands around the spear head and withdrew it from her chest. Those crystal bright eyes wide with shock as she dropped down to her knees.

?Astraea!?

?I?I?m sorry. I wanted to make sure you were alright. You were so sad.?

?Damn it Astraea! Where is it??

?Weaver??

?Your staff where is it?!??

The Glass Star had found herself in silence as she went unconscious. A faint shriek of fury exploded from her as she searched that dainty figure for the timepiece. Finding the timepiece she wrapped Astraea?s hands around it until that tiny spark of energy flared around her figure and brought the staff of Time to free itself from the timepiece.

Time stopped around them all save for Astraea and Weaver. Weaver surely had no ability to make time reverse as Astraea could but bringing forth the Staff of Time in the girl?s hands would help her do one more thing.

?Forgive me.?

Weaver worked fast as she withdrew the knife from her boot and slashed a swift red line across Astraea?s shoulder blades. She waited for only a moment that seemed like hours before moving swiftly away from the tiny form as those pure white wings up and out from the girl?s form.

Even now in the storm the vision took her breath away of seeing Astraea?s wings. Those wings were one of the secrets that Astraea possessed with almost shame even though those pale wings could take the breath away.

Wings so pale they almost were iridescent shining with a glistening radiance that seemed to capture and ensnare the light around her even as pale strands took on a shock white hue to mimic the lightning dancing through the stormy night sky.

?Wake up Astraea!?

She waited, tears of frustration streaming down her cheeks to melt into the rain as she leaned in defeat against the spear that had brought this to be.

Weaver couldn?t take this. She near contemplated ending it all if even Astraea couldn?t come back from this.

?I? I see him.?

A whisper brought her eyes snapping open, burnt-gold depths drawing down to the smaller girl as she sat up seeming as perfect and unflawed as she had before save for the state of her clothing and the blood that marred it.

Those pale shining wings had arched in the air as she found her feet again and smiled that radiant smile up to Weaver as she reached up to brush away the warrior?s tears.

?He?s looking for you, you know. He?s waiting still. You should go.?

?How do you know??

?That?s why you were here right? In the storm, so lost? You heard him in the wind. He calls for you even now. It?s time you answered him. It?s time you go home.?

Home is what you made of it but the one that felt like a part of her very soul had always been the only thing that seemed as home to her.

?You will be fine?? The anxious swift nod of Astraea matched with that radiant grin and the pure joy in her eyes as her wings tucked against her back were enough of an answer.

Weaver could only travel in the direction she thought was where his voice had called her from.

?I?m coming, just? wait for me.?


Weaver

Date: 2011-04-08 13:13 EST
Bound to you - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pkVfANH5Zrc


Sweet love, sweet love
Trapped in your love
I've opened up, unsure I can trust
My heart and I were buried in dust
Free me, free us

The first bit of spring was alive in the glen, fresh blades of grass peeking through and awakening to stir the lazy flowers from their graves. The storm had followed her it seemed as she felt the rain pelt down upon her, streaking the black gold into a mess of night dark and comet tails.

She left the rain to hit her, leaving her skin numb as she looked over the lake as her boot rested on the edge of the rock and hunched forward, skipping stones across the mirror surface of the lake.

So many stones had been thrown till not one more remained and she was left staring at her hands. Hands that had killed, hands that had sought revenge. When she closed her eyes Weaver could still see him standing beside her on the battlefield. Comrade. Brother in Arms. Lover. Confidante. Bonded. All of that lost as his voice haunted her as the sweetest caressing whisper even now. He was her greatest weakness and she loved him for it.

You're all I need when I'm holding you tight
If you walk away I will suffer tonight

I found a man I can trust
And boy, I believe in us
I am terrified to love for the first time
Can you see that I'm bound in chains
I finally found my way
I am bound to you
I am bound to you

Weaver had lost tears so long ago. The pain had gone to a sweet numbness that left her heart to become a weapon of steel. A vast labyrinth of emotions never to be shown to any to save herself from the moment again. Of course he was restless, of course he had to go on when she finally just wanted to stop.

