Topic: rewind

Delahada

Date: 2009-05-12 08:28 EST
The living all move forward with little to no regard for anything behind them. In as short as five years time, a small and insignificant speck of time, Salvador Delahada had learned this much. He saw it every day, no matter where he was, even now, perched high atop the roof's ledge of a building across from an eye.

Everybody always talked about the Eye with some small amount of reverence, and he had yet to figure out why. From his perspective it wasn't a very remarkable thing. It was just a painting, a larger than life, enormously scaled, perfectly painted representation of a person's eye. Unlike anyone else who saw it, he had no idea at first whose Eye it was. He spent hours staring at it, having a contest with an image on the wall. One of his favorite games to play with the living was to see who would blink first. This was not a game he could win with a picture on a wall, an image that had no life. It never blinked.

Fio's studio unsettled him in ways that were difficult to explain and he never bothered speaking of that discomfort to anyone at all. Not even Sin. Feelings could too often be misinterpreted for something that they weren't. This particular feeling, for instance, was not fear. His reluctance to get closer, the distance of the width of a street he kept between himself and the building, could have easily been mistaken for fear, but it wasn't that at all.

The living all move forward. Fio's studio hadn't been lived in for some time. Rats of many breeds crept in through the walls of her sanctuary, had temporary visits that disrupted the solace of her domain. This was her one sacred place, and too many times had it been defiled. No one had yet to determine why.

They came as guests once. Himself, the sinner, the bubasti, Skid and Fio. Weeks of discussion before then had brought him to one and only one conclusion. He had to get inside her studio. He had to See for himself. The attempt had nearly been the undoing of his mind. What little he remembered of that night was now a tangled mess of unlabeled strings knotted up inside his memory. Some threads were only now starting to unwind, some very few pieces of the puzzle falling into place. All he knew for certain was that his work was not yet done. There was so much more in there he had yet to See, so much history, so much left behind that no one had paid any mind to at all when they left it there.

Sin always told him not to do anything foolish. Hell, he said the same thing to the sinner as often as he could. Neither of them really ever listened to each other. The one certain trait they probably shared with each other that made them a good match was their stupid tendency to dive headlong into danger, act first and ask questions later. Not this time.

Salvador had plenty of questions. The trouble was that when he asked them nobody who should know did know what the answers were. Fio didn't know. He'd asked her several times. The only one thing she had known was the image of two faces that moved on flipping paper. The one key that seemed most important to this case that nobody had a clue about was who this boy Demas was. Somehow he was connected to all this. Another key, like the literal one he kept secret, the one he had picked up from the corner, glinting in the dim light, the night they rescued Gem from her interrogators.

Maybe they should have done more asking questions first and making with the killing later. Now that he thought about it, he wasn't going to make the same mistake again. Except now, the only one he could ask those questions of were painted walls and broken windows. He was the only one, as far as he knew, who could get them to talk. And fortunately, places were much more difficult to kill than people.

Delahada

Date: 2009-05-13 15:14 EST
Most people work their way up. They follow the preset paths of structural design. Any ordinary person was likely to enter through the front door, on the first floor, provided it was either unlocked or they had a key. If the wards were still functional, Salvador wouldn't have had this chance to break the codes of the norm.

After hours that could have been days, he broke off the futile contest he was having with the Eye and rose to his feet. He uncoiled from his crouch with a languid stretch that made all nineteen spikes lining his spine crackle and pop at their joints. A messenger running by with an important missive to deliver glanced up from the street below and saw a man putting one foot forward and stepping out. The messenger stopped dead in his tracks, sucked in a deep breath, and was fully prepared to yell out and up to the man not to jump, but when he blinked he realized there really wasn't anyone there after all. "Uh. Wow, I really need to lay off the caffeine," he told himself, shook his head, and then went about his business.

Salvador took one step and his boot did not land on empty air. He did not tumble and fall to his three story demise. He took one step and his boot landed on hardwood instead. One step took him from the concrete ledge of the neighboring building's roof to be standing on two-by-six planks of aged hardwood, sanded and rubbed to a soft sheen, instead.

A haze of red flickered and faded out of his vision around him. It was the only color he saw, tapering off in a blink to expose the clearer present grayscale of the here and now. Here he stood in the center of Fio's fourth floor apartment. Here he arrived in a single step instead of the dozens it would have taken him from the ground level up. Here, once, there sat a cello. He remembered; it was the one certain and solid thing he had been able to pick out of the haze he had walked through weeks before. It wasn't there now, and he wondered, vaguely, if it was even as important now as it had been then.

