I. The Gloaming Land
1. Waking up in a Desert without end.
He came back to consciousness to the beating of a steady drum, each heavy thump rocking his body and rattling the individual bones of his skull so knifing pains lashed throughout his head like a Fury's scourge. It took a moment for the vertigo to pass, until he stopped feeling like he was free falling into the lavender sky above, and in that time he realized that the drumming was his own heartbeat, and the knives in his head were only metaphorical. He was sprawled, spread-eagle, on sandy ground, and the ache from every corner of his being quickly assured him that all of his various appendages were present and accounted for.
Just once, he thought resignedly. Just once, I'd like to wake up and not be hurting, screaming, or crying. He wiggled his toes, felt them respond and complain, and then did the same with his fingers. After a moment of watching the unchanging purple sky, cloudless, endless, he decided to risk sitting up. The effort made his vision blur and with a groan he tucked his knees to his chest, put his head down, and rode out a fresh spell of dizziness.
He was sitting on a flat, featureless plain, for all the world as though he'd simply fallen out of that equally featureless sky. Maybe he had ? portals to other worlds could be random like that, opening over cliffs or at the bottom of seas, in the heart of volcanoes and even the depths of stars. He was lucky he'd only fallen, and not been mashed, burned, frozen, or chopped to bits. From the color and quality of the light, he guessed the time to be about twilight, but there was no sign of which direction the sun was setting. Or, for that matter, that there even was a sun to set. The sky was the deeply purpled color of a livid bruise, and the light seemed to come from everywhere and nowhere at once, as if the whole plain had been fitted with mood lighting.
His sword was jammed in the ground not far from him, vibrating gently as though it, too, were thrumming to a heavy heartbeat. Paladin frowned and reached for its hilt; it stilled under his hand. It might have fallen mere moments before, though he would have thought he would have heard it. He let go of the hilt, and after a moment, it began to shake again. With a nod to himself and a slithering hiss from the sand, he pulled it loose and wiped the blade clean on a pants leg.
There was no sign of his guns, nor his coat, nor his backpack ? nor anything or anyone else from the warehouse, although looking down at his torn and dirty clothes he could see the vivid marks of his recent captivity. He sucked air through his teeth and rested the flat of his sword against his shoulder, the v-shaped crossguard cold against his cheek. No food, no water. No daggers up his sleeve, no armored coat to shield him from the cruelties of an uncaring world, no bag of tricks to deus ex machina his way out of a jam, no Mister .45 to save his arse when he was in too deep. Just himself, his scattered wits, and his sword against whatever this odd, twilit world was going to throw against him.
He shrugged, smiled, and stood smoothly. No time like the present. He stretched, bounced a couple of times on the balls of his feet, then abruptly spun into a kata, his sword spinning in a steely blur around him, breaking the silence of the plan with its lethal, whistling song. His muscles protested sharply and then relaxed as he stretched them, the aches and pains slipping away. He finished with a defiant salute to the unchanged sky above, noted that the light had neither grown nor diminished, and frowned slightly.
Tiny mountains, looming out of the distant haze like islands from a mirror flat sea. They could be small, mere hours away; they could be continent-wide and half a world from him. There was no sense of scale, no way to tell if there was even a horizon line to prove that he stood on an ordinary spherical world and not, say, a giant cube, or a flat disk. Paladin sighed and tucked the saber into his belt, giving the ground another look ? save for where his own footsteps had stirred it, and the snow-angel impression of his body, there was no sign to show it had ever been disturbed. Not by wind, nor animal, nor man.
There didn't seem to be anything else to do but set himself in the direction of the mountains and start walking, so he did.
*
There are two ways to avoid being lost. The first is to know, either instinctively or through painstaking awareness, where you are, where you're going, and how to get from Point A to Point B. The second is to admit that you don't know any of the above, and simply not care. After all, to paraphrase the Cheshire Cat, if you don't know where you're going, any road will take you there. This had been the rule Paladin had followed through all his years of wandering, and despite the occasional setback, it had served him well.
