Before you know what kindness really is
you must lose things,
feel the future dissolve in a moment
like salt in a weakened broth.
What you held in your hand,
what you counted and carefully saved,
all this must go so you know
how desolate the landscape can be
between the regions of kindness.
How you ride and ride
thinking the bus will never stop,
the passengers eating maize and chicken
will stare out the window forever.
Before you learn the tender gravity of kindness,
you must travel where the Indian in a white poncho
lies dead by the side of the road.
You must see how this could be you,
how he too was someone
who journeyed through the night with plans
and the simple breath that kept him alive.
Before you know kindness as the deepest thing inside,
you must know sorrow as the other deepest thing.
You must wake up with sorrow.
You must speak to it till your voice
catches the thread of all sorrows
and you see the size of the cloth.
Then it is only kindness that makes sense anymore,
only kindness that ties your shoes
and sends you out into the day to mail letters and purchase bread,
only kindness that raises its head
from the crowd of the world to say
it is I you have been looking for,
and then goes with you every where
like a shadow or a friend.
~Naomi Shihab Nye
A letter & an unbruised white lily sat quietly at the center of the coffee table. The flower for death, for elegance. The scent was sweet, on the cusp of ripe.
Gideon,
It seems mundane to say that I have found my place with you. A place within myself in which I can see you. In which you & the world juxtapose. In which we have transformed ourselves to language, transcended to a verb: a single motion. Perhaps it does.
Thank you for being.
And thank you for the secret that rests beneath my shirt. It is not the precious metal that incites my struggle with gratitude. It is the message, engraved. When I press it to my skin, it leaves itself upon me.
Illy
you must lose things,
feel the future dissolve in a moment
like salt in a weakened broth.
What you held in your hand,
what you counted and carefully saved,
all this must go so you know
how desolate the landscape can be
between the regions of kindness.
How you ride and ride
thinking the bus will never stop,
the passengers eating maize and chicken
will stare out the window forever.
Before you learn the tender gravity of kindness,
you must travel where the Indian in a white poncho
lies dead by the side of the road.
You must see how this could be you,
how he too was someone
who journeyed through the night with plans
and the simple breath that kept him alive.
Before you know kindness as the deepest thing inside,
you must know sorrow as the other deepest thing.
You must wake up with sorrow.
You must speak to it till your voice
catches the thread of all sorrows
and you see the size of the cloth.
Then it is only kindness that makes sense anymore,
only kindness that ties your shoes
and sends you out into the day to mail letters and purchase bread,
only kindness that raises its head
from the crowd of the world to say
it is I you have been looking for,
and then goes with you every where
like a shadow or a friend.
~Naomi Shihab Nye
A letter & an unbruised white lily sat quietly at the center of the coffee table. The flower for death, for elegance. The scent was sweet, on the cusp of ripe.
Gideon,
It seems mundane to say that I have found my place with you. A place within myself in which I can see you. In which you & the world juxtapose. In which we have transformed ourselves to language, transcended to a verb: a single motion. Perhaps it does.
Thank you for being.
And thank you for the secret that rests beneath my shirt. It is not the precious metal that incites my struggle with gratitude. It is the message, engraved. When I press it to my skin, it leaves itself upon me.
Illy