At least one intruder had touched that cello. Closing his eyes, he recalled the flickering vision of fingers caressing the wood. In that vision the room was clouded in that constant haze of red. The fingers pulled upward along the belly, near the strings, and then away. The arm those fingers belonged to was dark, shrouded in fabric, and drifted backward. The feet below walked backward across that one small section blanketed by a rug.

"In the Between places, rain falls up instead of down."

Upon that recollection of something he had once told Sin, he opened his eyes and gave up on that memory. Looking around the room he realized why it had been such a taxing evening the night he had tried. "Might not be so much interference this time," he mused. Nobody else had any opinion on the matter; he was the only one there. The last time there had been other bodies clouding up the history he had tried walking through. There had been too much, as he had said, the only words he could form clearly from the chaos he had witnessed.

"There's still too much," he realized, looking around the apartment. The air was filled with the echo of music. A dim and dull soundtrack of melancholy that followed him as he prowled cautiously around the room. The closer he got to the book shelves, further from the piano, the more that noise was replaced by the sound of rustling paper. He paused to admire Fio's literary collection, but he did not dare touch any of them.

Turning his head, there he saw the bed. Squinting hard at its framework he new at once it was not a mattress he'd ever be comfortable sleeping on himself, but for some reason it made him smile. "At least he can't touch her when she's sleeping here," he quietly told the walls.

The open door to the closeted privy caught the corner of his eye next. Drifting away from the small living space, he prowled into that closed off section of the room and took a moment to admire the floral patterns painted on the claw foot bathtub. A compulsion took over his hand and he reached out to caress the porcelain edges with his fingertips. The basin had been empty a second before, but now in a blink he saw the tub was full. Water was crawling up into the mouth of the faucet and the level was steadily receding.

"...rain falls up instead of down."

Nude legs stood beside him, watching the water retreat back into its pipes with him. Someone's hand was pulling ripples up and out of the surface. The hand drifted backward along with its arm. The rustle of some fabric sifted in under the burble of the water. Maybe it was silk, a robe, possibly even cotton, but when he turned his head to see there was nothing there. The sound was gone. Silence filled the studio's apartment again, all because his fingers had lifted off the edge of the tub. Watching Fio bathe in reverse was not what he was looking for anyway, as tempting as it may have been. He moved on.

Delahada

Date: 2009-05-14 14:20 EST
Hairs on a pillow. Flakes of skin. These are the little things the living leave behind. Even those who claim to be unliving shed these insignificant pieces of themselves from time to time. Dropped and forgotten without any notice at all. These are the little things that paint a clearer picture for those who know how to read them.

From the privy, he moved back into the sectioned off living space. There was the small couch and a comfortable chair, a place where guests could sit comfortably and be entertained by music. Sitting in either of them had all eyes on the piano, and the cello when it was there. Behind those sitting places was the screen, and behind that the bed whose frame was a danger to people like Salvador Delahada.

The chair looked safe. Something about it drew his attention. He took a break from his inspections and eased himself down onto the cushion. Elbows to armrests and palms hovering over the fabric. He felt like a man doomed to the electric chair, not wanting to put down his hands. Anything he touched was certain to give him visions. Part of him wanted to avoid as many as he could, like the bathtub, but another part told him this was the only way to find any answers at all.

He put down his hands.

He was no longer alone.

Shadowy wisps that jerked and twitched, curved to the shape of people, flickered in and out of sight. There was one in dark clothes, walking backward from the music stand and toward the ladder. Pulled by an invisible chord back and back and down and down through a haze of red. Then gone.

There was night flooding into day, again and again. Light crawled out through the windows to rejoin the sun on the western horizon. Together they rolled back toward the east while. The moon chased the sun into hiding and together with the stars they sucked up the dimmer light of evening until it was the sun's turn to chase the moon away. Over and under and over again.

Periodically he saw a ghost and a shadow roaming backward through Fionna's living space. Himself and Fio and Ali searching for boxes, and others still. All this time they had still been coming. Perhaps not as frequently as before, he guessed, but he saw them here and there. Unclear and uncertain entities dressed in nondescript fashion who shuffled fro and to. He watched the reel rewind its images for some long time until too much had gone by. Weeks? A month maybe? Time had no meaning, until he saw himself laying on the floor. Here he pushed the mental pause button.

They had just arrived through a flood of mist and Sin was holding him in his arms. "Esimorp I. T'now I," said the sinner.

"Ereh ni teg ot woh tuo serugif DneTsew fo tser eht erofeb. Og dluohs ew," said Fionna. She pulled her hand away from Skid's arm. He inflated as if someone were pouring joy into a sullen husk of himself. Fi moved forward and leaned over his unconscious form. "Thgir si ti taht feileb rieht ron. Fo elbapac era yeht tahw etamitserednu ton od. Efas eb. Uoy knaht," she said, and then she withdrew.

