January 16, 2012
Katarina waited till Jolyon left. The inn was busy as it usually was, and the one friendly and familiar face was now gone. But at least Locke was there, and she felt comfortable enough in the booth to discuss the conversation they had just shared ?Tha' was... avoidant.? She didn't clarify what she meant.
?Me? Or him?? A pause, then Locke continued, ?Or both??
She slanted him a sideways glance and finished her Badsider. ?Both.?
?With regards to what?? He sipped from his glass to buy himself a few seconds to think. ?In regards to myself, I mean.?
She studied him carefully, to see how genuine the question was, ?'bout gettin' married.?
?The date is still up in the air, is it not?? A small sigh, ?I am not sure what else I could or should have said.?
?An' how lon', ya thin',? it must have been her recent thoughts in this area, that made her push the subject, ?somethin' kin be up 'n th' air till it dun come back down??
?I don't know. Forgive me for doing this, since I know this is an important topic of discussion, but would it be all right if we saved this for home? I know I am not a target for gossip anymore, and that the usual gossipmongers seem to have left the realm, but I still feel like it's a bad idea to talk of such in public.?
?Yeah, tha's fine.? She did her best to bite back a sigh.
?What of Jolyon, then?? Feeling his skin bristle, he tapped at his hipbones, missing the fact that he couldn't carry knives anymore.
?Umm..? Momentarily distracted she tried to keep her train of thought?, I mean'... 'bout Serena.? She helped herself to Locke's glass of bourbon and took a healthy swig.
?That things are well? Why wouldn't they be??
?Bu' he didn' really say they were well, he jist said... thanks fer askin'.?
?I can't say I know either very well, Serena in particular.? Something came to mind, mouth open, and then he bit it back.
She didn't miss his look, ?Wha'??
?Do I know anyone anymore?? A pause, as the words hung in the air, and then he tried to chase them off with laughter. ?Bleeding melodramatic, is it not? This place is getting to me, mate.?
?No, it's nah. This is wha's gittin' ta ya.? She turned her nanites on so that she could gently poke his forehead. ?An' ya know plenty o' people ta boot.?
There was a moment when he looked like he might argue with her, but the poke and her words soon sank in. ?You're right. And I suppose it is not worth much, but I feel like it is hard to discuss marriage when your job is insecure and I have not yet figured out what precisely I will do next.?
She rose a brow, ?I didn' realize it was based 'n our employment.? She scratched around her hairline and frowned ? 've had it all wron' this whole time.? Nevermind that he had stated earlier waiting till home to further discuss the topic.
Well, he had brought it up. ?Among other things, certainly.? He took another sip of bourbon.
She sent him a flat look, ?Locke, please. I dun buy tha' fra ya. Th' same person who tol' me tha' it only would affirm somethin' ya 'lready know. Two years 'go there was nothin' mentioned bough' jobs.?
Quick tug of the curtain on the booth shut, though careful or talented ears would have easily heard the parts of the conversation leading up to the curtain shutting. He touched the curtain with bare hands and shut eyes, letting a quick cold gust buffet him.
Katarina frowned as she watched him, ?Wha'cha doin'??
?Soundproofing the booth.? A slug of bourbon. ?We don't have to wait until we're home, now.?
?Okay.? Her frown remained, ?So, let's hear it.?
?I don't know if I want a ceremony anymore. Perhaps something ipso facto, when timing does not matter, but...I don't know that there's ever going to be a perfect time for it to work.?
?Ipso facto.? By the way Katarina kept frowning, she didn't understand that statement, ?Kay, so no ceremony, an' no time's righ'. So wha' does tha' leave??
He waved a hand off to the side, as he tried to explain what he meant. ?Some sort of gathering later where it's less about everyone showering us with love and affection and gifts and...the need for it all to be perfect, I suppose. It's not perfect, it's never been perfect, and it's never going to be perfect. And I think there's a small part of me clinging to that need for perfection, even though I know we cannot get it. Am I making sense??
?.... kinda.? She scratched around her hairline again to try and ease those frowning muscles. ?I dunno 'bout yer "need" fer perfection, bu' I tol' ya fra th' get-go tha' I dun care how.? Though she looked away after she said that.
?So...sod what everyone expects us to do. Let's do what we want to do.?
She seemed to still have a difficult time following him, but tried anyway, ?... an' get married??
?On our terms. Whenever and wherever we want.?
?Tha's wha' it's supposed ta be.? She laughed and then sighed, ?So lik', wha'... righ' now?? Katarina raised a brow.
Locke scratched his head, ?Well, not sure there's a justice of the peace or whoever bloody signs marriage licenses up and about now, but...we could go check it out, and if not, come back in the morning.?
Her mouth gaped open a little, and when nothing came out, she closed it. ?Righ'. Yeah whenever and wherever we wan'.? Her cheeks flushed, ?Let's go look.?
?Let's.? He pulled the curtain open and stood up, offering a hand to Katarina to stand.
She sported a grin from ear to ear as she took his hand to get out of the booth, ?Shiny.?
Enthusiasm was infectious, and dulled down any of the nerves that screamed any number of contradictory things in his head. He moved towards the door as fast as he could without pulling Katarina's arm out of its socket, and she was lucky to grab her coat before she was dragged out of the door.
