With every breath a translucent white cloud burst from Eva's lips in the darkness. The steady rhythm of her steps, of her breath, was meditative as she ran. When she first set out, her thoughts rushed, coming one on top of the other. Now, they were slow; her mind and body syncing to the pace set by her feet pounding on the road.
She'd been thinking about Mason. About how he made her feel. About kissing him. About what that meant. She said she'd let Tucker go come the New Year, but the New Year had come and gone. How could she set a deadline for her heart?
Eva's head had been swimming. She had to get out of the city. So she went for a run. She didn't think about where she was going. She just ran.
Tucker's farm appeared out of the darkness as if it had been conjured. As if some power greater than she had guided her like a shuttle on a Ouija board to just where she wanted to go.
Eva stopped at the gate. Hands on her hips, chest heaving, she stared at the house. The windows were shuttered. And there was something... no. Eva squinted, trying to make it out in the darkness. Carefully, she lifted herself over the fence and started down the snowy path towards the cottage.
The small Japanese Maple tree that Eva had given to Tucker for Christmas had been planted beside the lamp post. Tucker was gone. And he'd left her tree behind.
With her head canted to one side, Eva stared at the sapling. It looked so small in the cold. Eva pulled off one of her gloves, and reached out to touch the tree, a crisp leaf sliding between her fingers. Whenever she felt this small, Mason opened his arms to her.
When things with Mason had first begun to move forward, every time he reached for her she thought Why couldn't Tucker do this? Why couldn't Tucker hold me like this? Eva had blamed herself for everything that happened with him. If only she'd been a better person, if only she'd been more deserving. Looking at the tree now, she wanted to be angry. She wanted to turn all the hurt, all the self loathing into rage against Tucker. But she couldn't.
Eva pulled her glove back on and started jogging down the path returning towards the road. She just wanted to get back to the inn now. If she ran fast enough, she could still catch Mason for a late night drink.
She'd been thinking about Mason. About how he made her feel. About kissing him. About what that meant. She said she'd let Tucker go come the New Year, but the New Year had come and gone. How could she set a deadline for her heart?
Eva's head had been swimming. She had to get out of the city. So she went for a run. She didn't think about where she was going. She just ran.
Tucker's farm appeared out of the darkness as if it had been conjured. As if some power greater than she had guided her like a shuttle on a Ouija board to just where she wanted to go.
Eva stopped at the gate. Hands on her hips, chest heaving, she stared at the house. The windows were shuttered. And there was something... no. Eva squinted, trying to make it out in the darkness. Carefully, she lifted herself over the fence and started down the snowy path towards the cottage.
The small Japanese Maple tree that Eva had given to Tucker for Christmas had been planted beside the lamp post. Tucker was gone. And he'd left her tree behind.
With her head canted to one side, Eva stared at the sapling. It looked so small in the cold. Eva pulled off one of her gloves, and reached out to touch the tree, a crisp leaf sliding between her fingers. Whenever she felt this small, Mason opened his arms to her.
When things with Mason had first begun to move forward, every time he reached for her she thought Why couldn't Tucker do this? Why couldn't Tucker hold me like this? Eva had blamed herself for everything that happened with him. If only she'd been a better person, if only she'd been more deserving. Looking at the tree now, she wanted to be angry. She wanted to turn all the hurt, all the self loathing into rage against Tucker. But she couldn't.
Eva pulled her glove back on and started jogging down the path returning towards the road. She just wanted to get back to the inn now. If she ran fast enough, she could still catch Mason for a late night drink.