No, this wasn't right. This was the end. He remembered seeing last only a pair of shoes on a ghost. Ugly, unfasionable, nondescript shoes that only a pauper or a priest would wear. In this vision he wasn't likely to see them again. They were further back, much further back. But here was something he had missed, because this he did not remember. Salvador sped time onward with a thought and concentrated to look faster, further, until he saw himself rise up swiftly from the floor.

Here it was then. His mouth was moving. Here he slowed things down and pressed the mental play button.

"They were looking for something," said the ghost of Skid. "Didn't wanna mess it up, but they touched everything." He nodded, and fell back into thought.

"Mm. Pietr called for me," Sin murmured absently, looking aside at Salvador again.

"Pietr?" asked Fio, stunned.

"Everything," the ghost of himself agreed. Right before he groaned and pitched forward. "No taste in shoes," he murmured, and that was the end of it. Black out time.

He watched himself slump forward and collapse unconscious on the floor. The ghost memories of those few others he had accompanied on this journey continued to shuffle and flow around him. They continued to talk amongst each other. Then, he had missed out on these important facts. But now he could look back at the then and fill in the blanks he needed to fill.

He felt regret, maybe sad, seeing the worried expression on the sinner's face. For a time he ignored the conversation and found himself watching Sin's face shift through carefully reserved expressions. Deep in the lines he could see his discontent, his uneasiness. Deep in his eyes where he hid everything so well. "I'm sorry," he murmured to the ghosts, but they did not hear him. They were the past. He was only a spectator. He couldn't interact with him now and neither could they interact with him.

"There's only one priest I know of whose death is connected to me." Fio is speaking, and her emotions were vibrantly clear. All my fault. All my fault. "And it happened before..." ...everything. "I didn't mean to do it. But he--" Her jaw tight, she looked over at the cello for a moment, steadying herself with something familiar.

"Just tell us," Skid says gently. His hands fell to her shoulders, bracing; too gentle for the moment.

"There was so much blood. And when it seemed clear there wasn't any other choice, I tried to fix things. I didn't want to hurt him, but he made me do it." Her voice is barely a whisper. "So I brought him over before his heart stopped. And while he was changing, I put him someplace -- safe. Until I could come back the next night, and explain things to him. Only, I didn't come back." She looks up; her eyes are haunted. "When I'd gone back to the House, Perish was waiting for me."

Sin interrupts her. "What was his name, Fionna?" he asked quietly, frowning.

"Michael. He was the Triene Prelate for the Council. He..." She could hardly swallow. "..he was sent here to open the Palais for them."

Sin goes silent. Skid has been silent all this time. They listen as she relates her tale. He listens now as he couldn't listen before. The sinner slumped into a sitting position beside him, his unconscious ghost of the past.

"She was supposed to revive me. When Antony gave Lars back. She was supposed to revive me." Fionna tries to smile, but only looks ill. There is no mirth in her eyes. Only regret and self-blame. "I had locked him away. He couldn't have escaped. It was only supposed to be for the night."

Skid's hands squeezed just a little over her shoulders; he finally spoke his thoughts. "Things have a way of working against you when you don't need them to. But now, he's out. And he's coming, in your words. You said you didn't know if he knew about the Studio, but I think he did. Does, even. I also think you need to take what you'll need, and stay away from here for a while. Somewhere more secure. Hm?" He glanced to Sin for input, down to Fionna for the same. Everyone else was unconscious or disappeared.

"Things never go the way any of us plan, Fionna," Sinjin murmured, touching his ghost's short hair before Skid snapped nostalgia out of him. "Yes. Do you have someplace safe, Skid, or would you rather use one of mine?"

Blinking back to the present, Fionna found she had been staring at the prayer book. She offered it back to Sin. He accepted the book, sliding it inside his trench coat rather than returning it to the floor. "One thing I don't understand?" she said. "Who are the other men who were in here? And what were they looking for?"

That was the question to which Salvador intended on figuring out the answer.


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(Parts of the above story taken from live play, with thanks to those involved.)

Delahada

Date: 2009-05-28 13:39 EST
Lifting his hands off the armrests, Salvador let the present slide in slowly back around him. His palms itched, and he curled his fingers in to scratch them with his nails. That wasn't enough, though. He rubbed them against his thighs and then scrubbed them over his face, groaning. He waited several minutes before daring to open his eyes.

This one room had so much history. It was likely that it had more history than any of the other three levels of the studio combined. Lived-in was an understatement. Looking around the room in its present state of longing and silence smothered him with a sense of melancholy. This was Fionna's home, her sanctuary; she belonged here and they had taken her away.

