September 15th, 2012
From the moment the plane had taken off in Georgia, Jackie knew that she was in over her head. The entire plane ride she was stiff, uncomfortable, and was gripping the armrests of her seat so hard she thought she might crack a bone. The stewardess was doing her best to be helpful, but Jackie just wanted to sit quietly and stare straight ahead waiting for the death trap to land.
Things didn't seem to get much better once she caught a cab outside of the airport. Jackie couldn't have looked, sounded, or acted more like an American in another country if she had tried. The people were polite and she returned the favor, but the odd looks at her heavy Southern drawl were getting real old, real quick. Although she wasn't entirely looking forward to coming face to face with Ella, Ben's soon-to-be ex-wife, she knew it meant she was that much closer to getting home to RhyDin and it was a welcomed thought.
The cab rolled to a halt outside of a two story brick house in the middle of the suburbs, a nice big lawn stretching out in front of it. Jackie wasn't so sure why she was so surprised or impressed considering Ben was a homicide detective and all. The cab driver was given the word to wait and she was slipping out of the backseat with Ben's letters tucked in her back pocket.
As she approached the porch and moved up the steps she found herself smoothing the fabric of her camo t-shirt, thankfully not cut to hell today, and running her fingers through her messy blonde waves. What was she trying to accomplish? Was she trying to impress Ella? Who was she? With a shake of her head and a deep bracing breath Jackie rolled the nerves from her shoulders. A hand was brought forward and landed four solid knocks on the door of the home sweet home before her.
The home was a good representation of the falling-apart of this family -- the lawn was a little overgrown, so was the landscaping. Just a little. It's the beginning of the school year -- maybe time's just gotten away, the stress of all that? It almost seems like no one is home (though there are lights on inside the house), but after a long pause, maybe half a minute, somebody's pulling the door open, just a crack -- enough to see a sliver of somebody's face, the blue of an eye. It opens wider after a couple of seconds, and it must be Ella.
She had been pretty once, before stress had gotten to her (cheating husband, missing child -- and the drugs certainly hadn't helped her any), and really, she still was -- but in a tired way, a drained way, used up. Her face is a little gaunt, her hair's not done, hangs limply, and it's a dark auburn, but there's a lot of grey obvious in her roots. The blue sweater she's wearing is a little oversized, and it doesn't help the impression that she's maybe a little too thin for her frame. But even considering all of that, she's friendly enough -- she's sober, now. "Can I help you?" Apprehension in her voice, a little, but polite.
When the door opened Jackie's brown eyes swept the woman from head to toe out of habit, but nothing in her expression was sour. Actually, she did her best to put on her friendliest smile. One she would use when greeting new faces at the bar that looked a little out of place and needed an extra sweet nudge to feel comfortable. "Hello, ma'am. My name is Jackie Lee Daniels." What was she supposed to say after that? Jackie had been been practicing this speech in her head for days, but actually being in front of Ella now made her mind go blank. "I know yer..." Husband? No. Ex-husband? Their divorce technically wasn't solidified. "Ben Sullivan. Yer Ella, right?" The smiled faded out, it was too hard to hold and the confidence was even too much to fake for Jackie.
Ella's reaction isn't going to do any wonders for Jackie's confidence either. She's still smiling, faintly, when Jackie introduces herself; her brows are lifted a little, encouraging her to go on -- but when she mentions knowing Ben, Ella's expression is instantly flat, and her eyes narrow a touch; she folds her arms, body language closed. "Yes, I'm Ella. What do you mean, you 'know' him? Why are you here? I haven't heard from him in over a month, if you're another one of his girlfriends," and there's obvious bitterness in the word, like it was a bad taste in the mouth to say -- like she really didn't mean 'girlfriend' at all, was implying something much more informal (and judging her for that). "So if you're looking for him, I have no idea where he is. Try some slummy bar or a whorehouse."
