::i was braiding Portia's hair thinking to myself about last night and all the things that had happened, my heart could skip a beat just thinking about it as i talked with the girls:: "sit still Portia or your braid is gonna be lopsided!" ::i cautioned her and she fidgeted::
"why do you go there." ::Penelope asked suddenly as she mended one of Master's pants::
"cuz i like to meet people?" ::i said repeating her same tone. it was a ridiculous question, like i didn't have the right to be there. like it was a fort the neighborhood kids had and that stupid sign hung on the door 'no girls allowed'::
"every time you go there you cause trouble." ::Cookie said as she brushed her hair. i had taught her some of the basics of taking care of herself and she had taken them seriously, they all had::
"that is the point." ::i admitted and they looked at me. even Portia tried to look at me. i pushed her head back forward and kept braiding, i swear::
"why do you do that?" ::Penelope had stopped mending and was staring like i was a freak::
"because i can?" ::yeah it was flippant but would they understand or even care? they would just judge me like everyone else always did::
"you are gonna get beat." ::Portia warned me and i smiled::
"that is the point." ::i said and Portia reacted along with the others, turning her head to look at me and i lost my grip on her braid. i watched all my work coming undone. they wanted to know why, everyone wanted to know why. i was a weird strange girl and what people didn't understand they feared. like i was dangerous to anyone here::
"we heard what happened, you were almost kidnapped!" ::Cookie said and i shrugged, that had been a close thing and had scared me, Master knew it too, sitting there smiling at me the whole time, daring me to push::
"i met someone who treated me like a person, ever since i got here people treat me like i got five heads. i am sick of it. i just wanted a root beer." ::i thought about the blow up and how quickly things got out of hand. Zach had really tried to get me out of there, promising his undying protection but he didn't even know me, didn't care that every single person who tried ended up dead. typical male too, he wouldn't listen to a thing i said. men are stupid::
"you challenged Master again." ::Penelope accused me, i knew she didn't like that part of me::
"always." ::i said and the girls looked at me, they didn't understand, but at least they would hopefully not judge me:: "i was the first girl Brutin ever kept and trained fully, he calls us 'Brutin Girls' and gives us different brands" ::i raised up my dress and showed them the stylized cursive B on my left thigh. the girls moved in close to get a good look at it and Cookie actually reached out and touched it lightly::
"back in the beginning, when he was just getting started there were no other slavers or slave around, everyone Master took as a slave he either killed or sold off, i was the only one he kept around but he was real busy and ignored me lots of times, so i would go to the bar and tick people off until Master had to drop what he was doing and come rescue me." ::i felt a little embarrassed as i spoke, i was a little ashamed that i was trying to get his attention this way but it was so fun::
"but things get out of hand!" ::Lyria said quickly and i nodded::
"the first time i started trouble it was just like last night, someone didn't like me being a slave and tried to free me. before they could whisk me out of the bar four of Master's enforcers showed up, and you know Master never hires nice people for that. they killed two men and then Master showed up and enslaved the three girls. just like that five people gone, over me." ::i said remembering my horror as i stood there watching::
"Master had been there to whole time watching, he was sitting at a table and was smiling at me, like i had challenged him and lost. he paid lots of attention to me over the next two days and when he went back to work i headed straight back to the bar." ::i admitted and the girls thought about that:: "everyone had heard and no one tried to free me so i ended up making friends, every time Master dismissed me i went there, sometimes when i knew no one else would be there, so i could act like a normal person." ::that last sounded stupid, i wasn't a normal person, not anymore::
::the girls were watching me now, expecting the punchline of my joke:: "after enough time went by and people forgot someone tried again, the man fell in love with me and was gonna save me from Master, but Master was there like always and he beat me until the man finally reacted. One of Master's men, a really cruel man named Demon killed him and then licked his blood off the dagger while looking at me." ::i shivered at that, i knew Demon wanted me but he wouldn't ask Master for me and i had teased him constantly, daring him to ask but he didn't for years::
