May 2
Sometimes, you just gotta burn things.
I had quite a few entries in my original journal, which was pretty amazing for me. I despise writing, I really do. But I've learned that with each day, each week, each month that passes by, my memory seems to be getting worse and worse. The only logical explanation that I can come up with is that I have burned so many brain cells with everything that I've done, my memory may be fading well before it's supposed to. I'm only 33, for God's sake!!
33........?
Where did my 20's go...?
So I started keeping a journal to help me remember certain things that I may have simply forgotten about.
Anyway, I had to burn the journal. It was too painful reading through it, and it wasn't doing a thing but holding me back from moving on with my life, and getting past these stupid infatuations that weren't going anywhere.
I'd say that things have gone pretty good in the last few days. Okay, things have been better than I could have hoped for.
First off, I kinda, sorta found a chick who has been right there for a long time, but I never saw her as anything more than a really good friend. But a few nights ago, when me and Jade sat out on the front porch of the inn together, it just felt right. There was a beautiful rain going on, and for whatever reason, I asked her if she'd want to maybe go out on a date with me sometime. She said yes!!
A couple of nights later, we went out on our date. When she answered the door.....oh man, she looked good. That's not even the right way to describe her. She was completely drop-dead gorgeous. How in the world did I never notice this girl before?
Anyway, I got to meet her daughter, Claira. She is absolutely adorable. I hope I get the chance to see her again. She was as sweet as she could be, and she makes me laugh.
So off me and Jade went. She knew about this great steak house called Smokey's. It's on some beach front property, and it was spectacular. We sat there and talked about pretty much everything. She began telling me more about her family, and I don't know why, but I began to have the feeling that some of the things she was telling me is stuff that not a lot of people have heard her talk about. I love hearing her talk. Her accent is so close to mine, and hers is simply angelic to listen to.
Sometime during the course of the night, I told her about Aiyana. I have no idea why I brought Aiyana up. I've never mentioned her name to one single soul in Rhy'Din, not even Charlotte or Rosie. But for whatever reason, I started talking about my sister to Jade. I guess we were just that comfortable with each other, which is always a huge plus for me.
So we finished up, and I paid for dinner, DESPITE her trying to pay for her half. That crap don't fly with me, and she's gonna find out that I'm at least twice as bullheaded as she could ever hope to be. So HA!
By this point, we head on down towards the beach. I knew instantly that my boots were coming off, because I was gonna get at least ankle deep in that water. She took her shoes off too....by the way, Jade has some of the prettiest little feet I've ever seen....and we just walked along the shoreline. I got the chance to hold her for a few minutes, and the woman felt so right in my arms. That was a moment that I wanted to be able to freeze and hold onto.
But then again, if I had done that, the next moment wouldn't have happened. That's when we kissed. I was standing behind her, holding onto her when it happened. She then turned around in my arms while we kissed, and man......it was nice.
We could've stayed out all night, but she needed to get home to Claira. So as we stood there at the front door of her sorority house, she gave me a kiss on the cheek. I knew I had to see her again. I knew there was no way I could let that be the only date.
We spent most of yesterday together, and ended up at the inn. Another sidenote, Jade may very well have the most kicka** wardrobe around these parts. Yesterday, she wore an old black Guns n' Roses tank top and some tight, ripped jeans.
It took everything I had not to just stare at her and let her just keep talking for the entire day. Would've suited me just fine, and everybody knows I like to talk.
I'm planning on inviting her over here to the apartment. I'd like to cook for her, and see if I can impress her in the kitchen. I know that I've got one hell of a lot of work to do, trying to get this apartment in presentable shape. No way I'm gonna let her see it like it is now. Luke keeps this place looking like hell!!!
Okay, it's actually me. Luke's the cleaner one out of the two of us.
I've got another journal entry that I have to write pretty soon. The one person who I thought I would never see again, no matter how long I lived, came to Rhy'Din. For now, my hand is just plain tired, and I can't believe I've already wrote this much.
Jade, can't wait to see you again, baby.