The same featureless plain still spread out around him, and only a long, unbroken trail of his footprints testified to his progress; he might have come miles, now, or only a few yards. He could have been walking minutes or hours, keeping as straight a line as he could manage with no landmarks from which to draw a bearing. The mountains looked no closer, the air still held its twilight dimness, the sky above remained that distinct bruised purple.
But not everything was unchanging; at some point a great, pregnant moon had taken its place in the sky, looming directly overhead like the rock of Damocles, blunter cousin to the better known sword. Perhaps it had risen, completely unnoticed, while Paladin's attention had been wholly absorbed on placing one foot in front of the other in a steady pace; perhaps it had simply appeared there like a magician's trick, sprung full-born and weighty in an eyelash blink.
It was an unfamiliar moon, younger and less scarred than the silver orb he was most used to, the shadowed vales of her mares forming no discernible face, no comforting companion for his long trek. She hung harvest yellow in the endless dusk, colored by the hidden sun, or an unseen haze in the air, or maybe just naturally so. He had time to ponder that, though direct observation required craning his head directly back and staring overhead, throwing his balance off and risking losing his ground-eating pace.
He'd spent a lot of time developing that stride, worked hard on it, because he'd spent a lot of time walking over the years ? it was a measured pace, in tune with his breathing, taking full advantage of his long legs to cover the distance, holding himself neither too stiffly nor too loosely. Once set in his pace, he could keep it up for days, chewing up leagues of travel until he finally dropped. A good portion of the effort was mental, pushing aside the complaints of his bruised body and the twinges as it healed, refusing to let his thoughts linger on just how far he must have traveled without yet seeing a sign of anything living, pushing aside the nagging worry that he might be going in circles, or the demands of hunger and thirst as they stirred within. Even before he'd dropped into this bizarre land, it had been some time since he'd ate or drank; unwilling guest to the River Rats, who weren't known for their hospitality.
His memories were hazy. He was used to that; he'd never had perfect recall, had suffered total amnesia more than once over the many years. You could only retain so many memories, after all, and his life had been crammed to the brim with more than its fair share of horrors and heroics, daring adventures and peaceful moments, long summer days and harsh winter nights. But he'd lost track of time over the course of his captivity, and with Kacey's trial date looming ever closer, and solid evidence still in short supply, the gap in his thoughts nagged at him like a vacant tooth, a sore spot that he couldn't stop poking and prodding.
It was that very urgency that led to him being captured, he remembered. He'd started taking risks, making mistakes ? letting hasty violence take the place of carefully measured plans. Time was running short, so he'd taken one too many chances and-
He couldn't remember them capturing him. The whole encounter was a blank spot ? one of many. He could remember torture, being tied down, beaten. It was nothing that hadn't happened to him before, and he'd had worse. They were nervous about capturing a Guardsman, for some reason, afraid that there would be a backlash about it. They didn't want anything too suspicious to be found when his body showed up in the River ? things that might bring questions, like missing fingers and toes.
And then... another blank spot. He shook his head and his stride broke for a moment as his legs suddenly went weak. He staggered across the stand, raising a hand to his head ? his fingers dripped sweat. He blinked at the droplets ? he wasn't exerting himself that hard, was he?
There was... a fight. There was always a fight. He shook his head again, scattering sweat drops like rain onto the gray sand of this not-desert, and scowled. The air felt humid, still cool but somehow thicker than it had when he started, like he was swimming through a thin soup. He looked down at his clothes, charcoal shirt and midnight cargo pants, both torn and bloodied. It didn't look like all the blood was his, although it was hard to tell with his body patching itself up so quickly... although slower than it might have, if he'd been in the best of shape. No doubt that very recuperation was the cause of this lingering weariness that crept over him, the lethargy that pooled in his muscles if he hesitated a moment too long in his stride; he longed to lie down, and sleep a while, but there was no place in sight to rest, nothing but flat gray sand.
And somehow, he thought, I feel that I've slept too long already... confident, cocky, careless, dead. He shook his head again, resuming his pace with an effort. But how did I get from there to here?
And just where the hell was 'here', anyway?