::the girls were looking at me now in some understanding:: "the third time two people grabbed me and ran, they had friends and they were gonna hide me just to spite Master, i didn't even know them. that night Master showed up and surrounded them. he killed everyone that time." ::i could still hear the screams in the firelight::
"the fourth time he let me go." ::this brought everyone's head up but i wouldn't look at them cuz i was ashamed:: "he let me go, killed my rescuer without me knowing it and i was suddenly lost, alone and had no money. i held out for three days and then went back begging him to take me back." ::i stopped here cuz Master had given me what i wanted and i couldn't handle it, i was a loser::
"that was horrible." ::Penelope said and i brightened up a little, i knew they wouldn't judge me::
"after that Master always sent someone to come collect me when i went too far, he didn't come himself if he could help it. i talked bad about him, i threatened to burn the bar down, i caused to men to fight to the death in the middle of the floor, i even started a war." ::i said and the girls just blinked at me:: "no matter what i did Master just showed up and fixed everything as if it didn't matter one wit to him."::i was braiding Portia's hair thinking to myself about last night and all the things that had happened, my heart could skip a beat just thinking about it as i talked with the girls:: "sit still Portia or your braid is gonna be lopsided!" ::i cautioned her and she fidgeted::
"why do you go there." ::Penelope asked suddenly as she mended one of Master's pants::
"cuz i like to meet people?" ::i said repeating her same tone. it was a ridiculous question, like i didn't have the right to be there. like it was a fort the neighborhood kids had and that stupid sign hung on the door 'no girls allowed'::
"every time you go there you cause trouble." ::Cookie said as she brushed her hair. i had taught her some of the basics of taking care of herself and she had taken them seriously, they all had::
"that is the point." ::i admitted and they looked at me. even Portia tried to look at me. i pushed her head back forward and kept braiding, i swear::
"why do you do that?" ::Penelope had stopped mending and was staring like i was a freak::
"because i can?" ::yeah it was flippantly but would they understand or even care? they would just judge me like everyone else always did::
"you are gonna get beat." ::Portia warned me and i smiled::
"that is the point." ::i said and Portia reacted along with the others, turning her head to look at me and i lost my grip on her braid. i watched all my work coming undone. they wanted to know why, everyone wanted to know why. i was a weird strange girl and what people didn't understand they feared. like i was dangerous to anyone here::
"we heard what happened, you were almost kidnapped!" ::Cookie said and i shrugged, that had been a close thing and had scared me, Master knew it too, sitting there smiling at me the whole time, daring me to push::
"i met someone who treated me like a person, ever since i got here people treat me like i got five heads. i am sick of it. i just wanted a root beer." ::i thought about the blow up and how quickly things got out of hand. Zach had really tried to get me out of there, promising his undying protection but he didn't even know me, didn't care that every single person who tried ended up dead. typical male too, he wouldn't listen to a thing i said. men are stupid::
"you challenged Master again." ::Penelope accused me, i knew she didn't like that part of me::
"always." ::i said and the girls looked at me, they didn't understand, but at these they would hopefully understand:: "i was the first girl Brutin ever kept and trained fully, he calls us 'Brutin Girls' and gives us different brands" ::i raised up my dress and showed them the stylized cursive B on my left thigh. the girls moved in close to get a good look at it and Cookie actually reached out and touched it lightly::
"back in the beginning, when he was just getting started there were no other slavers or slave around, everyone Master took as a slave he either killed or sold off, i was the only one he kept around but he was real busy and ignored me lots of times, so i would go to the bar and tick people off until Master had to drop what he was doing and come rescue me." ::i felt a little embarrassed as i spoke, i was a little ashamed that i was trying to get his attention this way but it was so fun::
"but things get out of hand!" ::Lyria said quickly and i nodded::
"the first time i started trouble it was just like last night, someone didn't like me being a slave and tried to free me. before they could whisk me out of the bar four of Master's enforcers showed up, and you know Master never hires nice people for that. they killed two men and then Master showed up and enslaved the three girls. just like that five people gone, over me." ::i said remembering my horror as i stood there watching::