It was the sort of body language that would put Jackie on edge and instantly make her bow up like a bulldog ready to pounce on a normal day, but she remembered Ben's text message from earlier. And please, whatever you do, don't punch her. Try not to. Yeah, yeah. There was another little roll of her shoulders before Jackie carried on. "I mean, he's currently livin' in the same city I am." Same house technically, but how deep did she really want to go into how well she knew Ben? Not far until she got the letter in Ella's hand. "He asked me tah come here 'cause it was the only way we could guarantee you'd be gettin' this letter from him." A hand reached for her back pocket to tug one of the two envelopes free and extend it towards the woman. "I saw 'im jus' this mornin' when I got on the plane tah come here. Jus'... read the letter from 'im. Please?"
Ella doesn't like the answer, and she really doesn't like that Jackie is trying to give her a letter. She's eyeing the envelope with open suspicion. "Why couldn't he just come himself?" But the script that spells out her name on the envelope is in her soon-to-be-ex's familiar handwriting, and without even needing to hear an answer, she takes the envelope, and though she doesn't really want to take her eyes off of Jackie, she does, for long enough to take the folded piece of paper out of the envelope and scan the letter.
Ella's initial question wasn't going to get a verbal reply anyway. It only made Jackie extend the envelope out that much further to her. It was all in there. It wasn't for Jackie to explain and she was so flustered right now she wasn't sure she would be able to say the right thing without shoving her boot in her mouth. Once the letter is out of her hand Jackie is letting her arm sink back down to her side. She wants to fold her arms over her chest, but it's too threatening. Hands in the pockets are too bored. Instead she's silent, still, and waiting.
At first she's looking skeptical, then scoffing quietly at something -- then her expression softens -- and as suddenly as her eyes swim with tears, they're gone, and she only looks angry. It takes her another moment to finish reading, and when she does and her eyes are on Jackie again, she still looks angry. "So. He's seeing you. You know he has a tendency to take up whore girlfriends on the side? --oh, maybe you're one of them. Young and pretty--" Again, that's the word she's saying, but it isn't all she means. "--that's his type." She's folding her arms again, keeping the envelope and the refolded letter between her fingers.
Jackie is studying Ella's expression carefully, watching as she runs through a whole gambit of emotions. She just wants one to lock in on so she knows how to respond. Oh, tears are... good? Right? Jackie could handle tears. And there they went, left with anger. Anger being turned on Jackie. Her brows rose and she gave a dumb automatic nod to the first statement. No use in hiding it now.
As Ella continues Jackie's brows rise, lips parting somewhat in surprise. Whore girlfriends. That just came out of this woman's mouth. "I assure you, ma'am, I'm not a whore girlfriend. Jus' the usual sorta girlfriend." Jackie's eyes narrowed into an unsure squint. No, that didn't come out right. Hands were lifted, trying to stop the conversation long enough for her to wrap her thoughts around everything. "I'm aware of Ben's condition. Like it said in that there letter, it's why he couldn't be here himself tah talk tah you on it. But I wanted tah help. It wasn't fair tah you tah not know where he was. So, here I am." A hand was shoved through her hair, forcing stray blonde away from her face. "I'm sorry Ben couldn't be here, Ella. But he wanted yah to know he didn't jus' up an' leave. He wouldn't do that tah you or tah Adam."
Ella's laughing, but it's the quick sort, unamused -- some disbelief in it, really. "Oh, he wouldn't? And you're 'aware of Ben's condition' -- that's cute. Hasn't he told you? He's already left us plenty of times. Adam, he-- It's Ben's fault, all his fault that Adam was missing for two years. He saw his stepfather, and just that, just seeing an old man -- he had some kind of psychotic break, and took Adam away to live with some woman in the woods -- and forgot. He forgot his own son." The wound is old by now -- it's been almost two years since Adam has been home, but it's still raw for Ella. She's still broken inside from it. "And instead of looking for him? Or instead of being home with me, while I'm remembering Adam? His condition is letting him check out and avoid it all. He's out screwing whores." Bitter, dripping with it.
