Topic: Looking Back

The Redneck

Date: 2015-04-15 09:11 EST
The redneck sat, perched on the roof of the building that housed the Tiefling's Den. A restaurant and hotel that catered to families on one side, and the darker, literal appetites of Others on the other, the Den had been bought and paid for, over a decade ago by the first man in Rhy'din she'd called brother.

"It was coming winter, October time, and the chill was already heavy and thick. Heavier and thicker than I was used to. It was worse for him." Without realizing it she'd fallen into the pattern and cadence of story telling. Her eyes stared off into the far distance and went unfocused. Below them people came and went, couples and families for an elegant, gourmet meal with flavors from across the Multiverse, demons and devils and fae and all manner in between for a taste of home that may, or may not still be alive and screaming when they started cutting.

"He was a tiefling, plane touched some call them. Distilled, bred down and thinned out Marilith, greater Tanar'ri, many armed women with the lower body of snakes. They're the generals, the tacticians in the Blood War." The belled rings tinked against each other with the 'nevermind' gesture, that path led to tangents and distractions.

"Cold blooded, literally. He was freezing to death and wouldn't have made it through the night if I hadn't helped him. Got him picked up and warmed up, found a place for him to settle in. A friend of mine, even then I knew the Vhenguirs, warned me off. Tried to at any rate. Told me Krist was a tiefling, and all tieflings were dangerous, rabid dogs that'd turn around and rip off the arm of the hand that fed them at the drop of a hat." The irony wasn't lost on her. Nor was the fact that even then she'd been drawn to the lost and broken. An attraction that had only strengthened and grown in the intervening years.

She still had a tendency to offer comfort to the rabid dogs, friendship to the murderers and worse.

"I was his first, and for a long time, his only friend. He'd never been allowed to have a friend before you see. He'd been, basically a slave the majority of his life. Bound in service to a being who used him as an assassin, and a source of terror. A punisher for any slight, no matter how small, real or imagined. Krist was, for a very large portion of his life, the Wind. The personal enforcer for the Lady of Pain, the god-ruler in Sigil." This might make no sense to the crow who was currently grooming herself, and listening intently.

The bird kept her head cocked to always have one glittering black eye staring at the woman she'd been charged with. Even when the pack of dogs, five Akitas and one Shadow Mastiff bled out of the shadows around them, the bird listened and watched, filing away the tale for later retelling. Later relaying.

"He was, less than stable emotionally. Nothing like Dave," the welder whose arc in the tale of the redneck's life in Rhy'din had yet to be shared. "Not at first anyway. Later on, yes. His grip started slipping more and more. Let loose altogether when I, hells at the time I was screwed up in my head and heart and just didn't do much right with the people who loved me, who needed me. I was careless, negligent. I saved his life again when the Eldarin took him, meant to execute him for the torture-murder of their king." Again she stared off into the distance, the hands that had been petting, stroking the heads and backs of the dogs in rotation stilling.

"I can't help but wonder if he'd have been better off if I hadn't fought so hard. He'd been resigned, accepting even, of the death sentence they meant to pass down. But I fought, and fought tooth and nail to save him.

"We had falling outs, friends do that from time to time. And I'd apologize when I was wrong, he'd apologize when he was wrong, and we'd go back to the way it had been."

The Redneck

Date: 2015-04-15 10:11 EST
She sighed and, not for the first time tonight, wished for a cigarette. "Maybe the multiverse was trying to say something, I don't know."

With her fingers scratching behind the tuliped ear of a white female she took a moment to regather her thoughts, and her courage before plunging on ahead.

"His actions, and reactions, became more and more erratic, more and more, not-right over time. The woman he was with, she started worrying about him. About the choices he was making, the things he was saying and doing. And she called me, asked me for help." When the pack of dogs crowded closer around her, intent upon pressing at least some part of themselves against her she paused again, her eyes squeezing shut as though to block out the memory.

"I thought I was right, so right. I didn't stop to consider what could go wrong, because nothing had yet. To that point nearly everything I'd done had gone, just the way I needed it to. Everything had turned out right enough.

"He had a sensory deprivation tank, no clue how he'd gotten it. So we loaded him up in there. Thought it might give him a reset, give him a break."

