((This immediately follows Ithaca))
Once again, Katarina was making her way towards Locke's apartment without proper wear for the chill that still lingered outside. Her burnt yellow dress lacked the usual sweater-like quality that she was favoring for the weather, revealing her intentions of not leaving the house. In her haste to get this unknown Sarah out of her cousins' house, she didn't think of anything else. And now, she had no desire to return and walked to the only other place she could think of.
During her walk, most of her anger ebbed away. It left raw, hurt and confused feelings along with pain. She didn't like to reach out and seek for help, but withholding all these months was wearing her thin. Silently hoping with any hope that she had left that Locke would be home, she unfolded one arm from across her chest to buzz Locke's apartment, "Locke?" Her voice surprised her as it cracked, and she took a deep breath, tried again. "Locke?"
The speaker crackled on immediately, though it took another moment or two for speech to come out of it, crackly and staticky. "I'm here." There was a pause, as the machinery hummed and whirred. There was a clicking sound, then Locke continued, in what was clearly a hurt tone. "Where were you?"
She closed her eyes and instantly moved to wipe away the moisture from her eyes as she thought about being absent when he was off work despite her word, before pressing the button, "Look, I didn't forget. Johnny came back this afternoon. Please, come down?" Her accent faded as she struggled to get control of her overwhelming emotions.
"...I need to put some clothes on first. Can you wait a minute or two?" He left the speaker still on, though there was little to hear besides the usual noises of the callbox once he had finished speaking.
Where else was she going to go? "Yeah, tha's fine. Kin ya jist lemme in th' lobby, please? I forgo' a bloody jacket."
"Certainly. I will be down shortly." The callbox clicked off, an orange light came on, and the doors to the lobby unlocked, granting her entrance inside.
"Thanks." The words were muttered to herself as she was quick to let herself into the moon-lit lobby. The room was warmer, but she still began to rub her arms as she slowly made her way over to the large tree in the middle of the room. She wiped more moisture out of her eyes as sweet memories bombarded her thoughts. Slowly, she sat down at the base of the tree, pulling down on her leggings for comfort, before folding her knees and placing her face in her hands.
It was no time at all before he was practically sprinting into the lobby, bright grin plastered on his face. He apparently hadn't noticed (or it hadn't gotten quite across to him through the speaker) her emotional status. The sprint faded into a jog, then a slow walk, once he spotted her sitting near the tree, knees up and face hidden. He'd left out most of the usual accoutrements in his appearance: no earrings, no belt, no spike and shine to the hair. He wore a white button-up with a set of light blue, dark blue, and purple stripes, black trousers, and black lace-up bluchers. He had a canvas-colored mackintosh coat tossed over his shoulder. Finally, he stopped moving, standing there and staring dumbly at her. "Katarina?" There was a brief pause, then a cringe as the words he wanted to say escaped him.
She didn't look up as he said her name, but his familiarity threatened to crumble the walls that she had been holding up for so long. "Locke... it was terrible! He showed up with this girl that was saying she was his wife, Sianna fainted and.. and.." her voice cracked again as her body trembled lightly, "I thought he was d-dead."
The dumb look was replaced by one of shock and horror. "I thought-I thought, thought it was aces that he was back! And-and...you thought he was brown bread?" The words were tumbling out, as awkwardly as they ever did from him, as he tried to process everything. Finally, though, he couldn't. "I...I don't understand. I don't..." He took a tentative step forward, looking towards her as if searching for a sign, a signal, a clue, anything to tell him what he should do in that moment.
"Oh, but it is." Perhaps that was where the deep guilt that sprouted her sadness was, in knowing that she was not all in joy at his return. She wiped at her tears with frustration before looking up to him, "He was whole and in one piece. But.. but he brought a woman with him, Locke. He brought a woman home that had the sole purpose of ruining everything. And-and I just can't forget that he was gone for six months. Six months!? Away from his wife, the kids they were having.. his family! I.. I changed everything to be there for Si, because I love her and because she's family. That's what family does.. and he left!
He took one more step, then another. His pace was halting at first, then gradually became smoother, quicker, until he had bridged the distance between them. He didn't address anything she said immediately, but rather crouched in front of her, pulling the coat off of his shoulder and holding it out towards her. "You said...you said you needed a jacket?"
A few more tears fell, and she was clearly trying to keep a firm grip from having any more fall. The green in her eyes appeared to pop against the redness that was beginning to form along the rims of her eyes. She nodded slowly, sighing before she took the jacket. "Thanks." Instead of putting it on, she draped it over her form like it was a blanket, "An' 'm really sorry tha' I didn' come. I wouldn' do tha' 'n purpose." Deep breaths were helping in calming the tears.
He popped out of his crouch, taking a few more steps to the side of Katarina, before he dropped into a seated position. Before he spoke another word, as soon as he was on the ground, he threw an arm around her, pulling her into a tight half-hug. "It is perfectly understandable, given the circumstances. No worries. No worries at all."
She turned into him, bringing up her hands to quickly wipe away the tears again so that the moisture would not fall onto his shirt. Still, she tried to squeeze in as close as she could in that half-embrace, "An' yanno, I wasn' real happy 'bout wha' happened las' nigh'. Bu', bu' now it jist all seems so dumb. All o' it does."