"Is he somewhere with padded walls, finally? Is that why he can't leave? They finally locked him--" There's a voice in the background then -- a young boy, that much is obvious even though it's muffled, further in the house. Like that, Ella's forgotten all about Jackie, and she's ducking inside, closing the door most of the way to respond -- and then shutting it behind her. She does return after a few moments, though, and she's got a stack of papers with her when she opens the door, thick enough to be something substantial, but not so much that they can't be folded. There's a couple of three ring binders as well; she's shoving the papers and the binders into Jackie's arms. "You can tell him that he'd better sign those papers, because with all of that? He's never going to be able to be alone with my son again anyway. Maybe you should read it too," and there's amusement there, but it's terribly dark, "though if he's told you all about his condition, I'm sure it'll all be old news to you," derisive, incredibly.
Laughter was the last thing Jackie wanted to hear. She wasn't trying to be funny. Maybe she should have just shoved the letter in Ella's had and pretended to be mute. Things probably would be going better about now. "I ain't got it all on lock, but I'm workin' on it. I'm tryin'. An'... yeah, he told me 'bout Adam." The edges of her lips turning downward. "Not alla it, but he told me 'bout Adam. I'm sorry, but... he ain't psychotic. He ain't crazy. But that ain't here or there. It ain't mah place an' I already said too much on it."
Ella was going on with the crazy card and it was enough to set Jackie's teeth on edge. Thankfully it was the voice that pulled Ella and her back from a path neither of them probably wanted to go down. Jackie is lifting her gaze, trying to look past Ella for the source of the voice, but just as quickly a door is being closed in her face. It gave her just enough time to take a few short calming inhales and exhales before Ella made her return.
Blinking Jackie gathered the binders and papers into her arms, hugging them to her chest so nothing was lost. "Alright, Ella. He'll sign 'em an' I'll be sendin' 'em for him from my place in Georgia." Her eyes were still trying to go over Ella's head, wanting to catch sight or sound of who she assumed was Adam. It was Ella's final statement that made Jackie look at her again. "I ain't sayin' I know more 'bout it then you do, Ella. I ain't sayin' I'm even close tah understandin' what it was like fer you. But I'm tryin'. Ain't nothin' I'm gonna say though is goin' to cause yah to care so I ain't gonna waste mah breath on it." Another flicker of attention. "Is Adam home, Ella?"
Jackie's right -- there isn't a single thing she can say that will make Ella care about why Jackie is here, what she's trying to tell her. But isn't that understandable, in a way? It may not be sympathetic, but one thing Ella has always been good at is self-preservation -- no matter who else she needs to injure to survive. "No, he's--" But she's lying, and right away there's a voice behind her, cutting her off, yes I am -- Mom, is it about Dad? -- but it's further back in the house still, and Ella's blocking the small space left by the partly opened door.
"He's home," tersely, "and he doesn't need to speak with you." This time when she retreats into her home and shuts the door, Jackie would be able to hear not one but two locks being operated, one after the other.
Jackie opened her mouth, wanting to explain the letter from Ben to Adam, but when the door snapped shut her urge to speak went along with it. Just the little she knew about Ella it seemed very likely the letter would be torn to pieces before it made its way into Adam's hand. Jackie lingered on the porch, attempting to replay the mess of a conversation back in her head but it was too much.
With an extra heft to the binders and papers in hand she was turning to move off the porch and back to the cab. Was that it? Was she really going to go back to RhyDin with Ben's letter to Adam still in hand and say it couldn't be delivered? No, it wasn't an option. Jackie just needed time to clear her head of all that just happened then she could return with a game plan. "Fairmont Hotel, please." It was impossible to keep the defeat out of her tone. The parting gifts from Ella were still being clutched tightly to her chest. There was one last fleeting look given to the home sweet home. After that encounter it was so much easier now to spot the flaws than when she first arrived. Now Jackie could see it clearly for what it was. A broken home.