When she realized she'd skipped part of the story, the reason behind that particular decision she sighed, growled, through a grimace and backtracked. "He'd been touched, taken control of, kind of, by a Marilith, not his blood, but someone who managed to get her hooks into him again, and the control was still there. Figured the salt water and the tank would be enough to break the connection." Her head fell back, lolling on her neck. "And it would have. It would have. Except."

"Except for the spell layered under the control. A geas to fight, fight to the death against anything that tried to sever the tie, the binding between him and the Marilith pulling his strings.. None of us knew about that." Thorn's voice trembled, quivered and broke before she pulled it in. Viciously clamped down the control that had kept a smile on her face through so many trials, so many sucker punches, and so many failures.

"We listened to him, not knowing. We listened to him as he literally beat himself to death against the inside of that tank. " Crows were intelligent, scarily so. This one in particular had spent quite a lot of time with the redneck over the last several months. Whether or not she, or her master, understood the price Thorn paid for telling this tale, no longer mattered. The level of trust inherent, the blind leap taken.

"I hunted him down, hunted down his spirit, his soul. It was hiding, tucked up safe and sound and resting, under the curve of Roan's daughter's wing. And when I came near, it trembled. Shrank back in terror and pain and confusion. And betrayal. And I was sent away from her throne room. Sent away from her presence. Keening and mourning, I was sent away to learn from my pride, my stupid self assurance that what I did was right for someone else." With the knuckle of her right handed index finger she brushed at the tears that'd escaped the iron will that kept her voice steady. Even as she shivered and flinched in reaction to her own words, to the memory that might as well have been yesterday, her voice was steady.

The Redneck

Date: 2015-04-15 10:33 EST
Beside her the white female let out a low, almost inaudible howl as though voicing the sorrow she somehow shared with the woman. Though the jaws of the rest of the pack moved in echo of the howl, their voices were silent. Their keening song never given life.

"It took me, a long while, to convince Krist's spirit it was all right, that I wouldn't do that to him ever again. Took me longer to soothe him, to ease him, to comfort him. All the while, I was living with the knowledge that in doing what I knew was right, I'd killed my brother, my best friend.

"That I'd betrayed the trust and love of someone that thought the sun rose and set in me, even knowing the fucked up shit I'd done. And when he finally came out from under her wing, when he let himself be raised, he didn't blame me.

"Not really. I did though. I'd screwed up, miscalculated, jumped in before I knew what was really and fully going on. And it'd cost someone I loved their life." By now her voice was muffled, filtered through fur. For comfort and support she'd buried her face against the neck of the moon-white female.

"In the end, it cost him the last shreds of his sanity, his grip on reality. He was dead by the end of the year. Something he'd heard and misinterpreted set him off, sent him off the rails and he'd dissolved our friendship. Told me if he ever saw me again, he'd be my end." Her jaw ticked forward, stubborn pride and hurt anger in it. "I told him where he could put his promises, told him if he was going to hate me it'd be for the truth and not something he thought he heard. Set him straight and let him go when he turned to leave."

Once again that keening edge, the scalpel sharp tones that'd slithered around the frame of her words when she'd learned about Taneth came. Tangling through her voice, sharper and more brittle than before.

"They brought me his body, wrapped in the Maerkhet's banner, straight from the frontlines. His weapons, they'd been unmade, he'd been, gods. He looked almost untouched, like he was sleeping. But pale, so pale, and so cold. His scales didn't shimmer or shine in the light, and he was soaked, dripping blood. His, his enemies's. He'd died, protecting the Maerkhet. Dancing blades, and slinging death." The wild mourning broke loose, broke free in a fragment of a song from another time and another place. The Earth and Sky go on Forever...

"I buried him on my property, and a friend blessed the glade. Enchanted the place so Krist would never be cold again. The Glade is always Summer, late summer. Just like the day he died. There's a garden there now, flowers growing to remember those I've lost. Sometimes, over those I've lost.

"He forgave me, even before he went off to the War, he forgave me. But he was so broken, had been so broken for so much of his life, he just couldn't any more.

"He forgave me. I just, haven't been able to forgive myself."

While the crow settled on her shoulder, beak running through her hair, and her dogs crowded close, and Roan bled out of the shadows behind her to let her ride the edge before gathering her close to take her home, Thorn wailed her loss. Her voice raw edged and bleeding as it rose and fell.

For Krist, for Taneth, and for herself. The redneck rode the storm of her own emotions, let them sweep through her, break over her, and wash her clean again.

And when it passed, she gladly took her Love's hand, and went home.