"Master had been there to whole time watching, he was sitting at a table and was smiling at me, like i had challenged him and lost. he paid lots of attention to me over the next two days and when he went back to work i headed straight back to the bar." ::i admitted and the girls thought about that:: "everyone had heard and no one tried to free me so i ended up making friends, every time Master dismissed me i went there, sometimes when i knew no one else would be there, so i could act like a normal person." ::that last sounded stupid, i wasn't a normal person, not anymore::
::the girls were watching me now, expecting the punchline of my joke:: "after enough time went by and people forgot someone tried again, the man fell in love with me and was gonna save me from Master, but Master was there like always and he beat me until the man finally reacted. One of Master's men, a really cruel man named Demon killed him and then licked his blood off the dagger while looking at me." ::i shivered at that, i knew Demon wanted me but he wouldn't ask Master for me and i had teased him constantly, daring him to ask but he didn't for years::
::the girls were looking at me now in some understanding:: "the third time two people grabbed me and ran, they had friends and they were gonna hide me just to spite Master, i didn't even know them. that night Master showed up and surrounded them. he killed everyone that time." ::i could still hear the screams in the firelight::
"the fourth time he let me go." ::this brought everyone's head up but i wouldn't look at them cuz i was ashamed:: "he let me go, killed my rescuer without me knowing it and i was suddenly lost, alone and had no money. i held out for three days and then went back begging him to take me back." ::i stopped here cuz Master had given me what i wanted and i couldn't handle it, i was a loser::
"that was horrible." ::Penelope said and i brightened up a little, i knew they wouldn't judge me::
"after that Master always sent someone to come collect me when i went too far, he didn't come himself if he could help it. i talked bad about him, i threatened to burn the bar down, i caused to men to fight to the death in the middle of the floor, i even started a war." ::i said and the girls just blinked at me:: "no matter what i did Master just showed up and fixed everything as if it didn't matter one wit to him."
"why do you go there." ::Penelope asked suddenly as she mended one of Master's pants::
"cuz i like to meet people?" ::i said repeating her same tone. it was a ridiculous question, like i didn't have the right to be there. like it was a fort the neighborhood kids had and that stupid sign hung on the door 'no girls allowed'::
"every time you go there you cause trouble." ::Cookie said as she brushed her hair. i had taught her some of the basics of taking care of herself and she had taken them seriously, they all had::
"that is the point." ::i admitted and they looked at me. even Portia tried to look at me. i pushed her head back forward and kept braiding, i swear::
"why do you do that?" ::Penelope had stopped mending and was staring like i was a freak::
"because i can?" ::yeah it was flippant but would they understand or even care? they would just judge me like everyone else always did::
"you are gonna get beat." ::Portia warned me and i smiled::
"that is the point." ::i said and Portia reacted along with the others, turning her head to look at me and i lost my grip on her braid. i watched all my work coming undone. they wanted to know why, everyone wanted to know why. i was a weird strange girl and what people didn't understand they feared. like i was dangerous to anyone here::
"we heard what happened, you were almost kidnapped!" ::Cookie said and i shrugged, that had been a close thing and had scared me, Master knew it too, sitting there smiling at me the whole time, daring me to push::
"i met someone who treated me like a person, ever since i got here people treat me like i got five heads. i am sick of it. i just wanted a root beer." ::i thought about the blow up and how quickly things got out of hand. Zach had really tried to get me out of there, promising his undying protection but he didn't even know me, didn't care that every single person who tried ended up dead. typical male too, he wouldn't listen to a thing i said. men are stupid::
"you challenged Master again." ::Penelope accused me, i knew she didn't like that part of me::
"always." ::i said and the girls looked at me, they didn't understand, but at least they would hopefully not judge me:: "i was the first girl Brutin ever kept and trained fully, he calls us 'Brutin Girls' and gives us different brands" ::i raised up my dress and showed them the stylized cursive B on my left thigh. the girls moved in close to get a good look at it and Cookie actually reached out and touched it lightly::