Katarina waited till Jolyon left. The inn was busy as it usually was, and the one friendly and familiar face was now gone. But at least Locke was there, and she felt comfortable enough in the booth to discuss the conversation they had just shared ?Tha' was... avoidant.? She didn't clarify what she meant.
?Me? Or him?? A pause, then Locke continued, ?Or both??
She slanted him a sideways glance and finished her Badsider. ?Both.?
?With regards to what?? He sipped from his glass to buy himself a few seconds to think. ?In regards to myself, I mean.?
She studied him carefully, to see how genuine the question was, ?'bout gettin' married.?
?The date is still up in the air, is it not?? A small sigh, ?I am not sure what else I could or should have said.?
?An' how lon', ya thin',? it must have been her recent thoughts in this area, that made her push the subject, ?somethin' kin be up 'n th' air till it dun come back down??
?I don't know. Forgive me for doing this, since I know this is an important topic of discussion, but would it be all right if we saved this for home? I know I am not a target for gossip anymore, and that the usual gossipmongers seem to have left the realm, but I still feel like it's a bad idea to talk of such in public.?
?Yeah, tha's fine.? She did her best to bite back a sigh.
?What of Jolyon, then?? Feeling his skin bristle, he tapped at his hipbones, missing the fact that he couldn't carry knives anymore.
?Umm..? Momentarily distracted she tried to keep her train of thought?, I mean'... 'bout Serena.? She helped herself to Locke's glass of bourbon and took a healthy swig.
?That things are well? Why wouldn't they be??
?Bu' he didn' really say they were well, he jist said... thanks fer askin'.?
?I can't say I know either very well, Serena in particular.? Something came to mind, mouth open, and then he bit it back.
She didn't miss his look, ?Wha'??
?Do I know anyone anymore?? A pause, as the words hung in the air, and then he tried to chase them off with laughter. ?Bleeding melodramatic, is it not? This place is getting to me, mate.?
?No, it's nah. This is wha's gittin' ta ya.? She turned her nanites on so that she could gently poke his forehead. ?An' ya know plenty o' people ta boot.?
There was a moment when he looked like he might argue with her, but the poke and her words soon sank in. ?You're right. And I suppose it is not worth much, but I feel like it is hard to discuss marriage when your job is insecure and I have not yet figured out what precisely I will do next.?
She rose a brow, ?I didn' realize it was based 'n our employment.? She scratched around her hairline and frowned ? 've had it all wron' this whole time.? Nevermind that he had stated earlier waiting till home to further discuss the topic.
Well, he had brought it up. ?Among other things, certainly.? He took another sip of bourbon.
She sent him a flat look, ?Locke, please. I dun buy tha' fra ya. Th' same person who tol' me tha' it only would affirm somethin' ya 'lready know. Two years 'go there was nothin' mentioned bough' jobs.?
Quick tug of the curtain on the booth shut, though careful or talented ears would have easily heard the parts of the conversation leading up to the curtain shutting. He touched the curtain with bare hands and shut eyes, letting a quick cold gust buffet him.
Katarina frowned as she watched him, ?Wha'cha doin'??
?Soundproofing the booth.? A slug of bourbon. ?We don't have to wait until we're home, now.?
?Okay.? Her frown remained, ?So, let's hear it.?
?I don't know if I want a ceremony anymore. Perhaps something ipso facto, when timing does not matter, but...I don't know that there's ever going to be a perfect time for it to work.?
?Ipso facto.? By the way Katarina kept frowning, she didn't understand that statement, ?Kay, so no ceremony, an' no time's righ'. So wha' does tha' leave??
He waved a hand off to the side, as he tried to explain what he meant. ?Some sort of gathering later where it's less about everyone showering us with love and affection and gifts and...the need for it all to be perfect, I suppose. It's not perfect, it's never been perfect, and it's never going to be perfect. And I think there's a small part of me clinging to that need for perfection, even though I know we cannot get it. Am I making sense??
?.... kinda.? She scratched around her hairline again to try and ease those frowning muscles. ?I dunno 'bout yer "need" fer perfection, bu' I tol' ya fra th' get-go tha' I dun care how.? Though she looked away after she said that.
?So...sod what everyone expects us to do. Let's do what we want to do.?
She seemed to still have a difficult time following him, but tried anyway, ?... an' get married??
?On our terms. Whenever and wherever we want.?
?Tha's wha' it's supposed ta be.? She laughed and then sighed, ?So lik', wha'... righ' now?? Katarina raised a brow.
Locke scratched his head, ?Well, not sure there's a justice of the peace or whoever bloody signs marriage licenses up and about now, but...we could go check it out, and if not, come back in the morning.?
Her mouth gaped open a little, and when nothing came out, she closed it. ?Righ'. Yeah whenever and wherever we wan'.? Her cheeks flushed, ?Let's go look.?
?Let's.? He pulled the curtain open and stood up, offering a hand to Katarina to stand.
She sported a grin from ear to ear as she took his hand to get out of the booth, ?Shiny.?
Enthusiasm was infectious, and dulled down any of the nerves that screamed any number of contradictory things in his head. He moved towards the door as fast as he could without pulling Katarina's arm out of its socket, and she was lucky to grab her coat before she was dragged out of the door.