Eva couldn't sleep. She felt sick to her stomach. She wasn't even sure why she'd gotten into bed. The room was silent, a blank canvas on which the cacophony of voices in her head could loop and layer and smash her to pieces.
I'm a drug addict. Okay? A junkie.
Words she wished she could take back, words she wished had never been said, the shouting of her own voice still loud in her ears.
When are you going to stop living your past, and look toward your future?
Her addiction wasn't her past. It was her now and it was her always.
I wish you would stay.
That wouldn't be good for either of us.
Rejection again, again, again.
How much do you have at your fingertips to toss away?
Nothing. Nothing at all. Just sweaty sheets.
You should have told me. You should have told me.
Never in control of her own emotions. Always letting them control her.
So no, I'm not escaping my problems here. I'm just trying to live my life.
Voices edged with anger, hacking away. Why couldn't she stop? Why wasn't she prepared to defend herself? Why couldn't she explain?
I don't want your money, and I don't want your help. Ever. Do you understand me?
No one was left. She lost everyone.
I haven't seen you... in the Marketplace...
I've been busy, I guess. I don't have much reason to come up there anymore.
She felt sick. She was going to be sick.
I'm a drug addict. Okay? A junkie.
Out of bed. Breathing out the open window. Nowhere to go.
A junkie.
A junkie.
A junkie.
I'm a drug addict. Okay? A junkie.
Words she wished she could take back, words she wished had never been said, the shouting of her own voice still loud in her ears.
When are you going to stop living your past, and look toward your future?
Her addiction wasn't her past. It was her now and it was her always.
I wish you would stay.
That wouldn't be good for either of us.
Rejection again, again, again.
How much do you have at your fingertips to toss away?
Nothing. Nothing at all. Just sweaty sheets.
You should have told me. You should have told me.
Never in control of her own emotions. Always letting them control her.
So no, I'm not escaping my problems here. I'm just trying to live my life.
Voices edged with anger, hacking away. Why couldn't she stop? Why wasn't she prepared to defend herself? Why couldn't she explain?
I don't want your money, and I don't want your help. Ever. Do you understand me?
No one was left. She lost everyone.
I haven't seen you... in the Marketplace...
I've been busy, I guess. I don't have much reason to come up there anymore.
She felt sick. She was going to be sick.
I'm a drug addict. Okay? A junkie.
Out of bed. Breathing out the open window. Nowhere to go.
A junkie.
A junkie.
A junkie.