Maybe it was more precise to say that they had chased her out. Not them, himself and Sin, Ali and Skid. The other ones, those wisps and shadows who had no names but one. Though they were all at fault. Michael and the unknown ghosts had instilled the panic that caused those who cared for her to remove her from her sanctuary. None of this sat well with Salvador.

He had far too many questions to contend with, though now he knew the answer to one. That one singular ghost who haunted her walls the most had a name. It didn't match the name printed in a child's bold scrawl on the inside cover of that prayer book. Though now perhaps he could put some perspective on it. All the priests he had ever known did not carry the same names they had been born with. The priests he knew, when they gave themselves to God, took on new names and new identities. They stopped being who they once were and became someone else entirely. They were reborn as servants of their Lord.

That one singular ghost was the important one of them all. He could name that one and connect to it in the sequences of history that permeated the studio. Who the others were, he couldn't say. At least not immediately.

It wasn't getting any darker outside than it had been when he first arrived. What had been weeks to months to hours in his previous vision had only been a short few moments in time in the present. What was then was not that which was now. The present carried on at a fixed rate. The tick, tick, tick of an analogue clock, somewhere, continued counting the seconds. He had all the time in the world to work with. All that is and all that was.

He knew what this was going to do to him, and he didn't like it, but he couldn't think of any other options. Steeling himself, Salvador took a deep breath, closed his eyes, and removed his boots. His bare feet hovered over the rug. He was reluctant to put them down, but on the exhale he did.

A thousand images hit his eyes. A thousand voices assaulted his ears. He sucked back a sharp gasp and closed his eyes against the overlap of the here and now versus the then. One by one he sorted through the hours, until they became days, and back farther still into weeks. The reel zipped through the last event he had concentrated on, where Fionna had confessed to the creation of a childe. Those ghosts he removed from the equation one at a time.

Sin out. Ali out. Skid out. Himself out. Fionna out.

Until all that remained were floating pieces of those who didn't belong. There was the one and there were the many. The one could wait. Fio's question still remained dominant in his mind. "Who are the other men who were in here? And what were they looking for?" When he found him, he brought the spinning sequences to a halt and found himself staring at a scene on pause.

Salvador pushed up out of his chair and crept cautiously on bare feet toward a trio of trespassers whose life had been brought to a standstill. There was an undercurrent of red haze that his ankles sifted through as he moved. This one color was a constant backdrop to the three dimensional imagery he passed through.

There were three of them. They were all dressed in nondescript clothes, apparel that made them impossible to pick out from any other random Joe or Jane who wandered the City streets on any given day. They could have been anyone. Any old mundane nameless body with unremarkable features and boring personalities. They were frozen in time and Salvador circled around them, one by one.

Beside the broken window stood one. He was the tallest of the three, a good three inches over Salvador's height. His hair was neatly clipped like all the rest of them, a lighter shade that may have made him blonde. Salvador couldn't tell, to him the color was only a dull and dingy gray that was rather close to white. This one had a sharp, chiseled face with sunken in cheeks and eyes. This one he decided to name Skull, because he could very nearly see that part of the skeleton through his taught flesh.

The other two were rummaging through separate areas of the main room. Or at least, they were caught suspended in the act of rummaging, from his perspective. One of them was bent over the piano peering in, as if maybe he, at the time, thought he would find a hiding space amidst the wires. Since he was bent over, Salvador couldn't tell how much taller or shorter he was than him, but he had a more portly figure underneath his clothes that suggested the man had an insatiable sweet tooth. Leaning in close enough and sniffing this ghost's mouth, he could almost pick up the memory scent of foul breath. This one he decided to name Sugar.

The last was a lean and wiry young man with shrewd, thin eyes. This one was stuck in a kneeling position, low to the ground and peering under Fio's bed. He was probably the only one of the three who could have fit under there. Salvador crouched down beside him for a closer look, and on this one he more clearly saw the one identifying object that gave them all away. Stuck in this position, a pendant on a thin silver chain was dangling from his neck and teasing at the floorboards. When he saw that symbol, Salvador frowned.

"That damned church," he muttered to the past. These men didn't hear him, because he wasn't actually there. This was then, not now. He hadn't been there. He wasn't now. He was still just an observer and nothing more. Rising up out of his crouch, he decided to name the last one. As with the other two, it was just for reference. "We'll call you Louse."

He didn't expect to hear any of these men give out their real names in conversation. Though if they did he was sure to remember them better than anyone he had ever met before. He always remembered his enemies. Forgetting them was a costly mistake.

Now that he had the answer to the first question, it was time to figure out the answer to the second. Who they were, now he knew, were either members or followers of the E.C.C. The church, any church. The one place he belonged least of all. Nor did they belong here, outside their sanctified walls. What were they searching for?

