Opportunities where Lydia and Erin were alone and got to talk, really talk, seemed to be a rarity lately. Of course today seemed to be different, in that they had found themselves able to talk to and confide in each other at the Hall. To continue their talk more privately, they left, passing through the inn along the way out to collect jackets. It was chilly weather after all, and they planned to walk, talk, and of all things, get some Indian take out food and take it to Erin's manor. Her idea of course.
Erin stepped out first, past the hall, beyond the field there where the Carnival had been and she smiled. She turned to face Lydia as she exited as well. "Just needed to get out of there. We never get to talk like before." She grumbled a bit. "Nexus hates us both, I think."
Following along, Lydia clasped her hands behind her back. "I don't think it hates us.. I'm just a jinx." Grinning at the old joke, she picked up her speed so she was walking beside Erin, rather than behind her. "But yeah, we don't get to talk as much as we used to..." A pause before speaking again. "I miss it."
"Me too." Erin nodded eagerly as she let herself fall in step with Lydia. "Not enough talking going on lately. Makes things go a little weird up here, ya know?" A tap to her forehead as she spoke, easy smile coming as she tried to make light of recent events.
"Mmhm." A faint smile offered, contrasting with the almost solemn nod in response to Erin. "You know.. I really missed you when you were gone." Her words were soft. "Even before things went.. bad.. I missed you, and wanted you back. Talking to anyone else is kinda.. hard. But with you... I feel like I can say anything, even if it's silly or stupid or... just ridiculous." Just as any normal pair of sisters should be, really. Erin was the only person Lydia felt she could say something.. anything to without any fear.
Erin pursed her lips at the talk of her being gone and nodded a little, voice lowering just a tad. "You know.. if not for you, I may not have come back. Would have been easier, that way... but once you have family..." She trailed off. "I know what you mean.. about talking. I wish you were around then. So much to hash out, and no one I trusted, really, to ask about it..." She kept shuffling along, her eyes on the road.
Lydia's own pale gaze moved away from the darkening road and environments ahead of them and towards Erin to regard her. She wasn't even aware of where they were going really, as Erin was the one leading on, towards WestEnd. Erin was the one, after all, who know where the restaurant was they were heading to. Oblivious to her enviroment, Lydia's gaze lowered at the mention of Erin not coming back. Such a thought was something she couldn't handle. "Well.. now.. if there's anything you ever need to say.. I'll always listen. I'm.. I'm glad you came back Erin.. not sure if I could handle losing another..." She trailed off, shaking her head. "It's.. the important thing is.. that you did come back though..."
Erin's hangover headache was clouding her judgement and she wasn't watching as vigilantly as she should have been. Darkness falling was something she was used to on her walks home from the market.. though she usually went another way. Straight home. Eyes would check alleys as they walked past, but only quickly. Faintly. Complacent vigilance. She let a smile push through and nodded a little. "Thanks.. for listening when I need it. It means a lot." She paused, tilting her head a bit to look at Lydia. "I'm glad I came back. Really.. I missed you." A pause. "And we have a business to run, yeah?" Her tone lightened a little.
Hearing that, Lydia smiled softly. "I really missed you too Erin.. and of course I listen silly..." She leaned over to nudge Erin's arm with her own. "..you do the same for me, and we're sisters, yeah?" The mention of her business had her expression brightening. "Yeah, we do.. about that..." She trailed off a bit. "...soon I have a bit of a suprise for you, involving our business." She had been wanting to show Erin this suprise for some time now, but it hadn't been all that long since she returned, and Lydia wanted to wait for some of the chaos of their lives to die down before unleasing that suprise upon her sister.
"Really?" She brightened a little. Suprises were fun, when they were planned... "That sounds great. I'm sorry I dropped the ball on that... I shouldn't let everything else get in the way, like I do... It's not fair. And it's not very sisterly of me. I'll do better from now on... not neglect you for other things." She paused in her speech, but not in her pace. "I'm sorry.. that I haven't really been there for you since I got married. I know I should be.. or even should have talked to you about it first... it wasn't very sisterly..."
Her smile faded a bit as her steps slowed, eventually bringing her to a halt. "What? ...Erin, no..." Her words were quiet, soft. "You haven't done anything wrong, and you've been there when I needed it.. if you think you've been neglectful of.. us.. then gods, I certainly have too. We just.. new lives and all yeah? Just getting it all sorted out?" She tried to muster up another smile. "And.. your life is yours. You don't need to talk to me about what you decide to do with it.." She bit at her lip, internally struggling with herself, trying to decide if she should go on with this. If there was anything she ever hated, it was having people try to make decisions for her, try to change her life, try to persuade her to change every move she had made... "..even if... even if I don't always.. agree with things you do, it doesn't change how I feel about you. Your life is yours.. and I won't presume to try to control it.. I think we both understand how.. how that is, not having our own lives?" Brows lift faintly to Erin, gauging her reaction. "And making mistakes is how we learn.. We come from these lives where.. we were never allowed to make them, so now..." She trailed off, shuffling her feet against the cobblestones a bit.