"back in the beginning, when he was just getting started there were no other slavers or slave around, everyone Master took as a slave he either killed or sold off, i was the only one he kept around but he was real busy and ignored me lots of times, so i would go to the bar and tick people off until Master had to drop what he was doing and come rescue me." ::i felt a little embarrassed as i spoke, i was a little ashamed that i was trying to get his attention this way but it was so fun::
"but things get out of hand!" ::Lyria said quickly and i nodded::
"the first time i started trouble it was just like last night, someone didn't like me being a slave and tried to free me. before they could whisk me out of the bar four of Master's enforcers showed up, and you know Master never hires nice people for that. they killed two men and then Master showed up and enslaved the three girls. just like that five people gone, over me." ::i said remembering my horror as i stood there watching::
"Master had been there to whole time watching, he was sitting at a table and was smiling at me, like i had challenged him and lost. he paid lots of attention to me over the next two days and when he went back to work i headed straight back to the bar." ::i admitted and the girls thought about that:: "everyone had heard and no one tried to free me so i ended up making friends, every time Master dismissed me i went there, sometimes when i knew no one else would be there, so i could act like a normal person." ::that last sounded stupid, i wasn't a normal person, not anymore::
::the girls were watching me now, expecting the punchline of my joke:: "after enough time went by and people forgot someone tried again, the man fell in love with me and was gonna save me from Master, but Master was there like always and he beat me until the man finally reacted. One of Master's men, a really cruel man named Demon killed him and then licked his blood off the dagger while looking at me." ::i shivered at that, i knew Demon wanted me but he wouldn't ask Master for me and i had teased him constantly, daring him to ask but he didn't for years::
::the girls were looking at me now in some understanding:: "the third time two people grabbed me and ran, they had friends and they were gonna hide me just to spite Master, i didn't even know them. that night Master showed up and surrounded them. he killed everyone that time." ::i could still hear the screams in the firelight::
"the fourth time he let me go." ::this brought everyone's head up but i wouldn't look at them cuz i was ashamed:: "he let me go, killed my rescuer without me knowing it and i was suddenly lost, alone and had no money. i held out for three days and then went back begging him to take me back." ::i stopped here cuz Master had given me what i wanted and i couldn't handle it, i was a loser::
"that was horrible." ::Penelope said and i brightened up a little, i knew they wouldn't judge me::
"after that Master always sent someone to come collect me when i went too far, he didn't come himself if he could help it. i talked bad about him, i threatened to burn the bar down, i caused to men to fight to the death in the middle of the floor, i even started a war." ::i said and the girls just blinked at me:: "no matter what i did Master just showed up and fixed everything as if it didn't matter one wit to him."::i was braiding Portia's hair thinking to myself about last night and all the things that had happened, my heart could skip a beat just thinking about it as i talked with the girls:: "sit still Portia or your braid is gonna be lopsided!" ::i cautioned her and she fidgeted::
"why do you go there." ::Penelope asked suddenly as she mended one of Master's pants::
"cuz i like to meet people?" ::i said repeating her same tone. it was a ridiculous question, like i didn't have the right to be there. like it was a fort the neighborhood kids had and that stupid sign hung on the door 'no girls allowed'::
"every time you go there you cause trouble." ::Cookie said as she brushed her hair. i had taught her some of the basics of taking care of herself and she had taken them seriously, they all had::
"that is the point." ::i admitted and they looked at me. even Portia tried to look at me. i pushed her head back forward and kept braiding, i swear::
"why do you do that?" ::Penelope had stopped mending and was staring like i was a freak::
"because i can?" ::yeah it was flippantly but would they understand or even care? they would just judge me like everyone else always did::
"you are gonna get beat." ::Portia warned me and i smiled::
