"Yeah, right here." She gestured to the right and there was the church. It was run down,and a little crumbly, but it still had those pretty windows with the colors, and stories. The doors were thrown open and there was a stream of people coming out. Mass must have just ended... most of them looked somewhat poor. Beat up a bit, in more olden clothes. Children, mothers, fathers. They were chatting happily to each other, a real community. Erin smiled to herself as she led Lydia up the stone steps and closer to the doors, dodging the people going in the other direction.
Tilting her head, Lydia took in the church. It.. didn't look anything like she would have imagined one to look like, honestly, from the things she's heard and read. Lips pursed faintly, then she stepped back as the doors opened and people started pouring out. Pale blues darted over them, examining, and she was quick to shuffle aside and out of their way, keeping close to Erin as they moved up the steps. "I didn't know this place was here." Spoken quietly.
"It's not the grand one. Not a big and special one. But I like it. The congregation is nice, and it's homey. Reminds me of the little churches in the country where I went to school." She smiled a bit as she held the door and slid through, keeping it propped for Lydia.
Stepping inside, she pulled her jacket a little tighter around herself. There was a small part, deep down inside that felt like, perhaps she didn't belong there? After all, it wasn't as if she really shared this particular faith with Erin. "..special one? What makes one church special and another.. not?"
"They have like..control? It's like countries, kinda. Some are in charge of other ones and stuff. I never understood it really well. But the main church is a cathedral or a basilica or something." She shrugged. The church was small, but roomy. There was a semicircle of pews and a small alter. To the right, there was a little nitch located underneath a medium stained glass window. The window had the story of the Virgin Mary and there was a statue of her there, hands folded in prayer. In front was a set of candles, only about ten or so were lit. There were matches, too, and the long sticks so that they were easily lightable. Erin guided Lydia that way, nodding with her head. As they walked in she dipped her hand in the water, crossing herself without saying a word about it.
That.. just went over Lydia's head. But she didn't want to ask, so she just nodded. The place was rather quiet, solemnly so. Like it would be wrong to speak and break the silence? Pale blues roamed over he place, taking it in, lingering on the window in amazement before she followed along behind Erin, gaze drifting over the candles. She couldn't help but frown a touch when she noticed the unlit ones along side the lit. Looking back to Erin, brows lifted a little bit at her gesture. Lydia felt even more out of place then, awkward almost. Was she supposed to make that same gesture? With the water and symbol? What'd it even mean? Gods, what if she did something wrong? She didn't want to offend Erin, so... she'd just wait to be told what was what. A shift of weight from one foot to the other then, as hands dipped into her pockets.
Erin smiled a touch, ushering Lydia to the area with the candles. Since the place was almost empty, she spoke quietly, but she spoke. "So, you light a candle, and you like.. think of the person. Maybe say a few words. And then you just leave it lit. You can kneel if you want. I know you're not religious, but sometimes if you think it'll help, I don't see a reason why not to, you know?" She was nervous and it was showing on her features clearly.
Nervous? That was two of them. "Oh." She glanced from Erin, to the candles, lips pursed. "I don't really know what to say." And she wanted to say.. something, because just lighting a candle on it's own seemed an empty gesture to her, without anything else to accompany it. Biting her lip, her gaze shifted back to the englishwoman, wanting her to go first. She just didn't say it.
Erin did this alone mostly. Rarely said anything aloud. Just spoke in her head to those she had lost. So... she stepped forward and lit one of the long sticks and dipped it in an already lit candle. Then she moved it to light one that wasn't lit. A pause and she took to kneeling, folding her hands on the higher bar. Usually she would talk to god. Or the virgin mary. But with Lydia around, she had a bit of a better idea... "Hey, Grams. I miss you." Suddenly said, rather quietly. "I know Mom wouldn't be happy I'm here, but you wouldn't' care." That made her smile. "Just thinking of you recently... and the way you made those great puddings. Tried to make one, you should have seen how that went! A disaster. So, yeah... I don't know. Thinking of you, mainly. Hope you're doing okay up there. Overfeeding angels or whatever.." She laughed a little even. Erin cheated and picked a real easy one first. But, it eased her nerves, talking to her grandmother. It was the only person she was ever herself with. Really. "Take care." One more look at the candle she had lit, and a nod to herself as she stood up and stood back. "Kinda like that?" A brow to Lydia, then.
Lydia felt almost as if she were intruding by listening and watching Erin, like she was eavesdropping in a private conversation. Swallowing, her gaze trailed away from Erin, as if it would afford her a little more privacy, but she listened. When she stood back up, pale blues drifted her way, apologetic and glassy in appearance. "I think I understand now." She glanced back to the candles. "Do you.. talk to just one person.. or everyone?" The inquiry was quiet, as if she were still afraid she'd do this.. wrong somehow.
"Anything you want." She said softly. "I do one at a time, usually. I like to... but, it's all about being comfortable, really. It's for you and them and between you and them. I may light one more. Maybe two." A purse of her lips at the thought and then a shrug. "Whatever you need. Whatever you want. It's so rare you get to do things that way, you know?"
"Oh. Alright then.." A nervous nod of understanding to that, she looked back to the candles in contemplation. One for now, she'd go from there. There was a flicker of light in her eyes as she reached for an unlit candle, then hesitated. That's not how Erin did it! Hand was sheepishly withdrawn as the glow in her eyes dimmed, and she opted to pick up one of those sticks Erin had used. She extended it out to light the end with the candle Erin had just lit, then hovered it over the wick of an unlit candle, bringing it to a flame. Biting at her lip, she studied it a moment, thinking. Gaze fell briefly as she sighed, then lifted back to the candle.
"Mason..." Trailing off, already a rocky start. "...you were the most stubborn, argumentative person I know. And I miss that. I miss you. Because you were also honest, and you didn't take my crap, and you always saw through me and made me.. I dunno. You didn't let me get away with lying.. I might have seemed angry at you for that at times, but, you know.. I'm glad you didn't." She paused, toying with the stick in her hand. "And you were just.. you were a good guy. You had hope for better in this world, and that's so rare. Your leaving is.. not my loss, but a loss to everyone I think... to anyone who could have ever met you, or anyone you could have helped. I hope.. I hope you're at peace now. And that you're happy and have found your.. hope I guess. Because you deserve that.. you've earned it." Silent, she lifted a hand to quickly wipe at her eyes.
Erin squeezed Lydia's shoulder as she passed her, taking a deep breath as she grabbed the stick again, using it to light another candle. Setting to her knees, she gripped the bar this time, bowing her head a bit. "I never named you. I didn't really have the time. And, I think for a little while, you were the bringer of joy in my life. Or at least peace. That I could do that... create life... And I'm sorry that I never mourned you at all. That I never thought to name you.. even later. That I pretended I was okay. It wasn't fair. Not to you, not to Richard, not to me. And it was wrong. And I'm sorry. I hope your life is better there than it never was here... that you get a chance sometime." A pause as she stops to sniffle a bit, wiping at her nose. "And I hope you can forgive me for it all." Erin paused there a moment to say a silent prayer before she slid to her feet and away from the candles.