"We can talk about that later," he murmured quietly. "It does not seem a pressing concern at this moment." He sighed, glancing up at the stars on the ceiling, shining just as brightly as they ever did. Somehow, it didn't quite seem to fit with the pair's mood. "Johnny had no explanation for what happened? At all?"
She shook her head slowly, " 'm sure he does, bu' I didn' stick 'round long 'nough. He came, I opened th' door, he introduced me ta tha' girl, Sarah, and she says tha'.. tha' they were married." She continued to shake her head against him, "Jo kept sayin' tha' it wasn' so anymore.. an' then Si came down, an' she fainted... A righ' mess bringin' her back 'round. By tha' time, Jo was real anxious ta see his kids. So then I brough' 'em down.. and then Si was startin' ta ask questions an' tha'.." she crinkled her nose angrily, "tha' bloody woman start talkin' 'gain, so I promp'ly dragged her ou' an' put her 'n a inn nah far fra th' house. She was sayin' somethin' 'bout Johnny promisin' ta take care o' her. An' she's pregnant. Nah tha' far, bu' noticeabe."
He shook his head, and kept shaking it, as if repeating the gesture would make it all go way. "No..." His voice trailed off, then returned as a hoarse whisper. "He didn't...he couldn't have..." He leaned back and let his head bounce against the massive tree trunk. He had to resist the urge to repeat the gesture again and again, to bash the dark thoughts from his head. Not Johnny...not him.
She shook her head quickly, "Nah, I dun thin' he did. She's th' wife o' th' guy he wen ' ou' ta help 'n th' first place, bu' Jo said tha' th' guy - Evan, died."
The air audibly rushed out of his lungs, followed soon after by a sigh. "I...I still don't understand what happened. Why it happened. I just heard the barest details when he left, and then..." He threw up his hands, then let them fall back to the earth. "It-I can't make heads or tails of it."
"I dunno. I dunno." She repeated again as she truly believed her own words. There was no sense that she could make on her cousin's behalf. She sighed again and leaned against him, " 'm sure he's tellin' Si th' all o' it. Bu'.. I dun wan'ta go back, yanno? I moved 'n 'cause Si was all 'lone, an' so was I. How kin I go back wen' I kin't stand ta think 'bout it? I mean, I'll love Jo ta no end, bu' tha' dun mean I ain' got a single nice thin' ta say ta 'im righ' now." She closed her eyes, feeling the majority of her twisted emotions leave the more she talked about it.
Once again, Katarina was making her way towards Locke's apartment without proper wear for the chill that still lingered outside. Her burnt yellow dress lacked the usual sweater-like quality that she was favoring for the weather, revealing her intentions of not leaving the house. In her haste to get this unknown Sarah out of her cousins' house, she didn't think of anything else. And now, she had no desire to return and walked to the only other place she could think of.
During her walk, most of her anger ebbed away. It left raw, hurt and confused feelings along with pain. She didn't like to reach out and seek for help, but withholding all these months was wearing her thin. Silently hoping with any hope that she had left that Locke would be home, she unfolded one arm from across her chest to buzz Locke's apartment, "Locke?" Her voice surprised her as it cracked, and she took a deep breath, tried again. "Locke?"
The speaker crackled on immediately, though it took another moment or two for speech to come out of it, crackly and staticky. "I'm here." There was a pause, as the machinery hummed and whirred. There was a clicking sound, then Locke continued, in what was clearly a hurt tone. "Where were you?"
She closed her eyes and instantly moved to wipe away the moisture from her eyes as she thought about being absent when he was off work despite her word, before pressing the button, "Look, I didn't forget. Johnny came back this afternoon. Please, come down?" Her accent faded as she struggled to get control of her overwhelming emotions.
"...I need to put some clothes on first. Can you wait a minute or two?" He left the speaker still on, though there was little to hear besides the usual noises of the callbox once he had finished speaking.
Where else was she going to go? "Yeah, tha's fine. Kin ya jist lemme in th' lobby, please? I forgo' a bloody jacket."
"Certainly. I will be down shortly." The callbox clicked off, an orange light came on, and the doors to the lobby unlocked, granting her entrance inside.
"Thanks." The words were muttered to herself as she was quick to let herself into the moon-lit lobby. The room was warmer, but she still began to rub her arms as she slowly made her way over to the large tree in the middle of the room. She wiped more moisture out of her eyes as sweet memories bombarded her thoughts. Slowly, she sat down at the base of the tree, pulling down on her leggings for comfort, before folding her knees and placing her face in her hands.
It was no time at all before he was practically sprinting into the lobby, bright grin plastered on his face. He apparently hadn't noticed (or it hadn't gotten quite across to him through the speaker) her emotional status. The sprint faded into a jog, then a slow walk, once he spotted her sitting near the tree, knees up and face hidden. He'd left out most of the usual accoutrements in his appearance: no earrings, no belt, no spike and shine to the hair. He wore a white button-up with a set of light blue, dark blue, and purple stripes, black trousers, and black lace-up bluchers. He had a canvas-colored mackintosh coat tossed over his shoulder. Finally, he stopped moving, standing there and staring dumbly at her. "Katarina?" There was a brief pause, then a cringe as the words he wanted to say escaped him.