"that is the point." ::i said and Portia reacted along with the others, turning her head to look at me and i lost my grip on her braid. i watched all my work coming undone. they wanted to know why, everyone wanted to know why. i was a weird strange girl and what people didn't understand they feared. like i was dangerous to anyone here::
"we heard what happened, you were almost kidnapped!" ::Cookie said and i shrugged, that had been a close thing and had scared me, Master knew it too, sitting there smiling at me the whole time, daring me to push::
"i met someone who treated me like a person, ever since i got here people treat me like i got five heads. i am sick of it. i just wanted a root beer." ::i thought about the blow up and how quickly things got out of hand. Zach had really tried to get me out of there, promising his undying protection but he didn't even know me, didn't care that every single person who tried ended up dead. typical male too, he wouldn't listen to a thing i said. men are stupid::
"you challenged Master again." ::Penelope accused me, i knew she didn't like that part of me::
"always." ::i said and the girls looked at me, they didn't understand, but at these they would hopefully understand:: "i was the first girl Brutin ever kept and trained fully, he calls us 'Brutin Girls' and gives us different brands" ::i raised up my dress and showed them the stylized cursive B on my left thigh. the girls moved in close to get a good look at it and Cookie actually reached out and touched it lightly::
"back in the beginning, when he was just getting started there were no other slavers or slave around, everyone Master took as a slave he either killed or sold off, i was the only one he kept around but he was real busy and ignored me lots of times, so i would go to the bar and tick people off until Master had to drop what he was doing and come rescue me." ::i felt a little embarrassed as i spoke, i was a little ashamed that i was trying to get his attention this way but it was so fun::
"but things get out of hand!" ::Lyria said quickly and i nodded::
"the first time i started trouble it was just like last night, someone didn't like me being a slave and tried to free me. before they could whisk me out of the bar four of Master's enforcers showed up, and you know Master never hires nice people for that. they killed two men and then Master showed up and enslaved the three girls. just like that five people gone, over me." ::i said remembering my horror as i stood there watching::
"Master had been there to whole time watching, he was sitting at a table and was smiling at me, like i had challenged him and lost. he paid lots of attention to me over the next two days and when he went back to work i headed straight back to the bar." ::i admitted and the girls thought about that:: "everyone had heard and no one tried to free me so i ended up making friends, every time Master dismissed me i went there, sometimes when i knew no one else would be there, so i could act like a normal person." ::that last sounded stupid, i wasn't a normal person, not anymore::
::the girls were watching me now, expecting the punchline of my joke:: "after enough time went by and people forgot someone tried again, the man fell in love with me and was gonna save me from Master, but Master was there like always and he beat me until the man finally reacted. One of Master's men, a really cruel man named Demon killed him and then licked his blood off the dagger while looking at me." ::i shivered at that, i knew Demon wanted me but he wouldn't ask Master for me and i had teased him constantly, daring him to ask but he didn't for years::
::the girls were looking at me now in some understanding:: "the third time two people grabbed me and ran, they had friends and they were gonna hide me just to spite Master, i didn't even know them. that night Master showed up and surrounded them. he killed everyone that time." ::i could still hear the screams in the firelight::
"the fourth time he let me go." ::this brought everyone's head up but i wouldn't look at them cuz i was ashamed:: "he let me go, killed my rescuer without me knowing it and i was suddenly lost, alone and had no money. i held out for three days and then went back begging him to take me back." ::i stopped here cuz Master had given me what i wanted and i couldn't handle it, i was a loser::
"that was horrible." ::Penelope said and i brightened up a little, i knew they wouldn't judge me::
"after that Master always sent someone to come collect me when i went too far, he didn't come himself if he could help it. i talked bad about him, i threatened to burn the bar down, i caused to men to fight to the death in the middle of the floor, i even started a war." ::i said and the girls just blinked at me:: "no matter what i did Master just showed up and fixed everything as if it didn't matter one wit to him."