From the moment the plane had taken off in Georgia, Jackie knew that she was in over her head. The entire plane ride she was stiff, uncomfortable, and was gripping the armrests of her seat so hard she thought she might crack a bone. The stewardess was doing her best to be helpful, but Jackie just wanted to sit quietly and stare straight ahead waiting for the death trap to land.
Things didn't seem to get much better once she caught a cab outside of the airport. Jackie couldn't have looked, sounded, or acted more like an American in another country if she had tried. The people were polite and she returned the favor, but the odd looks at her heavy Southern drawl were getting real old, real quick. Although she wasn't entirely looking forward to coming face to face with Ella, Ben's soon-to-be ex-wife, she knew it meant she was that much closer to getting home to RhyDin and it was a welcomed thought.
The cab rolled to a halt outside of a two story brick house in the middle of the suburbs, a nice big lawn stretching out in front of it. Jackie wasn't so sure why she was so surprised or impressed considering Ben was a homicide detective and all. The cab driver was given the word to wait and she was slipping out of the backseat with Ben's letters tucked in her back pocket.
As she approached the porch and moved up the steps she found herself smoothing the fabric of her camo t-shirt, thankfully not cut to hell today, and running her fingers through her messy blonde waves. What was she trying to accomplish? Was she trying to impress Ella? Who was she? With a shake of her head and a deep bracing breath Jackie rolled the nerves from her shoulders. A hand was brought forward and landed four solid knocks on the door of the home sweet home before her.
The home was a good representation of the falling-apart of this family -- the lawn was a little overgrown, so was the landscaping. Just a little. It's the beginning of the school year -- maybe time's just gotten away, the stress of all that? It almost seems like no one is home (though there are lights on inside the house), but after a long pause, maybe half a minute, somebody's pulling the door open, just a crack -- enough to see a sliver of somebody's face, the blue of an eye. It opens wider after a couple of seconds, and it must be Ella.
She had been pretty once, before stress had gotten to her (cheating husband, missing child -- and the drugs certainly hadn't helped her any), and really, she still was -- but in a tired way, a drained way, used up. Her face is a little gaunt, her hair's not done, hangs limply, and it's a dark auburn, but there's a lot of grey obvious in her roots. The blue sweater she's wearing is a little oversized, and it doesn't help the impression that she's maybe a little too thin for her frame. But even considering all of that, she's friendly enough -- she's sober, now. "Can I help you?" Apprehension in her voice, a little, but polite.
When the door opened Jackie's brown eyes swept the woman from head to toe out of habit, but nothing in her expression was sour. Actually, she did her best to put on her friendliest smile. One she would use when greeting new faces at the bar that looked a little out of place and needed an extra sweet nudge to feel comfortable. "Hello, ma'am. My name is Jackie Lee Daniels." What was she supposed to say after that? Jackie had been been practicing this speech in her head for days, but actually being in front of Ella now made her mind go blank. "I know yer..." Husband? No. Ex-husband? Their divorce technically wasn't solidified. "Ben Sullivan. Yer Ella, right?" The smiled faded out, it was too hard to hold and the confidence was even too much to fake for Jackie.
Ella's reaction isn't going to do any wonders for Jackie's confidence either. She's still smiling, faintly, when Jackie introduces herself; her brows are lifted a little, encouraging her to go on -- but when she mentions knowing Ben, Ella's expression is instantly flat, and her eyes narrow a touch; she folds her arms, body language closed. "Yes, I'm Ella. What do you mean, you 'know' him? Why are you here? I haven't heard from him in over a month, if you're another one of his girlfriends," and there's obvious bitterness in the word, like it was a bad taste in the mouth to say -- like she really didn't mean 'girlfriend' at all, was implying something much more informal (and judging her for that). "So if you're looking for him, I have no idea where he is. Try some slummy bar or a whorehouse."