Erin nodded, listening and taking it all in. Mental notes on how to and where to reply, but it's hard to really address every point... when they all hit so close to home. She opened her mouth to talk, then closed it. Another collection of thoughts. "I know... it's just that... I should warn you, at least, before I go and change everything... I mean... I didn't do that. I changed everything and never even told you I was going to. I hate that... that I lied like that... and, things keep changing... so quickly.. I don't want us to get lost in the shuffle. I'm scared that I'm pushing you away. I know... that you and Sebastian.. you're not the best of friends.. and that things aren't going swimingly.. but, I don't want that to mean we can't do this anymore." She moved her hand between them. "Or that you'd be afraid to say things to me. If you have to. Even if I dissagree, I'd rather hear it than not... I'd rather know what you think, because I trust you. I love you. And I need an outside perspective sometimes... I get so lost in it all. So consumed..." It was her turn to trail off this time.
Lydia's lips twisted a bit. Sebastian and Erin.. their marriage. Not something she wanted to discuss, not now at least. Things seemed to be okay for the two currently, and adding fuel to the fire was something she didn't want to do. It's one reason she always held her tongue when it came to matters involving Sebastian... She wasn't about to let him or their marriage come between her relationship with her sister. For now? She just smiled faintly. "Well, if I have anything to say to you from now on, I will..." Nodding, the gesture as genuine as her words. "But change, yeah.. I'm.. I'm terrified of change." Her smile started to fade a bit. "I just want things to be good, and stay that way..."
"Yeah..." Erin frowned a bit and shuffled her feet. "Me too... me too... Lydia.. I didn't tell you something before.. I forgot, really... but, Katarina wants to talk to you again. I think, maybe, she's feeling kinda the same.. wanting things to be okay finally... I just... I think I saw something that worries me.. just a little." She fidgeted, crossing one of her feet over the other.
She blinked, her mouth starting to form an 'o' as that seemed to come from nowhere. "Oh." She rocked a bit on the balls of her feet. "Well, I can understand that... wanting things to be okay. If I could make things okay between the two of us..." She trailed off, brows furrowing faintly as she noted her sister's nervousness. "What..worries you?"
"She has one of those stones... I mean.. she just took it out like it was nothing, she wasn't hiding it from me... but..." Erin rolled her shoulders. "You know..."
Lydia's expression just fell when she heard that. She remembered that stone, what it did to her, how it felt... that pain, not being able to move, feeling so.. drained. Her gaze trailed to the ground, as she wasn't entirely sure what to say to that, what to feel about that. She was rather distracted as they just stood there, and didn't hear the footsteps behind her, didn't see the shadows behind Erin.
Only felt a hand grab at her throat, hard.
Erin stepped out first, past the hall, beyond the field there where the Carnival had been and she smiled. She turned to face Lydia as she exited as well. "Just needed to get out of there. We never get to talk like before." She grumbled a bit. "Nexus hates us both, I think."
Following along, Lydia clasped her hands behind her back. "I don't think it hates us.. I'm just a jinx." Grinning at the old joke, she picked up her speed so she was walking beside Erin, rather than behind her. "But yeah, we don't get to talk as much as we used to..." A pause before speaking again. "I miss it."
"Me too." Erin nodded eagerly as she let herself fall in step with Lydia. "Not enough talking going on lately. Makes things go a little weird up here, ya know?" A tap to her forehead as she spoke, easy smile coming as she tried to make light of recent events.
"Mmhm." A faint smile offered, contrasting with the almost solemn nod in response to Erin. "You know.. I really missed you when you were gone." Her words were soft. "Even before things went.. bad.. I missed you, and wanted you back. Talking to anyone else is kinda.. hard. But with you... I feel like I can say anything, even if it's silly or stupid or... just ridiculous." Just as any normal pair of sisters should be, really. Erin was the only person Lydia felt she could say something.. anything to without any fear.
Erin pursed her lips at the talk of her being gone and nodded a little, voice lowering just a tad. "You know.. if not for you, I may not have come back. Would have been easier, that way... but once you have family..." She trailed off. "I know what you mean.. about talking. I wish you were around then. So much to hash out, and no one I trusted, really, to ask about it..." She kept shuffling along, her eyes on the road.
Lydia's own pale gaze moved away from the darkening road and environments ahead of them and towards Erin to regard her. She wasn't even aware of where they were going really, as Erin was the one leading on, towards WestEnd. Erin was the one, after all, who know where the restaurant was they were heading to. Oblivious to her enviroment, Lydia's gaze lowered at the mention of Erin not coming back. Such a thought was something she couldn't handle. "Well.. now.. if there's anything you ever need to say.. I'll always listen. I'm.. I'm glad you came back Erin.. not sure if I could handle losing another..." She trailed off, shaking her head. "It's.. the important thing is.. that you did come back though..."