1. Waking up in a Desert without end.
He came back to consciousness to the beating of a steady drum, each heavy thump rocking his body and rattling the individual bones of his skull so knifing pains lashed throughout his head like a Fury's scourge. It took a moment for the vertigo to pass, until he stopped feeling like he was free falling into the lavender sky above, and in that time he realized that the drumming was his own heartbeat, and the knives in his head were only metaphorical. He was sprawled, spread-eagle, on sandy ground, and the ache from every corner of his being quickly assured him that all of his various appendages were present and accounted for.
Just once, he thought resignedly. Just once, I'd like to wake up and not be hurting, screaming, or crying. He wiggled his toes, felt them respond and complain, and then did the same with his fingers. After a moment of watching the unchanging purple sky, cloudless, endless, he decided to risk sitting up. The effort made his vision blur and with a groan he tucked his knees to his chest, put his head down, and rode out a fresh spell of dizziness.
He was sitting on a flat, featureless plain, for all the world as though he'd simply fallen out of that equally featureless sky. Maybe he had ? portals to other worlds could be random like that, opening over cliffs or at the bottom of seas, in the heart of volcanoes and even the depths of stars. He was lucky he'd only fallen, and not been mashed, burned, frozen, or chopped to bits. From the color and quality of the light, he guessed the time to be about twilight, but there was no sign of which direction the sun was setting. Or, for that matter, that there even was a sun to set. The sky was the deeply purpled color of a livid bruise, and the light seemed to come from everywhere and nowhere at once, as if the whole plain had been fitted with mood lighting.
His sword was jammed in the ground not far from him, vibrating gently as though it, too, were thrumming to a heavy heartbeat. Paladin frowned and reached for its hilt; it stilled under his hand. It might have fallen mere moments before, though he would have thought he would have heard it. He let go of the hilt, and after a moment, it began to shake again. With a nod to himself and a slithering hiss from the sand, he pulled it loose and wiped the blade clean on a pants leg.
There was no sign of his guns, nor his coat, nor his backpack ? nor anything or anyone else from the warehouse, although looking down at his torn and dirty clothes he could see the vivid marks of his recent captivity. He sucked air through his teeth and rested the flat of his sword against his shoulder, the v-shaped crossguard cold against his cheek. No food, no water. No daggers up his sleeve, no armored coat to shield him from the cruelties of an uncaring world, no bag of tricks to deus ex machina his way out of a jam, no Mister .45 to save his arse when he was in too deep. Just himself, his scattered wits, and his sword against whatever this odd, twilit world was going to throw against him.
He shrugged, smiled, and stood smoothly. No time like the present. He stretched, bounced a couple of times on the balls of his feet, then abruptly spun into a kata, his sword spinning in a steely blur around him, breaking the silence of the plan with its lethal, whistling song. His muscles protested sharply and then relaxed as he stretched them, the aches and pains slipping away. He finished with a defiant salute to the unchanged sky above, noted that the light had neither grown nor diminished, and frowned slightly.
Tiny mountains, looming out of the distant haze like islands from a mirror flat sea. They could be small, mere hours away; they could be continent-wide and half a world from him. There was no sense of scale, no way to tell if there was even a horizon line to prove that he stood on an ordinary spherical world and not, say, a giant cube, or a flat disk. Paladin sighed and tucked the saber into his belt, giving the ground another look ? save for where his own footsteps had stirred it, and the snow-angel impression of his body, there was no sign to show it had ever been disturbed. Not by wind, nor animal, nor man.
There didn't seem to be anything else to do but set himself in the direction of the mountains and start walking, so he did.
*
There are two ways to avoid being lost. The first is to know, either instinctively or through painstaking awareness, where you are, where you're going, and how to get from Point A to Point B. The second is to admit that you don't know any of the above, and simply not care. After all, to paraphrase the Cheshire Cat, if you don't know where you're going, any road will take you there. This had been the rule Paladin had followed through all his years of wandering, and despite the occasional setback, it had served him well.
