Topic: Bad news on the doorstep; I couldn't take one more step..

Dakota Steele

Date: 2007-06-20 01:37 EST
"......the hell do you mean she died....?"

"I am so sorry, Dakota...."

The Choctaw had just been informed by his beloved wife Charlotte that his first wife, Rosie, had passed away.

Cancer had defeated her, taking her away from this place.

The look in Dakota's eyes was nearly impossible to read. This was a man who lived on the edge emotionally. He made it no secret that he wore his feelings on his sleeve. But upon receiving this news, his expression was strangely devoid of any type of emotion. He just sort of sat there in the kitchen of their home, attempting to absorb it in. It seemed like minutes, but only a few seconds passed by before he spoke up quietly.

".....least me n' her did make peace 'fore she passed on..."

And with those words, Dakota excused himself from his beautiful wife's presence. She knew better than to follow him. When he was this quiet, he needed to be alone.

Stepping out onto their front porch, he settled himself down on the steps..letting his head hang silently for a moment or two. Cascading black locks pretty much distorted his face, keeping partially concealed whatever it was he was going through at that moment.

A hand reached upwards to brush the hair from his face as he stared out towards the acres upon acres of wide open fields which he and Charlotte owned. Reaching into his pocket, he pulled out a single cigarette. He rarely smoked these days, which was unbelievable, considering the human chimney that he once was. When he did smoke these days, he was either pissed or he was highly saddened.

He loved Charlotte, and he loved their children. He wouldn't trade his life now for anything in this realm.

But he knew he did Rosie wrong...

Those mornings when she would always be downstairs making breakfast for him began to flash through his mind. She was a good woman.

She loved him, and when he got sick, he wasn't man enough to come home to her and let her take care of him.

No, he left...

Granted, leaving is what united him with Charlotte, and for that, he was forever thankful. But his conscience still bothered him because of the way he allowed it to end with Rosie.

And now, she's gone...

What was wrong with him?

Why would he let the passing of an ex wife legitimately get to him like this?

Sitting there, taking a few slow drags from his smoke, he then let his mind go back to the brawl in the alley with Brian, and how he practically smashed her face in with an inadvertent elbow.

Dakota already carried enough guilt with him to start his own religion, but tonight, it was just eating him alive.

Calmly putting out his cigarette, he slumped over and buried his face into his folded up arms which rested on his lap as the tears began to fall upon the steps. He tried his best to be silent, not daring to let Charlotte hear him. He didn't want her to get the wrong idea.

Charlotte Ravenlock

Date: 2007-06-20 14:22 EST
Charlotte sank down onto a chair at the kitchen table as Dakota walked silently away. She couldn't even begin to understand what he was going through, but the guilt was something she dealt with every so often.

A long, tired sigh rushed past her lips as Charlotte leaned forward on her elbows which were propped up on the table top. Blonde hair fell around her face, the ends just brushing the polished oak finish. This news had come as quite a shock to the family and, truth be told, Charlotte had harbored this from Dakota for 2 days before she had figured out how to tell him. His initial reaction had been expected, but getting up and walking out of the room without a word? It had Charlotte slightly worried.

She tried to imagine this from his perspective; trying to think of what it would feel like if Brian had died for some reason. It was a terrifying thought, and while Charlotte wasn't sure why that would bother her as much as she thinks it would, she sure wouldn't ever want to experience it first hand.

Her thoughts drifted lazily to old memories...

Meeting Rosie and loving her personality. Charlotte had loved spending time with her; she was always a bright and cheerful person. She thought of how happy Rosie was when she and Dakota informed Charlotte and Brian that they were wed. Charlotte remembered happiness when she thought of Rosie.

But then.. there was the area in which her guilt ran wild. When Dakota had left Rosie and Charlotte had found him asleep with her niece. Granted, she was told that nothing happened and believed that with all her heart, but she'd kept that a secret from Rosie. Her intentions had been good; having wanted Dakota to be the one to tell Rosie that news after convincing him to go back to the woman who loved him so dearly...but the plan blew up in her face. Rosie blamed Charlotte for everything; had even tried to attack her at one point.