Salvador stepped back away from the one he named Louse. He crept lightly through the frozen scene, back to the center of the room. A little further back until he was in the perfect vantage point to watch all three men at once. Once he was certain he in the best viewing location, he pushed those mental buttons to allow time to resume its course.

Time started moving again. The room was still dark, but the pale light slipping in through the windows suggested the moon was at a different phase. He dropped in on the event mid-conversation. The voice he heard first was closest; it belonged to Sugar.

"--woman had anything to do with it?"

Across the room, Louse answered him with a snort before shoving himself further under the bed. His voice was muffled. "Certain enough. We wouldn't be here if he wasn't." He was shoving boxes and nick-knacks out from under the bed, rummaging through them.

Sugar pulled himself out of the piano and headed over to a collection of other boxes near the easel. He knelt down to begin searching through those. "How do we even know what we're looking for? Does he really think she left a diary or some notes that confess her sins?"

"We're looking for the prayer chain too," Louse reminded him. "And that blasted key he lost."

"Don't know how he expects us to find a key in this mess," Sugar complained. The other man grunted with no further comment, and the one standing by the window said nothing. They continued the rest of their search in silence.

At least, as far as Salvador was concerned, the rest of it didn't matter. He had picked the perfect time to replay and listen in on the past conversation. This choice little tidbit of conversation he picked up on made him smile wickedly. He slipped a hand into his pocket and brushed his fingers against the bow and bit of a tiny little object he kept hidden there.

Another memory entirely infiltrated the past scene he was caught in, and he closed his eyes to concentrate on that one for a moment.

"What've you got there?" Sin asked.

"Mm? Oh. Nothing," Sal replied. He slipped the key into the grooves of his armor and rose, turning to await further instructions.

A muffled thump lured him out of that overlap trance. When he opened his eyes again, the apartment was empty. The ghosts were gone but the thin red haze still ebbed and flowed around him. There was a book laying on the floor in the middle of the room. He blinked and it was no longer there. Time jumped out of sequence, and he wasn't sure when he was now. The soles of his feet continued to soak in the studio's history.

There were so many trails to follow, illuminated ribbons of energy that marked the paths a living thing had traveled. Salvador turned and saw a shadow slithering down the ladder that lead to the third floor, swallowing up its own trail. This time he followed it.

Michael Maleficio

Date: 2009-05-31 09:32 EST
He could be patient. Time was the one thing he had in abundance.

It was generally known, of course, that Pietr had loosed his hounds to sniff around the elf and her friends. He watched it all with carefully concealed relish. He hoped they did find whatever it was that the Inquisitor was hunting; he had particular interest in those prizes as well, and it was kind of the elder statesman of the Palais to take care of that little piece of business for him.

No surprise that Fionna was involved somehow, he considered. She always did maintain questionable alliances. When he'd realized that her sanctuary was the next on the list, he made sure to leave the door open for them. Welcome, friends. Do your worst.

The inept trio found nothing, of course, but they made an event of looking that scattered touch, scent and other traces of their presence over every paper and stick that littered the place. Sometimes, it really was almost too easy.

He waited until they were gone to slip from shadow up the stairs and ladder into his sanctuary, her scent and memories - all the familiar things that should have been, would be his - encircling him. Where to leave it? That was the question. He walked the circuit of the room thrice; ritual must be obeyed, even in the small things.

The cello. He saw her again, in his mind's eye, playing for him as he watched her from the shadows outside the house she'd inhabited with those deviants. Those demons. His still-beating heart had been in her hands, then, and she'd rejected it.

She would not reject him again.

A worn prayer book slipped from his pocket to fall at his feet as he caressed the belly of the instrument lovingly.

She would not reject him, this time.

Delahada

Date: 2009-06-02 03:23 EST
This was the ghost who was more important than the rest. Now he knew. Months after his initial attempt to tap into the history of the studio he finally found some answers. If only he had been as aware then as he was now.

Unlike those three from the church, this one moved with certainty. Every step was slow and meticulous, not cautious and erratic like those that didn't belong. From what he could See, this one looked as if he belonged here. Or at the very least, he behaved in a way that suggested he believed himself to be a part of this world. Fio's world. Her life and her sanctuary. This one ghost believed he belonged here.

He knew the ins and the outs, though he never came through the door, as far back as he could See. Down and down and down his trail spiraled and twisted. Deep down into the cement casings of basement walls and sewer grates. Salvador prowled the paths on bare feet and let himself sink into the ghost's skin. He didn't like it. This was an entity whose remnants of memory made his skin crawl.

"What was his name, Fionna?"

"Michael. He was the Triene Prelate for the Council. He... he was sent here to open the Palais for them."