Sometimes, you just gotta burn things.
I had quite a few entries in my original journal, which was pretty amazing for me. I despise writing, I really do. But I've learned that with each day, each week, each month that passes by, my memory seems to be getting worse and worse. The only logical explanation that I can come up with is that I have burned so many brain cells with everything that I've done, my memory may be fading well before it's supposed to. I'm only 33, for God's sake!!
33........?
Where did my 20's go...?
So I started keeping a journal to help me remember certain things that I may have simply forgotten about.
Anyway, I had to burn the journal. It was too painful reading through it, and it wasn't doing a thing but holding me back from moving on with my life, and getting past these stupid infatuations that weren't going anywhere.
I'd say that things have gone pretty good in the last few days. Okay, things have been better than I could have hoped for.
First off, I kinda, sorta found a chick who has been right there for a long time, but I never saw her as anything more than a really good friend. But a few nights ago, when me and Jade sat out on the front porch of the inn together, it just felt right. There was a beautiful rain going on, and for whatever reason, I asked her if she'd want to maybe go out on a date with me sometime. She said yes!!
A couple of nights later, we went out on our date. When she answered the door.....oh man, she looked good. That's not even the right way to describe her. She was completely drop-dead gorgeous. How in the world did I never notice this girl before?
Anyway, I got to meet her daughter, Claira. She is absolutely adorable. I hope I get the chance to see her again. She was as sweet as she could be, and she makes me laugh.
So off me and Jade went. She knew about this great steak house called Smokey's. It's on some beach front property, and it was spectacular. We sat there and talked about pretty much everything. She began telling me more about her family, and I don't know why, but I began to have the feeling that some of the things she was telling me is stuff that not a lot of people have heard her talk about. I love hearing her talk. Her accent is so close to mine, and hers is simply angelic to listen to.
Sometime during the course of the night, I told her about Aiyana. I have no idea why I brought Aiyana up. I've never mentioned her name to one single soul in Rhy'Din, not even Charlotte or Rosie. But for whatever reason, I started talking about my sister to Jade. I guess we were just that comfortable with each other, which is always a huge plus for me.
So we finished up, and I paid for dinner, DESPITE her trying to pay for her half. That crap don't fly with me, and she's gonna find out that I'm at least twice as bullheaded as she could ever hope to be. So HA!
By this point, we head on down towards the beach. I knew instantly that my boots were coming off, because I was gonna get at least ankle deep in that water. She took her shoes off too....by the way, Jade has some of the prettiest little feet I've ever seen....and we just walked along the shoreline. I got the chance to hold her for a few minutes, and the woman felt so right in my arms. That was a moment that I wanted to be able to freeze and hold onto.
But then again, if I had done that, the next moment wouldn't have happened. That's when we kissed. I was standing behind her, holding onto her when it happened. She then turned around in my arms while we kissed, and man......it was nice.
We could've stayed out all night, but she needed to get home to Claira. So as we stood there at the front door of her sorority house, she gave me a kiss on the cheek. I knew I had to see her again. I knew there was no way I could let that be the only date.
We spent most of yesterday together, and ended up at the inn. Another sidenote, Jade may very well have the most kicka** wardrobe around these parts. Yesterday, she wore an old black Guns n' Roses tank top and some tight, ripped jeans.
It took everything I had not to just stare at her and let her just keep talking for the entire day. Would've suited me just fine, and everybody knows I like to talk.
I'm planning on inviting her over here to the apartment. I'd like to cook for her, and see if I can impress her in the kitchen. I know that I've got one hell of a lot of work to do, trying to get this apartment in presentable shape. No way I'm gonna let her see it like it is now. Luke keeps this place looking like hell!!!
Okay, it's actually me. Luke's the cleaner one out of the two of us.
I've got another journal entry that I have to write pretty soon. The one person who I thought I would never see again, no matter how long I lived, came to Rhy'Din. For now, my hand is just plain tired, and I can't believe I've already wrote this much.
Jade, can't wait to see you again, baby.