She set with one of the memory orbs prior to the challenge. There was a bit of a smile on her face as she thought about the conversation she just had.

Wow, such a surprise tonight.

I know I've been upsets with myself for being intimate with the incubi but I am tired of feeling out of place. I thought maybe...

I didn't think. I let her rule how I felt. I shouldn't do that. I'd like to have a shred of self respect left. I'm not blessed like my twin is. He's got Cerise and he's happy. It bleeds through our bond and he loves to twit me about it. Doesn't realize how much being alone hurts.

Still it was a surprise tonight, to talk with El. He wants to court me! I hope I don't disappoint.

The excitement of the thought comes across the orb clearly. She hides the globe within her things.

The next entry showed her cheeks streaked with tears. It looked like she was sitting on the roof of the institute.

I'm a fool. I believed those soft words and what do I have to show for it?

It's just a good thing I didn't embarrass myself pinning for him. I hate feeling lied to and used.

I should go to Gharnholme... Stay with my aunt and uncle for a little while. At least there I feel like I'm worth something to someone.

The image changes and shows her crying in the embrace of a red haired male.

I feel so miserable, Damien...

The recording cuts out then.