Sighing out of that intermingling memory, he put his forearm against the wall and leaned. By now he was regretting having left his boots upstairs. A swirling flood of visions kept clawing into the soles of his feet and trickling across his eyes. He struggled to blot them out.

"Who was he?" he asked the hard, cold walls. That much he already knew, but that wasn't the question he had meant to ask. That wasn't the thought tumbling through the back of his mind. The real question was, "Who was he to you, hermosa? How did you meet?" Then he had to ask himself if he was even going to find those answers locked within these walls.

He knew so few things. From this point, down here in the cold and the damp, is how the man got inside most often. The residue was thickest here. Something he knew he had to report to the others. If they wanted to keep him out, they could block the way. That wasn't Salvador's job. Hell, he wasn't even sure what his job was here. He certainly wasn't getting paid for this investigation. Nobody had asked him to come back and snoop around again. "So why are you here?" he asked himself.

Himself had an answer. Your stupid curiosity's got the best of you again. He scowled, and sighed, then turned to sway and shuffle his way back upstairs. The air was too thick down here, too smothering, and he was taxing his reserves.

Maybe it was best to take a break, come back another time.

Delahada

Date: 2009-06-08 20:25 EST
Everything was black.

The pain was agony, no better word could describe it, except perhaps for never-ending. Someone had taken him, twisted him up, pulled him apart, tied him back together in all the wrong ways, and glued the whole flat of him to a wall. He was two dimensional where once he had been three, and the pain of this new limitation was excruciating.

He could see nothing. Though he could not breathe, did not even need to breathe, his lungs burned for the want of breathing. Just for there to be something left that reminded him he was real. But there was not. All he knew of what he was, what he once might have been, was a relentless thirst that could never be satisfied, a thirst that made him burn from the inside out but never set him on fire, and this darkness. This nothing but black and pain.

Then it was raining blood. So much blood. A waterfall of blood. This was no dripping pitter-patter of drops, but a cascade of deliciously hydrating blood. Someone had cracked open the lid of a barrel full of blood and dumped the contents all over him. Rivers of blood spilled into his mouth and he swallowed it all ravenously.

Inch by inch, bit by bit, limb by limb he inflated. His body slowly crawled out of its tight, cramped, two dimensional prison. He climbed out into the completely three dimensional world and swam into the blood rain pour. The darkness faded, the black slithered back into its tormenting corners and left him alone. The centuries, for that's how long it felt, shattered apart around him. He was here and now, free at last. He could move and he could breathe and he could drink.

Memories collided. He was surrounded. One and one and another one. A small cramped room with too many people filling up the walls. Faster than he should be able to after so long of being incapable, he flings himself aside and rolls off a table. He throws himself at one of the few in this room, bent on solid rage and an instinct to kill. Someone says his name. "Rebekah."

Someone jumps in the way. Another savage and starving beast interrupting his hunt. He loses his prey, and because of this shrieks, a sound of rage and terror. Then he flings himself backward and finds that he is wedged into a corner. A cornered, starving animal. The most dangerous of them all, coughing and choking, as if drowning on his own tears.

"Please," he begs one of them. "Please," he begs another. His voice sounds like a woman's. Then someone peers around the corner, and he looks. There he sees his own face looking back at him drowsily. This is the one he begs most of all, shrieking in his fright. "Don't let them kill me!"

"Nobody's going to hurt you here," his own face reassures him.

Someone offers him a jacket, something to clothe himself with. Only then does he realize that he is nude and his body is not his own. This is a woman's body. His body double is creeping closer, and its to him he latches on. There are more words, there is more talking. Hardly any of it he remembers until he has flung himself onto his body double and is pinning him to the ground in his final desperation.

He starts rambling at some point. "S?lvame, por favor. S? que. No s? usted. Por favor."

"Usted est? segura," his body double murmurs, sliding his hands around the woman body slowly. A protective embrace. A low, breathy chuckle escapes him. "Mi nombre es Salvador."

"Te amo, ?l le ama," he says with a woman's voice. And then the vision shatters.


Salvador woke in the dark, as always seemed to be the case. After-images remained burned to his retinas. Staring at the ceiling he watched them blur and blend together until the darkness swallowed everything up and left him in the dark again. He was not afraid. The dark never frightened him. Of course, nothing ever frightened him. It was a curse more than a blessing.

The echo of two words ebbed against his eardrums like the whispering wash of high tide in the distance. Long after the lingering traces of dream left him, that one remnant continued to buzz in his ears. They rolled over the sheets and crawled across his skin, making him tingle through every limb. Te amo, te amo, te amo. And the taste of blood still stained his lips, though he was not bleeding anywhere at all.

