Topic: An unfortunate error

Ewan Corinsson

Date: 2009-03-10 18:32 EST
Storm put another log into the fire, watching it slowly become consumed with flames before sitting back down on the couch again. After putting the children to bed, she had paced around the house until her anger left to be replaced with emptiness. If she had not expressed her opinions in the first place, then the tension would only exist within her. She smirked as that option was something she was beginning to refer to far too often.

The wounds were not lethal, and he had bartered twice over with Jordith about the healing of them. So it was, that his left shoulder was bound, his right hand bound, and the signs of a bruising along shins and ribs to be discovered only in the touching and the slight hitch of his walk. His countenance, however, was dark. He opened the door with silence, much expecting his wife to be asleep, but a tell tale glow from the sitting room revealed otherwise. He stood there at the entry of that room and just looked at her, afraid of what his first words would be and so did not allow them to pass from his lips.

She glanced over to him as she heard him open the door, a frown starting to form as she heard the hitch is the rhythm of his footsteps. Usually after his walks, his mood was at least calmer, if not better, and to just feel the darkness in his expression raised her concern, "Ewan?"

He walked closer, but kept distance between them. His breath he measured slow breaths by thought not instinct. "Storm, did you move my glass after I left?" It was the heart of the matter, and he might as well get to it.

She felt like shrinking far into the corner of the couch, and hated it, "Yes, I put it in the sink so that someone else did not have to clean it up."

He licked his bottom lip to keep from spitting out the venomous words that danced on the edge of his tongue. The edge, however, was still in his tone. "It would be best that you did not do such things. I thought you understood I communicate often through signs and signals, but perhaps I did not make that clear enough." It was a thunder in his belly aching to set free lightning, and it filled the air, even he could feel he was not as calm as he should be, but at least the cage was not rattling.

"I understand that very well, but how I am I to guess which action is and is not a signal? Ewan, what happened?" The tension in the air was unmistakable, and the unusual nature of his expression brought a sinking feeling to her middle.

"I was unexpected, instead of expected. The watch of the inn said my glass was moved from the post, and they trusted the mover to know my whereabouts." He spoke like at a tribunal, facts only and then went to the hallway to hang up his cloak and take off his boots.

"I fear I am short yet another shirt as this one is done in." He was still angry but fighting the anger as much as anything else. When he returned it was evident the shirt arms were in disarray, one cut completely away to reveal the binding to his upper arm. The leather vest showed evidence of abuse, but no cuts. "If I insist not to hand you something, there is good reason. Shall I tell you all my signals and signs, would that make you trust me more? Or are you determined to stay within your own sensibilities?"

Her face paled almost instantly at his news, the sinking feeling now filled with guilt and for a few moments, it overran all of her senses. She closed her eyes as he left and wanted to keep them closed, but she forced them to open again when she heard him return. Her eyes followed the bandages, and her face was full of horror, "By the Goddess, Ewan, I did not know." She stood, trying to inspect his injuries further, "I did not know, you know I would have not done such a thing if I knew. I thought that perhaps you were just being stubborn, or..." she trailed off her next accusation of being spiteful was just what she had done. She had done exactly what he had asked her not because she had anticipated that he would be spiteful just as she had been.

His brows rose as she trailed off. He could tell she did not want to admit to the real reason of what she had done. "It is done, and now you know. At least that knowing did not come at the cost of my life. We shall thank your Goddess for that small favor." His smile was tight, but then dropped into a more sober conclusion. He was still angry -- he still hurt, but he was not going to let it win him over, because most of all, he knew she had honestly not known. "Storm, our disagreements are just that. Disagreements. I would never do anything to make them worse. We have enough to overcome as it is without adding spiteful actions to the mix."

The mentioning of her careless mistake possibly taking his life blurred her vision with tears and she bowed her head, "I am so sorry. This is my fault." She sniffled, knowing that there was nothing but herself to blame, "I was just upset, and my spiteful actions did this to you."

"Why, Storm?" It was that most of all. "We come from different lands, and so our people have different ways of doing things, does that mean we must punish each other for the customs of our people?"

"No, it does not." She could not bring herself to look up at him, "I was not trying to punish you in any way. I share only my deepest thoughts with you, but I have crossed a line with this. I'm sorry."

Ewan Corinsson

Date: 2009-03-10 18:33 EST
He sat on the ground, not hiding a wince. There was no need to hide with her. A slow sigh and he lay flat on the floor, his well arm moving to fold under his head. "Let us not speak of it again. We will disagree in the future, Storm, of that I have no doubt. We may have strong disagreements in fact, particularly if you think there is an injustice you cannot prevent." He was feeling calmer. No matter if he was angry with her, her presence seemed to have a steadying effect, particularly when they faced a difficulty together. "Let us not take those disagreements away from the words and into actions. If you doubt or question why, ask me. And if I place a glass a certain way, please leave it. They think, as my wife, you know my intentions, and you do, just not the signals of those intentions. It was part my fault as well for believing that you would take my actions on faith without the reasons behind them."