Erin's hangover headache was clouding her judgement and she wasn't watching as vigilantly as she should have been. Darkness falling was something she was used to on her walks home from the market.. though she usually went another way. Straight home. Eyes would check alleys as they walked past, but only quickly. Faintly. Complacent vigilance. She let a smile push through and nodded a little. "Thanks.. for listening when I need it. It means a lot." She paused, tilting her head a bit to look at Lydia. "I'm glad I came back. Really.. I missed you." A pause. "And we have a business to run, yeah?" Her tone lightened a little.
Hearing that, Lydia smiled softly. "I really missed you too Erin.. and of course I listen silly..." She leaned over to nudge Erin's arm with her own. "..you do the same for me, and we're sisters, yeah?" The mention of her business had her expression brightening. "Yeah, we do.. about that..." She trailed off a bit. "...soon I have a bit of a suprise for you, involving our business." She had been wanting to show Erin this suprise for some time now, but it hadn't been all that long since she returned, and Lydia wanted to wait for some of the chaos of their lives to die down before unleasing that suprise upon her sister.
"Really?" She brightened a little. Suprises were fun, when they were planned... "That sounds great. I'm sorry I dropped the ball on that... I shouldn't let everything else get in the way, like I do... It's not fair. And it's not very sisterly of me. I'll do better from now on... not neglect you for other things." She paused in her speech, but not in her pace. "I'm sorry.. that I haven't really been there for you since I got married. I know I should be.. or even should have talked to you about it first... it wasn't very sisterly..."
Her smile faded a bit as her steps slowed, eventually bringing her to a halt. "What? ...Erin, no..." Her words were quiet, soft. "You haven't done anything wrong, and you've been there when I needed it.. if you think you've been neglectful of.. us.. then gods, I certainly have too. We just.. new lives and all yeah? Just getting it all sorted out?" She tried to muster up another smile. "And.. your life is yours. You don't need to talk to me about what you decide to do with it.." She bit at her lip, internally struggling with herself, trying to decide if she should go on with this. If there was anything she ever hated, it was having people try to make decisions for her, try to change her life, try to persuade her to change every move she had made... "..even if... even if I don't always.. agree with things you do, it doesn't change how I feel about you. Your life is yours.. and I won't presume to try to control it.. I think we both understand how.. how that is, not having our own lives?" Brows lift faintly to Erin, gauging her reaction. "And making mistakes is how we learn.. We come from these lives where.. we were never allowed to make them, so now..." She trailed off, shuffling her feet against the cobblestones a bit.
Erin nodded, listening and taking it all in. Mental notes on how to and where to reply, but it's hard to really address every point... when they all hit so close to home. She opened her mouth to talk, then closed it. Another collection of thoughts. "I know... it's just that... I should warn you, at least, before I go and change everything... I mean... I didn't do that. I changed everything and never even told you I was going to. I hate that... that I lied like that... and, things keep changing... so quickly.. I don't want us to get lost in the shuffle. I'm scared that I'm pushing you away. I know... that you and Sebastian.. you're not the best of friends.. and that things aren't going swimingly.. but, I don't want that to mean we can't do this anymore." She moved her hand between them. "Or that you'd be afraid to say things to me. If you have to. Even if I dissagree, I'd rather hear it than not... I'd rather know what you think, because I trust you. I love you. And I need an outside perspective sometimes... I get so lost in it all. So consumed..." It was her turn to trail off this time.
Lydia's lips twisted a bit. Sebastian and Erin.. their marriage. Not something she wanted to discuss, not now at least. Things seemed to be okay for the two currently, and adding fuel to the fire was something she didn't want to do. It's one reason she always held her tongue when it came to matters involving Sebastian... She wasn't about to let him or their marriage come between her relationship with her sister. For now? She just smiled faintly. "Well, if I have anything to say to you from now on, I will..." Nodding, the gesture as genuine as her words. "But change, yeah.. I'm.. I'm terrified of change." Her smile started to fade a bit. "I just want things to be good, and stay that way..."
"Yeah..." Erin frowned a bit and shuffled her feet. "Me too... me too... Lydia.. I didn't tell you something before.. I forgot, really... but, Katarina wants to talk to you again. I think, maybe, she's feeling kinda the same.. wanting things to be okay finally... I just... I think I saw something that worries me.. just a little." She fidgeted, crossing one of her feet over the other.
She blinked, her mouth starting to form an 'o' as that seemed to come from nowhere. "Oh." She rocked a bit on the balls of her feet. "Well, I can understand that... wanting things to be okay. If I could make things okay between the two of us..." She trailed off, brows furrowing faintly as she noted her sister's nervousness. "What..worries you?"
"She has one of those stones... I mean.. she just took it out like it was nothing, she wasn't hiding it from me... but..." Erin rolled her shoulders. "You know..."
Lydia's expression just fell when she heard that. She remembered that stone, what it did to her, how it felt... that pain, not being able to move, feeling so.. drained. Her gaze trailed to the ground, as she wasn't entirely sure what to say to that, what to feel about that. She was rather distracted as they just stood there, and didn't hear the footsteps behind her, didn't see the shadows behind Erin.
Only felt a hand grab at her throat, hard.