Charlotte held none of this against Rosie, but Charlotte couldn't help but wonder if she'd broken her promise to Dakota about not saying anything and had gone to tell Rosie what happened, things might've been different, right?

She started to cry. All of that, however, wasn't the reason she was crying. Charlotte was scared.

She gave a start as a small, cool hand touched her arm gently. Blinking furiously to stop crying, Charlotte lifted her head to find her oldest daughter, Elena.

"Mama, don't cry." The five year olds voice held so much compassion and understanding for such a little girl.

At that, Charlotte broke down again and reached for Elena, pulling her into her lap. The young girl sat poised and refined, head canted slightly to the side as she regarded her mother. "What is it, baby?" Charlotte managed through her tears.

"Why are you afraid? Mama's aren't supposed to be afraid." The childs ability to read people was simply astounding.

Charlotte couldn't speak just then and waited several minutes (in which Elena waited most patiently) before clearing her throat. "Someone that Mama loved very dearly passed away." She placed a kiss atop those sweet, golden locks. "Do you know what that means, Elena?"

"Yes." She replied simply.

Charlotte wouldn't ask how, for she'd never told Elena. Perhaps Brian or Jen had discussed this with her. "I was sad because I'm going to miss her." Tears continued to drip down her cheeks and splash onto her shirt.

Elena was quiet for a moment, eyes closed. When they reopened she said, "Papa's sad, too."

"Is he crying?"

The young girl nodded sadly as well. "But why are you afraid, Mama?"

Charlotte smiled through her tears and gave Elena a squeeze. There was no way Char could lie when Elena was behaving like this. Sometimes Charlotte believed Elena's spirit was much older than her body. It was very well possible and would explain alot. She knew things, so lying wasn't exactly an option. "Because Miss Rosie passed away from something called cancer. Mama used to have cancer."

Elena tensed in Charlotte's arms, twisting around to look up into her mother's eyes. With tears welling up and threatening to spill over onto her cute little cheeks, Elena reached up and placed her hands on either of Charlotte's cheeks. "Are you going to die?!"

The urgency in Elena's voice nearly broke Char's heart. "No, honey." The child was gathered against her chest and rocked gently. "I'm not going to die from cancer. Mama was just scared, that's all. Don't you worry, sweetheart. Mama and Papa aren't going anywhere. We'll always be here for you, darling."

The little blonde pulled away. "What about Daddy and Jen?" She wiped away a stray tear with the back of her hand.

"We're all here for you right now." Elena smiled and Charlotte mirrored her. "Now why don't you go see how Papa is doing?"

"Okay!" The little, bouncy, happy five year old slid off of Charlotte's lap and skipped out of the room to visit her Papa on the porch.

Charlotte watched her go with a smile, gaze then slowly turning back to the paper on the table that explained about Rosie's death. Picking it up, she carefully folded it in half and rose from the table. It was time to calm down and get on with life. She'd remember Rosie for the great woman she was and not let her guilt eat away at her ever again. Charlotte had tried several times to make up with the woman; so, knowing that she had done her part, she strode over to the waste basket and let the paper fall inside.

Charlotte Ravenlock

Date: 2007-06-20 17:16 EST
He was on his fourth cigarette in a row. The tears had ceased a little while ago. He was just sitting there silently, staring out into the wide open field. So many emotions running through him right now, so much guilt. Why did he have to destroy her the way he did? Why couldn't he have kicked his old habits back then? Why did she have to get the very worst of him? He was so drugged up back in those days, there's a lot from back then that he simply doesn't remember. He's clean now, but he still can't help but feel utter remorse over the hurt that he put her through when he left her....and now, there's nothing that he can do to ease that guilt

The screen door creaked as it was pushed open and slammed shut as Elena padded out onto the porch. Her Mama had sent her outside to check on her Papa and that was just what she was doin'. It was a nice day outside, sunny and right arounf 79 degrees. "Hi, Papa." Elena smiled sweetly, a hand reaching up to smooth some blonde curls out of her eyes.