"How can you sit there and take any part of blame for this?" Her mind could not step further away from anything other than his injuries at her careless expense. "How can you sit there and talk to me at all after what I have done to you?" She realized that she wanted him to yell at her and be angry. The overwhelming guilt only grew knowing that he was not.

He looked surprised. In fact, it may have been the most surprised she had ever seen him. Sitting up with care, his head tilted as he studied her, just trying to fathom the reason. "Because you are my wife, and I love you, and I trust that you love me, even when we make mistakes. Would it do any good to brood in silence? I would certainly not feel better for it. I am angry, Storm. I am angry, and I will not lie to you and say I am not. I am angry that you felt you needed to get back at me because of an argument. I am angry that we argued at all. I am angry that I was attacked by three of my own men until they realized it was me. It is good fortune and that alone that made the realization before anyone lost a life or a limb. You made a mistake." He said the last with clear tones and strong conviction. "You know not to do it again. Let us not let my rage rule this moment and let us not encourage it. I would rather be able to come to you and find that peace, then believe I cannot trust to find myself here again."

She couldn't handle the description of what had happened to him. He let his love overrule the dark rage that she knew he had, and she didn't behave in the same fashion. Guilt and shame helped in staggering her first step away, "I know I have, just... I will be back." Tears coated her cheeks and strained her voice as she headed for the kitchen to find a moment to lift the overwhelming weight over her shoulders and to find anything that could ease the pain she had caused.

He watched her go, but did not rise to follow; respectful of her need to have a moment's peace. Aches in his ribs and shins from where blows had made it past his guard or he had been forced to use his body to prevent great harm started to throb. He lay back down upon the floor and put his good arm across his eyes. There was still the anger inside him, pushing up to be set free and almost gagging him as he forced it to remain inside.

Changing its course, he set the heat of his thoughts into actions. He would change the signals, something less able to be altered or misconstrued by a random act. Like flickering images of one of those arcane picture shows, he puzzled out the new patterns that might work to his needs.

Storm leaned heavily against a counter to make sure that she had enough control to keep from sobbing. The guilt and pain was so deep that she couldn't remember which cupboard held the few healing potions she had. Her weeping remained mostly silent, except for the inevitable sniffling. At last finding the small pouch with her things, she filled a glass of water for him before returning to the sitting room.

With both hands full, she resorted to using her sleeve to mildly clear her vision before she knelt next to him and offered the glass. Afraid that her voice would only crack for the moment, she simply held up the pouch to show that she wanted to help.

He heard her return and drew his arm from covering his eyes. The guilt painted her features sallow and contorted them from the image he held in his mind of bright grey eyes and a wide, secretive smile. He sat up. "I will mend, Storm. The pain will do me good to remember I am not invincible." One hand moved to caress her cheek, then cupped her jaw. "If on the morrow I am unable to move easily, then I will accept the medicines. I still have a good arm to hold you tonight."

She swallowed as more tears fell down her cheeks. So she closed her eyes and shook her head gently with the limitation of his hand. It took a few moments to make certain she could speak before she opened her mouth, "How can I possibly ever even begin to think of forgiving myself, if you will not let me do this?" She opened her eyes then.

It was yet another conflict. The way he handled his wounds and the way she did. Still, he considered at this juncture, a minor point of contention. "This time, only, then, Storm. One cannot make better choices if one does not suffer the consequences, and that goes as much for my errors in battles as anything, but I grant this is not the time for such philosophies. It does me no harm to abide by your wishes, so as you will." His hand dropped to his lap, his legs not quite crosswise before him.

She wanted to point out that she was very much so suffering the consequences of her actions. Yet he seemed so originally set against her help that it deflated her hope of feeling better. There was going to be nothing to soothe her own pains.

She flicked away her tears, even though more fell, "I have some numbweed. Show me where to put it."

"Hmm," he contemplated the best place to start and thought the ribs the most likely subject. "Would you help me with my vest and shirt?" A mild nod to the bandage on his upper arm. "I could manage, but the less I move that arm the better, I think we both agree. My ribs along the right side might benefit best from the numbweed."

"Yes." She sniffled some more as she set the pouch down and went to work on his vest and shirt. Her usual motivation behind this action was far and absent from her mind. She was mindful of the bandages on his hand and arm, carefully removing the clothing so that he moved as little as possible. She urged him to lie back down as she reach for her pack and relocated to sit near the injured ribs.

Her movements were without much thought as she carefully began to put the thick liquid over his ribs. Her mind full of pain and shock went empty and numb. Each gentle movement over his middle was another movement in coming back from her more hysterical thoughts. It didn't stop the tears, but the numbing sensation was far better than the overwhelming pain. Surely it would come back to haunt her at a later time.

She made her fingertips colder, in hopes of easing the numbweed to spread and have a more lasting effect. "Where else?" She broke the silence before she was almost finished.

"That is the tenderest place and best suited. Thank you, beloved. It will serve." He lay there and looked quite puzzled. "I am afraid to rise lest I will undo your work. Think I shall have to lie here all night?" He smiled to her. "Wounds are not new to me, Storm. This will pass. I will heal. Come, lay beside me and just be with me. I just need you near. The rage is nearly gone again."