She didn't look up as he said her name, but his familiarity threatened to crumble the walls that she had been holding up for so long. "Locke... it was terrible! He showed up with this girl that was saying she was his wife, Sianna fainted and.. and.." her voice cracked again as her body trembled lightly, "I thought he was d-dead."
The dumb look was replaced by one of shock and horror. "I thought-I thought, thought it was aces that he was back! And-and...you thought he was brown bread?" The words were tumbling out, as awkwardly as they ever did from him, as he tried to process everything. Finally, though, he couldn't. "I...I don't understand. I don't..." He took a tentative step forward, looking towards her as if searching for a sign, a signal, a clue, anything to tell him what he should do in that moment.
"Oh, but it is." Perhaps that was where the deep guilt that sprouted her sadness was, in knowing that she was not all in joy at his return. She wiped at her tears with frustration before looking up to him, "He was whole and in one piece. But.. but he brought a woman with him, Locke. He brought a woman home that had the sole purpose of ruining everything. And-and I just can't forget that he was gone for six months. Six months!? Away from his wife, the kids they were having.. his family! I.. I changed everything to be there for Si, because I love her and because she's family. That's what family does.. and he left!
He took one more step, then another. His pace was halting at first, then gradually became smoother, quicker, until he had bridged the distance between them. He didn't address anything she said immediately, but rather crouched in front of her, pulling the coat off of his shoulder and holding it out towards her. "You said...you said you needed a jacket?"
A few more tears fell, and she was clearly trying to keep a firm grip from having any more fall. The green in her eyes appeared to pop against the redness that was beginning to form along the rims of her eyes. She nodded slowly, sighing before she took the jacket. "Thanks." Instead of putting it on, she draped it over her form like it was a blanket, "An' 'm really sorry tha' I didn' come. I wouldn' do tha' 'n purpose." Deep breaths were helping in calming the tears.
He popped out of his crouch, taking a few more steps to the side of Katarina, before he dropped into a seated position. Before he spoke another word, as soon as he was on the ground, he threw an arm around her, pulling her into a tight half-hug. "It is perfectly understandable, given the circumstances. No worries. No worries at all."
She turned into him, bringing up her hands to quickly wipe away the tears again so that the moisture would not fall onto his shirt. Still, she tried to squeeze in as close as she could in that half-embrace, "An' yanno, I wasn' real happy 'bout wha' happened las' nigh'. Bu', bu' now it jist all seems so dumb. All o' it does."
"We can talk about that later," he murmured quietly. "It does not seem a pressing concern at this moment." He sighed, glancing up at the stars on the ceiling, shining just as brightly as they ever did. Somehow, it didn't quite seem to fit with the pair's mood. "Johnny had no explanation for what happened? At all?"
She shook her head slowly, " 'm sure he does, bu' I didn' stick 'round long 'nough. He came, I opened th' door, he introduced me ta tha' girl, Sarah, and she says tha'.. tha' they were married." She continued to shake her head against him, "Jo kept sayin' tha' it wasn' so anymore.. an' then Si came down, an' she fainted... A righ' mess bringin' her back 'round. By tha' time, Jo was real anxious ta see his kids. So then I brough' 'em down.. and then Si was startin' ta ask questions an' tha'.." she crinkled her nose angrily, "tha' bloody woman start talkin' 'gain, so I promp'ly dragged her ou' an' put her 'n a inn nah far fra th' house. She was sayin' somethin' 'bout Johnny promisin' ta take care o' her. An' she's pregnant. Nah tha' far, bu' noticeabe."
He shook his head, and kept shaking it, as if repeating the gesture would make it all go way. "No..." His voice trailed off, then returned as a hoarse whisper. "He didn't...he couldn't have..." He leaned back and let his head bounce against the massive tree trunk. He had to resist the urge to repeat the gesture again and again, to bash the dark thoughts from his head. Not Johnny...not him.
She shook her head quickly, "Nah, I dun thin' he did. She's th' wife o' th' guy he wen ' ou' ta help 'n th' first place, bu' Jo said tha' th' guy - Evan, died."
The air audibly rushed out of his lungs, followed soon after by a sigh. "I...I still don't understand what happened. Why it happened. I just heard the barest details when he left, and then..." He threw up his hands, then let them fall back to the earth. "It-I can't make heads or tails of it."
"I dunno. I dunno." She repeated again as she truly believed her own words. There was no sense that she could make on her cousin's behalf. She sighed again and leaned against him, " 'm sure he's tellin' Si th' all o' it. Bu'.. I dun wan'ta go back, yanno? I moved 'n 'cause Si was all 'lone, an' so was I. How kin I go back wen' I kin't stand ta think 'bout it? I mean, I'll love Jo ta no end, bu' tha' dun mean I ain' got a single nice thin' ta say ta 'im righ' now." She closed her eyes, feeling the majority of her twisted emotions leave the more she talked about it.