On the porch step sat a little black and white kitten which Elena moved forward to pick up. As the small creature was lifted into Elena's arms, it gave a soft mew and clung to the little girls sundress. Elena pet it happily and ran over to her Papa, climbing up onto the porch swing beside him.

Soon as that door swung open, he flicked his cigarette aside to keep Elena from seeing it. Not that he could really hide it from her, but he still wasn't used to that. Seeing that face was enough to make any man's heart melt, and her papa was no different. How could a man keep from smiling when he saw her, even if it was just a half hearted smile? He watched her interact with that kitten for a few moments before scooting over in the swing to make room for his daughter.

"How you doin', babygirl..?" He was definitely putting on the bravest face that he could for little Elena. She didn't need to know about papa's stupid little problems.

Elena ignored her father's question and focused her attention on the little kitten in her lap. Turning her face upwards to Dakota's, Elena's brows furrowed. "Papa you still have tears on you." To prove her point, she lifted a little finger and poked a tear that clung to his jaw. "You're sad like Mama, but she said you're not going to die." Simple words, and yet... wise beyond her years.

Wrapping an arm around the darling little girl, he pulled her in for a kiss on the side of her head before slowly nodding. "No, I ain't gon' die, Elena. I.....I just..." How could he even begin to explain it to her? It still didn't hit him just how sharp this girl was. He still didn't comprehend just how deep her gifts ran. He was still talking to her like a normal five year old. "It's hard to explain, baby. I'm just really, really sad right now. But you're makin' me feel better already." Trying to offer her another brave grin with those last words.

At the kiss, Elena gave a little giggle and squeezed her kitten a little too tightly. This time it gave a loud mew and Elena gasped. She cradled the animal gently and nuzzled it's nose with her own. There was some form of communication there, but Dakota would never know. She bent to place the cat on the porch and then moved to crawl into her Papa's lap.

Deep, piercing blue eyes locked with Dakota's a moment before she drew him into a hug. Her tiny arms wrapped around his neck and her face buried itself into his long black hair. "Papa," she whispered, "she loved you and forgived you."

Those seven words, spoken with such genuinely heartfelt love, hit him like a ton of bricks. He cuddled his Elena....and yes, she was HIS Elena..up into his arms just like she did that kitten, and just held her up against him. He was being as quiet as he possibly could, but he was sobbing uncontrollably. What in the world did an old drug addict like him EVER do to deserve such a beautiful daughter...much less one with gifts as powerful as hers? "Papa......was mean to her, baby....I used to be a bad, bad person."

It would be now that one of Elena's giftings would become apparent to Charlotte (who was standing by the window, witnessing thier interactions). Elena was an empath; it was clear as day. What else she was, Charlotte still hadn't the faintest clue, but this was so very obvious now.

The five year old clung to her father as he clung to her, effortlessly delving into his emotional springs that were wide open now. While Elena was too young to understand the depth of Dakota's hurt, she understood that a healing needed to take place. Lifting her head from his shoulder, her own tears forming in her eyes from her father's misery, Elena touched a hand to his cheek; allowing the unseeable tendrils of soothing love and compassion to enter his body. "But your not, Papa. You're a good Papa and she knows that."

Then, after a short pause, "I love you, Papa."

She had him completely under her powers. Just a soothing rush, like the most gentle of breezes, went through him. He was honestly stunned silent upon realizing what Elena was doing to him. He hadn't really understood the need for her to go to this "special school" until right at this very moment. "I love you too, Elena...more than you could ever imagine. You're always gonna be papa's lil girl. You know that, don't you?"

"Uh huh." She grinned, more-so happy with the fact that Dakota's mental state had evened out. She gave a little bounce, any trace of tears in her eyes gone. My, she was a fickle little thing, wasn't she? "An' yer always gonna be my Papa bear, right?"

"Baby, I'm ALWAYS gon' be your Papa bear...ain't nothin' or nobody eeeeeever gon' change that. You wanna play..? I feel like playin' anything you want to."

"Tea party!"

Oh boy.