It was the sort of body language that would put Jackie on edge and instantly make her bow up like a bulldog ready to pounce on a normal day, but she remembered Ben's text message from earlier. And please, whatever you do, don't punch her. Try not to. Yeah, yeah. There was another little roll of her shoulders before Jackie carried on. "I mean, he's currently livin' in the same city I am." Same house technically, but how deep did she really want to go into how well she knew Ben? Not far until she got the letter in Ella's hand. "He asked me tah come here 'cause it was the only way we could guarantee you'd be gettin' this letter from him." A hand reached for her back pocket to tug one of the two envelopes free and extend it towards the woman. "I saw 'im jus' this mornin' when I got on the plane tah come here. Jus'... read the letter from 'im. Please?"
Ella doesn't like the answer, and she really doesn't like that Jackie is trying to give her a letter. She's eyeing the envelope with open suspicion. "Why couldn't he just come himself?" But the script that spells out her name on the envelope is in her soon-to-be-ex's familiar handwriting, and without even needing to hear an answer, she takes the envelope, and though she doesn't really want to take her eyes off of Jackie, she does, for long enough to take the folded piece of paper out of the envelope and scan the letter.
Ella's initial question wasn't going to get a verbal reply anyway. It only made Jackie extend the envelope out that much further to her. It was all in there. It wasn't for Jackie to explain and she was so flustered right now she wasn't sure she would be able to say the right thing without shoving her boot in her mouth. Once the letter is out of her hand Jackie is letting her arm sink back down to her side. She wants to fold her arms over her chest, but it's too threatening. Hands in the pockets are too bored. Instead she's silent, still, and waiting.
At first she's looking skeptical, then scoffing quietly at something -- then her expression softens -- and as suddenly as her eyes swim with tears, they're gone, and she only looks angry. It takes her another moment to finish reading, and when she does and her eyes are on Jackie again, she still looks angry. "So. He's seeing you. You know he has a tendency to take up whore girlfriends on the side? --oh, maybe you're one of them. Young and pretty--" Again, that's the word she's saying, but it isn't all she means. "--that's his type." She's folding her arms again, keeping the envelope and the refolded letter between her fingers.
Jackie is studying Ella's expression carefully, watching as she runs through a whole gambit of emotions. She just wants one to lock in on so she knows how to respond. Oh, tears are... good? Right? Jackie could handle tears. And there they went, left with anger. Anger being turned on Jackie. Her brows rose and she gave a dumb automatic nod to the first statement. No use in hiding it now.
As Ella continues Jackie's brows rise, lips parting somewhat in surprise. Whore girlfriends. That just came out of this woman's mouth. "I assure you, ma'am, I'm not a whore girlfriend. Jus' the usual sorta girlfriend." Jackie's eyes narrowed into an unsure squint. No, that didn't come out right. Hands were lifted, trying to stop the conversation long enough for her to wrap her thoughts around everything. "I'm aware of Ben's condition. Like it said in that there letter, it's why he couldn't be here himself tah talk tah you on it. But I wanted tah help. It wasn't fair tah you tah not know where he was. So, here I am." A hand was shoved through her hair, forcing stray blonde away from her face. "I'm sorry Ben couldn't be here, Ella. But he wanted yah to know he didn't jus' up an' leave. He wouldn't do that tah you or tah Adam."
Ella's laughing, but it's the quick sort, unamused -- some disbelief in it, really. "Oh, he wouldn't? And you're 'aware of Ben's condition' -- that's cute. Hasn't he told you? He's already left us plenty of times. Adam, he-- It's Ben's fault, all his fault that Adam was missing for two years. He saw his stepfather, and just that, just seeing an old man -- he had some kind of psychotic break, and took Adam away to live with some woman in the woods -- and forgot. He forgot his own son." The wound is old by now -- it's been almost two years since Adam has been home, but it's still raw for Ella. She's still broken inside from it. "And instead of looking for him? Or instead of being home with me, while I'm remembering Adam? His condition is letting him check out and avoid it all. He's out screwing whores." Bitter, dripping with it.