The sharpened gaze of molten-gold narrowed as she sighed to herself, somewhere she heard the screaming of a beast in pain and she looked off in that direction. Sympathy for all that were the creatures that existed on this world.

As she looked out upon the lake she found her gaze wandering back to her hands. Bright eyes upon the branded tattoo of sword and shield at her wrist. His mark.

So much, so young
I've faced on my own
Walls I built up became my home
I'm strong and I'm sure there's a fire in us
Sweet love, so pure

I catch my breath with just one beating heart
And I brace myself, please don't tear this apart

The mark that ever would tie, would remind her. Even now when she closed her eyes still she could see all that had been endured. The true tests of what was love and what was war, and everything in between when it came about survival.

Sometimes she found not even her instincts were the best providers of survivalism skills.It only took that time away when he truly felt no longer a part of her that she fretted and felt the loss within, burning her emotions to ash.

There was a way, there had to be a way to endure this, still she kept on chasing the storm and the whisper of that voice drawing her. Not one for siren songs she knew the wit of the lives lived were about her. There was no moving on. How often she had tried and yet now...she still waited for him.

I found a man I can trust

And boy, I believe in us
I am terrified to love for the first time
Can't you see that I'm bound in chains
I finally found my way
I am bound to you
I am bound to

No longer was it about hide and seek, a game of love and war to make life so much more complex. Too long she had waited when really when he had said he was going to go, she should have gathered and released her Pride to follow after him. To be with him always.

Motorcycle boots were kicked up, lifting the warrior into strance as in the distance of the glen she heard the beast's final scream end in silence. There was something about her nature that had her moving in that direction.

No longer was it about letting go but just giving in and doing what needed to be done. Survival was one thing she did so well, but survival without him she was untrained in.

Nothing in the world had ever prepared her for this, and without weapons, without arms, she had to face it all down. This was what survival was. To go naked in spirit, left defenseless and open to the one that mattered...and if they remained...it was enough. This was survival.

Suddenly the moment's here
I embrace my fears
All that I have been carrying all these years
Do I risk it all
Come this far just to fall, fall

Oh, I can trust
And boy, I believe in us
I am terrified to love for the first time
Can you see that I'm bound in chains
And finally found my way
I am bound to you

I am,
Ooh, I am
I'm bound to you









Weaver

Date: 2011-04-14 09:20 EST
The blade had been sharpened, honed as she remained vigilant. The silence of her observation seemed near infinite as she thought back to only a small handful of hours ago.

The comfort of weapons was a strange one to have but in these times Weaver took solace in them. The spear was resting at her side, already the blood of the Hourglass Girl had been cleaned from it. A mistake that was not to be forgiven in Weaver's own soul. She would certainly have to make it up to Astraea.

For as long as she could remember in this life she had been the Guardian and watcher over the Hourglass Girl. She had witnessed the brutal assault of what had brought Astraea to this life and had been with the girl ever since.

It was what brought them all close and connected, those near death experiences. What had brought them to become known as the Godspeed Girls. Those that would watch on with the end of days until the world knew itself again and found a new channel.

Astraea of any knew this best of how time was not a straight line but instead something of an ellipse.

This was the life she had known, in all of her lives this was what she had found to be known best in her life as repetition. That and him.

It was only in this life that she had known the parting from the one ever bound to her, the one that had meant so much and meant everything even as they could continue to exist and coexist as separate individuals.

Now was the time to keep her word. He had been set free and now the calling she heard in her nights and dreams swore to her of his promise of return. That he was ready to come back.

In the solace of weapons and the return of heart sworn bonds she waited. The mountains never seemed as lovely to her as they did now. Her patience was well known, and this life was just another. She could wait as long as needed for him, till he returned.