Eva's fingers slid back and forth over the white gold locket that Tucker had given her as a gift. Her sensitive fingers circled the small oval, gliding over the tiny ridges of the design. It was beautiful.
Since she'd received the locket on Christmas morning, Eva had alternated between feeling deeply moved by the gift and completely unworthy. It wasn't the first time she had felt that Tucker was a better person than she. She'd spent the days before Christmas begging Ghost, her ex, for a loan. She was not the altruist that Tucker painted her as after the Marketplace explosion. She didn't know what she was, but it wasn't that.
With a gentle pop, Eva opened the locket and looked at the empty inside. There was room enough for two pictures there, one on either side. Eva sighed. This was the reason she felt unworthy of the gift. When she looked at the empty locket, she wanted to put a picture of her father in there. Not Perceval. Carrying a picture around her neck was a gesture of deep love to Eva, and it was too soon for her to have those feelings for Tucker. Her brow furrowed. Was Tucker in love with her? The idea perplexed her more than concerned her. After all, she cared for him very much, and she hoped for a future with him. But did he expect her to put his picture in there? Already?
Eva shut the locket with a quiet click. She'd find a picture of her father and size it to fit the locket. If Tucker had intended for her to carry his picture with her, he would have put his picture in there already. And it was her father that Eva wanted close to her heart.
For the first time in six years, Eva hadn't been home on the farm for the holidays. It wouldn't be the same with her father gone, and it was better to spend the holidays alone then have to be at the table while her brothers fumbled through grace and made a mess of carving the turkey.
Eva's eyes filled with tears and she raised her head to look out her window at the falling snow. It caught her by surprise how much her father's death could hurt, even months later, as if the funeral had just been the day before. She could remember the physical pain of his loss. She could feel it all over again. He'd been sick for so many years, and with shame, she could remember a time when she thought his death would be a relief. She had thought that it wouldn't hurt so much because she'd had so long to say goodbye. But when he finally passed, he hadn't been himself in a long time, and she had never actually said goodbye.
Now it was the New Year. The year after her father had died. She had everything she needed to move forward. She shook her head as if she could physically knock the sadness from her shoulders. Then she stilled, and she smiled. The sadness would always be with her. A part of her. But this was a new year, and she didn't have to carry it by herself. She wasn't alone anymore.
The locket didn't have any subtle meaning. It didn't require speculation or analysis. It was a gift from someone who cared for her. Eva smiled again and got to her feet. She wanted to see Tucker.
Since she'd received the locket on Christmas morning, Eva had alternated between feeling deeply moved by the gift and completely unworthy. It wasn't the first time she had felt that Tucker was a better person than she. She'd spent the days before Christmas begging Ghost, her ex, for a loan. She was not the altruist that Tucker painted her as after the Marketplace explosion. She didn't know what she was, but it wasn't that.
With a gentle pop, Eva opened the locket and looked at the empty inside. There was room enough for two pictures there, one on either side. Eva sighed. This was the reason she felt unworthy of the gift. When she looked at the empty locket, she wanted to put a picture of her father in there. Not Perceval. Carrying a picture around her neck was a gesture of deep love to Eva, and it was too soon for her to have those feelings for Tucker. Her brow furrowed. Was Tucker in love with her? The idea perplexed her more than concerned her. After all, she cared for him very much, and she hoped for a future with him. But did he expect her to put his picture in there? Already?
Eva shut the locket with a quiet click. She'd find a picture of her father and size it to fit the locket. If Tucker had intended for her to carry his picture with her, he would have put his picture in there already. And it was her father that Eva wanted close to her heart.
For the first time in six years, Eva hadn't been home on the farm for the holidays. It wouldn't be the same with her father gone, and it was better to spend the holidays alone then have to be at the table while her brothers fumbled through grace and made a mess of carving the turkey.
Eva's eyes filled with tears and she raised her head to look out her window at the falling snow. It caught her by surprise how much her father's death could hurt, even months later, as if the funeral had just been the day before. She could remember the physical pain of his loss. She could feel it all over again. He'd been sick for so many years, and with shame, she could remember a time when she thought his death would be a relief. She had thought that it wouldn't hurt so much because she'd had so long to say goodbye. But when he finally passed, he hadn't been himself in a long time, and she had never actually said goodbye.
Now it was the New Year. The year after her father had died. She had everything she needed to move forward. She shook her head as if she could physically knock the sadness from her shoulders. Then she stilled, and she smiled. The sadness would always be with her. A part of her. But this was a new year, and she didn't have to carry it by herself. She wasn't alone anymore.
The locket didn't have any subtle meaning. It didn't require speculation or analysis. It was a gift from someone who cared for her. Eva smiled again and got to her feet. She wanted to see Tucker.