When the early morning gray trickled in through the curtains, the echo of those two words had eventually receded but the imprint of them in his mind remained. Licking his lips, he stared at the shadowed ceiling and laughed. Everything was starting to make so much more sense. To Salvador Delahada, it was insanely funny.

Delahada

Date: 2009-08-02 08:54 EST
The universe is not a clockwork creation, and chaos is necessary.

The only evidence left that a man had hung from the Studio's Eye were the four spikes embedded in the wall. The Watch had come and gone, the blood had been washed away. Blood never washes away.

"Michael staked a man to the wall that the Eye is painted on, a few days ago." Ali tipped a nod toward it. "He wrote the word 'Fidelis' in the man's blood, above it. Lucien Mallorek and I got him down and called the Watch. We've not heard anything about it since."

The stumps of the stakes were still visible, just, given the streetlight and the angle. Salvador looked in the direction indicated, slowly uncoiled from his seat on the next lowest step to stand up. Without a word, he drifted toward the Eye, walking slowly.

It was pertinent to the dream Ali told him about. Nightmares. Ali had told him he was having nightmares. But that wasn't what drew Salvador to the Eye. The fact alone that Michael had strung someone up there was enough. Ali didn't call him back. Instead, he followed after.

When Salvador reached the wall the Eye was painted on he paused to look upon it with a sort of quiet reverence. Though, he squinted hard at the blend of colors he could never see. He lifted his hand and dared not touch it, not yet, but it was clear he was taking it into serious consideration. His fingertips hovered just over the bricks and the mortar, mere centimeters away.

"Be careful," Ali warned, likely unheard, though hardly uncaring. "It was...it was bad. It gave me the nightmare."

"I don't have nightmares," Salvador murmured. "They're only dreams." A blessing and a curse. Never to wake up sweating and screaming, though oftentimes wanting to desperately because it was appropriate, but he couldn't. Closing his eyes, he touched his hand cautiously to the wall and submitted to the visions that were sure to come.

Ali's voice trickled in from a distance. "That's not what I meant, Salvador, and you know it." The present world of the here and now ceased to exist entirely.

The insides of his closed eyelids became the projection screen. The reel ticked backward in reverse. What he Saw was a panoramic view of the street just before the Eye, living events playing in constant rewind.

There he was, his ghost standing there with his hand on the wall. Though his eyes were closed, the lashes and the lids fluttered instantly. Mere slits showing the white sclera behind them as his eyes rolled under the shutter. His head lolled back, but his hand seemed glued to the wall. His stance was unsteady. How he held on was sheer force of will, or a sudden forgetfulness that he possessed a material body.

Ali was standing in front of him, watching his face. He turned a ninety-degree arc of backward steps to stand at an angle beside him and said, "Ti wonk uoy dna, Rodavlas, tneam I tahw ton s'taht."

Salvador watched his own ghost pull his hand away from the wall, open his eyes, and murmur, "Smeard ylno er'yeht. Seramthgin evah t'nod I."

Stop, he thought. The vision paused. A scene frozen in time. Continue, he thought. "Eramthgin eht me--" Faster. Then the voices were intelligible, completely. They were a slur of buzzing noise as two ghosts raced in reverse down the street. He watched himself zip away in backward stepping haste, Ali ahead of him, and the pair removing themselves from the scene.

There were other ghosts, unimportant ghosts. Wisps of traffic that flickered in and out of the scene in a rapidly chaotic strobe effect. They were there. Then not. Then there again. Some standing here. Some standing feet away. Never in the exact same spot as another at any given time. Flickering in and out of focus on a burning reel. The moon chased the sun into the east in the moment of a blink, down the horizon. Once, twice, three times before he saw a blip of something worth pausing on. Stop.

Two ladders were frozen flush against the wall of the Eye. There a man hung crucified. The same iron spikes had been hammered through the meat of his palms, his ankles. The stretch of his repose was honorific of Christ on the Cross, though a morbid tribute to be seen on this one piece of frozen film.

Two men stood frozen on the ladders, one man to either side. They were stuck in time like manequins in a storefront window for a time. These are faces he recognizes. Ali is leaning over the top of his ladder, eyes narrowed as he gets a closer look at the dead man hanging on the wall. Lucien Mallorek is balanced standing at the base of his own ladder with a pair of bolt cutters in one hand, looking up. Ali's mouth is hanging open, frozen forever mid conversation. Lucien's face is stuck with a serious expression. Play forward.

"--need the crowbar after all," Ali is saying. "Have you ever noticed that no one seems inclined to talk their differences out, in this place? Come up the other side and pass me the cutters, if you would, sir."

Lucien nods and starts to climb up his ladder with the cutters, but he stops midway to offer a suggestion while surrendering the tools to the Egyptian. "Feet first."