The same featureless plain still spread out around him, and only a long, unbroken trail of his footprints testified to his progress; he might have come miles, now, or only a few yards. He could have been walking minutes or hours, keeping as straight a line as he could manage with no landmarks from which to draw a bearing. The mountains looked no closer, the air still held its twilight dimness, the sky above remained that distinct bruised purple.
But not everything was unchanging; at some point a great, pregnant moon had taken its place in the sky, looming directly overhead like the rock of Damocles, blunter cousin to the better known sword. Perhaps it had risen, completely unnoticed, while Paladin's attention had been wholly absorbed on placing one foot in front of the other in a steady pace; perhaps it had simply appeared there like a magician's trick, sprung full-born and weighty in an eyelash blink.
It was an unfamiliar moon, younger and less scarred than the silver orb he was most used to, the shadowed vales of her mares forming no discernible face, no comforting companion for his long trek. She hung harvest yellow in the endless dusk, colored by the hidden sun, or an unseen haze in the air, or maybe just naturally so. He had time to ponder that, though direct observation required craning his head directly back and staring overhead, throwing his balance off and risking losing his ground-eating pace.
He'd spent a lot of time developing that stride, worked hard on it, because he'd spent a lot of time walking over the years ? it was a measured pace, in tune with his breathing, taking full advantage of his long legs to cover the distance, holding himself neither too stiffly nor too loosely. Once set in his pace, he could keep it up for days, chewing up leagues of travel until he finally dropped. A good portion of the effort was mental, pushing aside the complaints of his bruised body and the twinges as it healed, refusing to let his thoughts linger on just how far he must have traveled without yet seeing a sign of anything living, pushing aside the nagging worry that he might be going in circles, or the demands of hunger and thirst as they stirred within. Even before he'd dropped into this bizarre land, it had been some time since he'd ate or drank; unwilling guest to the River Rats, who weren't known for their hospitality.
His memories were hazy. He was used to that; he'd never had perfect recall, had suffered total amnesia more than once over the many years. You could only retain so many memories, after all, and his life had been crammed to the brim with more than its fair share of horrors and heroics, daring adventures and peaceful moments, long summer days and harsh winter nights. But he'd lost track of time over the course of his captivity, and with Kacey's trial date looming ever closer, and solid evidence still in short supply, the gap in his thoughts nagged at him like a vacant tooth, a sore spot that he couldn't stop poking and prodding.
It was that very urgency that led to him being captured, he remembered. He'd started taking risks, making mistakes ? letting hasty violence take the place of carefully measured plans. Time was running short, so he'd taken one too many chances and-
He couldn't remember them capturing him. The whole encounter was a blank spot ? one of many. He could remember torture, being tied down, beaten. It was nothing that hadn't happened to him before, and he'd had worse. They were nervous about capturing a Guardsman, for some reason, afraid that there would be a backlash about it. They didn't want anything too suspicious to be found when his body showed up in the River ? things that might bring questions, like missing fingers and toes.
And then... another blank spot. He shook his head and his stride broke for a moment as his legs suddenly went weak. He staggered across the stand, raising a hand to his head ? his fingers dripped sweat. He blinked at the droplets ? he wasn't exerting himself that hard, was he?
There was... a fight. There was always a fight. He shook his head again, scattering sweat drops like rain onto the gray sand of this not-desert, and scowled. The air felt humid, still cool but somehow thicker than it had when he started, like he was swimming through a thin soup. He looked down at his clothes, charcoal shirt and midnight cargo pants, both torn and bloodied. It didn't look like all the blood was his, although it was hard to tell with his body patching itself up so quickly... although slower than it might have, if he'd been in the best of shape. No doubt that very recuperation was the cause of this lingering weariness that crept over him, the lethargy that pooled in his muscles if he hesitated a moment too long in his stride; he longed to lie down, and sleep a while, but there was no place in sight to rest, nothing but flat gray sand.
And somehow, he thought, I feel that I've slept too long already... confident, cocky, careless, dead. He shook his head again, resuming his pace with an effort. But how did I get from there to here?
And just where the hell was 'here', anyway?