"Is he somewhere with padded walls, finally? Is that why he can't leave? They finally locked him--" There's a voice in the background then -- a young boy, that much is obvious even though it's muffled, further in the house. Like that, Ella's forgotten all about Jackie, and she's ducking inside, closing the door most of the way to respond -- and then shutting it behind her. She does return after a few moments, though, and she's got a stack of papers with her when she opens the door, thick enough to be something substantial, but not so much that they can't be folded. There's a couple of three ring binders as well; she's shoving the papers and the binders into Jackie's arms. "You can tell him that he'd better sign those papers, because with all of that? He's never going to be able to be alone with my son again anyway. Maybe you should read it too," and there's amusement there, but it's terribly dark, "though if he's told you all about his condition, I'm sure it'll all be old news to you," derisive, incredibly.
Laughter was the last thing Jackie wanted to hear. She wasn't trying to be funny. Maybe she should have just shoved the letter in Ella's had and pretended to be mute. Things probably would be going better about now. "I ain't got it all on lock, but I'm workin' on it. I'm tryin'. An'... yeah, he told me 'bout Adam." The edges of her lips turning downward. "Not alla it, but he told me 'bout Adam. I'm sorry, but... he ain't psychotic. He ain't crazy. But that ain't here or there. It ain't mah place an' I already said too much on it."
Ella was going on with the crazy card and it was enough to set Jackie's teeth on edge. Thankfully it was the voice that pulled Ella and her back from a path neither of them probably wanted to go down. Jackie is lifting her gaze, trying to look past Ella for the source of the voice, but just as quickly a door is being closed in her face. It gave her just enough time to take a few short calming inhales and exhales before Ella made her return.
Blinking Jackie gathered the binders and papers into her arms, hugging them to her chest so nothing was lost. "Alright, Ella. He'll sign 'em an' I'll be sendin' 'em for him from my place in Georgia." Her eyes were still trying to go over Ella's head, wanting to catch sight or sound of who she assumed was Adam. It was Ella's final statement that made Jackie look at her again. "I ain't sayin' I know more 'bout it then you do, Ella. I ain't sayin' I'm even close tah understandin' what it was like fer you. But I'm tryin'. Ain't nothin' I'm gonna say though is goin' to cause yah to care so I ain't gonna waste mah breath on it." Another flicker of attention. "Is Adam home, Ella?"
Jackie's right -- there isn't a single thing she can say that will make Ella care about why Jackie is here, what she's trying to tell her. But isn't that understandable, in a way? It may not be sympathetic, but one thing Ella has always been good at is self-preservation -- no matter who else she needs to injure to survive. "No, he's--" But she's lying, and right away there's a voice behind her, cutting her off, yes I am -- Mom, is it about Dad? -- but it's further back in the house still, and Ella's blocking the small space left by the partly opened door.
"He's home," tersely, "and he doesn't need to speak with you." This time when she retreats into her home and shuts the door, Jackie would be able to hear not one but two locks being operated, one after the other.
Jackie opened her mouth, wanting to explain the letter from Ben to Adam, but when the door snapped shut her urge to speak went along with it. Just the little she knew about Ella it seemed very likely the letter would be torn to pieces before it made its way into Adam's hand. Jackie lingered on the porch, attempting to replay the mess of a conversation back in her head but it was too much.
With an extra heft to the binders and papers in hand she was turning to move off the porch and back to the cab. Was that it? Was she really going to go back to RhyDin with Ben's letter to Adam still in hand and say it couldn't be delivered? No, it wasn't an option. Jackie just needed time to clear her head of all that just happened then she could return with a game plan. "Fairmont Hotel, please." It was impossible to keep the defeat out of her tone. The parting gifts from Ella were still being clutched tightly to her chest. There was one last fleeting look given to the home sweet home. After that encounter it was so much easier now to spot the flaws than when she first arrived. Now Jackie could see it clearly for what it was. A broken home.