"No...I'll get this arm, then I'll hold him and you do the other arm and his feet. I can carry him down," Ali counters.

"Alright," the Barrister answers succinctly, climbing the rest of the way up the ladder to the man's outstretched arm.

The Eye -- Salvador -- watched on as the two men struggled together to haul the victim down. An elderly gentleman, mostly naked. Completely nude but for a swath of cloth wrapped around his waist. A strange sort of generous modesty for Michael to award a corpse. Once Lucien cuts the spikes, wrenches his feet and hands free, Ali gets his arms around him to ease the body down.

"Sinjin said," Ali remarks as he slowly eases down the ladder with the body, "that he thought that Michael was doing what he did...to get at him." His boot's toe finds solid ground; he lays the dead man down and looks him over. "And at Salvador. I don't know why he thought that, or what this poor bastard would have to do with Sinjin. You haven't any idea who he is?"

The barrister's dour expression had not changed this entire time, since the moment he caught sight of the crucified man. "To get at Sin and Sal?" he asked.

"I...there were some temporary tattoos that Missie found in a box on the bar with her name on them." Ali blinks, once, as if stricken by a sudden revelation, a painful one. "They had iron shavings in them. Salvador is half-fae, and when Missie put the tattoos on him...things went badly for him."

Skip, he thought. This information was irrelevant. Though he absorbed every second in time. He could sort through them later. The memories. No matter what speed he viewed them in, they were always there. Would always be there. Until he figured out how to be rid of them.

The reel moved in fast forward. Ali and Lucien together moved in jerky movements, flipping and turning the corpse from its back to its side. Examining the-- Stop.

The skin is broken at the back of the man's head, but not from a pointed instrument. Ali is holding the flat of his hand against the damage, draws it away, brings it back. "The angle's strange," he remarks. Lucien is only watching the Egyptian while he speculates. "As if he were bent over. Blunt instrument. Hard to say what around the swelling." He settles the man onto his back once more, and sits back on a heel. His hands dangle loosely from the other updrawn knee.

"Kneeling in prayer?" The Barrister throws that suggestion out there quietly, with a nod back to the note of the victim's crime.

"Possibly so," says Ali. Noticing Lucien's scrutiny, he adds, "Fidelis." He takes one of the man's hands--it's a bit of work, as the body's beginning to stiffen up--and considers his fingernails. "Faithfulness?"

Further speculations about the old man's identity continued. Salvador knew neither of them were going to provide the answers he was looking for. These were all merely speculations. Stop, he thought. The scene froze again. Backtrack. "Tseirp rehtona? Sey," the Barrister is saying. Faster.

Once again the two men jerked and twitched rapidly. Ali's hand, for a fraction of a second, looked as if it were the instrument that had cut into the back fo the dead man's head. They hoisted him back up, scrambled up their ladders like squirrels up trees. Limbs were shoved back onto the broken ends of the spikes, and the bolt cutter glued them back on. Faster.

Ali vanished with a ladder, reappeared, vanished again with the other, then reappeared again. Lucien stood swaying like a monkey standing high in a tree. Their mouths moved in blurs until the Barrister rushed off in backward steps and vanished from the scene. Ali joined him in vanishing in a blink after. The moon chased the sun back into the east again, and it was dark.

A tall figure was rocking and swaying in backward steps into the scene with the corpse hanging crucified on the wall of the Eye. He moved faster than blinks. There he was standing, then suddenly perched on the wall over the jerking body like a spider on a fly. Clinging to the painted brickface like he had no notion of gravity at all.

Blood rushed into the victim's ribs with the hand that plunged into them. A hammer head ripped spikes out of ankles and hands. The spider and his fly dropped away from the wall and scurried backward down the street. The tall man pushing the corpse to be away from the scene. Stop. They stood in forever in time this way. The tall man grasping a limb, one leg extended forward in frozen stride. The body sprawled limp in his shadow.

Play forward, Salvador thought, and he alone stood witness. Ali had been right about this much, the vision was horrifically overwhelming.

He could See it. He could Feel it. Etched into every stone. More than what he expected. There was more than just the crucifixation of an old rancher. More than the blood absorbed by porose brick and mortar. It was nearly like walking through Fio's studio all over again. Salvador wavered, swayed like a drunkard.

With a sucked back sharp breath and then a moan, his hand fell away from the wall of the Eye, and he crumpled. Everything went black as the reel burned itself out into an inky nothingness. His eyelids became eyelids again and the here and now flooded back in like the irritating buzz of a radio station that refused to tune itself in.

The next voice he heard trickling in from the distance was hers, "Is he okay?"


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(Adapdation mostly from live events, with thanks to Lucky Duck, Ali al Amat, FioHelston and Michael Maleficio.)